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I dreamt of you last night I didn't want it I wanted that least As always, you were so real but I know you are only a phantom You always come And I am tormented once again I only want to know Let me rest The truth does not matter As long as I know Please visit me no more I can endure it no longer I cry as I write this but I know I must write it Maybe now you will leave me alone And I know it's not your fault That others said things That you believed things Things that were not true And now there is no hope Has been no hope for years There was only one chance But that was so long ago And now it is gone Now I will sleep And I pray you do not visit I must forget you And then I will die Die alone Unable to care for myself Without help With only pity And disdain |
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GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ok so I should be having a much needed party this weekend with like 12 of my other friends but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO My boyfriends step dad is insisting that they move that weekend so he cant come which sucks cuz that means like 5 other ppl cant come cuz they were comming with him SIIIIIIIIIGH. Oh well.. in 2 weeks we will try again I guess. I cant wait till summer Heather |
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Well, we played in the snow... It was great even though the snow totally beat the crap out of us lol some guy came along and plowed my v=car out so YAY!!!! Cant wait till saturday.. I get to see my hottness Jesse lol. I told my parents and my grandma about him, my grandma is thrilled.... my dad wants to meet him asap and my mom is complaining about all kinds of stupid crap that doesnt matter.... wonderful I made home meade chicken noodle soup today... came out pretty good. heather |
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I'm sick of it... my car is plowed in.. wonderful... oh well.. Im gonna get a snowsuit on and romp around in it with Lora later lol. Gotta have some fun today while Im off work. I wish we had more hills around here.. i know i could rig up some kind of sled thing and have a blast. PS Dustin, I know I didnt get to come see you this summer, my friends car blew a head gasket so that mean no road trip... I however am getting a new car soon so mahybe this summer it can happen....oh yea! we are getting a walgreens here!!!!!!! Can I go to it when its done or do you wanna be the first to take me there??? lol My life rules at the moment Heather |
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Well, I once again have the internet so I'm hoping to be able to make myself get on here more. News.... I got me a smokin' hott boyfriend. his name is Jesse and he's awesome. I'm kinda freaked out though because the way he talkes, and the way this is going seems like it could eventually become something seriouse. I dont let myself get in seriouse relationships. Not sence Greg died. I mean I have pushed away a lot of great guys because of this freaked out fear that I have... I mean it's not like I think everyone I date is gonna die or anything.. I dont know what it is.. maybe I veiw it as a weakness or something. I keep making excuses on why I pulled away from the other guys Derek- because we were great friends and everything was going great and then.. boom... he told me he loved me.... mind blowing.. I mean aren't you soposed to wait until you are at least dating or something? I guess I wasn't ready for it. I regret it. Daniel- he too told me he loved me out of the blue and I didnt see him as the serious type. i mean he was so flirty and all Tim- Everything was going perfect.. we were friends, we talked about liking each other, we talked about dating.... and then.... talk about marrige???????????? It scared me I guess i dont know. Rob- didnt seem like my type after all Chipper- my friend liked him too, wasn't going to go there Ryan- bottom dweller....what a perv. see what I mean?? and now I'm with Jesse.. I'm actually WITH him. It scares me and I'm happy at the same time WHAT IS MY ISSUE??? I just need to know what's going on with me. heather |
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I see life as a monster, and I its evening meal ...something...i can't remember the rest I'll have to come back and finish it ^^ Here it is: I see life as a monster And I, its evening meal Which once ingested Upsets So that I am expelled From its belly upon the shore Where I am once again to be devoured |
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closed at work last night it went well i learned front line well kinda well bart was trying to teach me. then talked with alison and bart about life then went to barts house and cuddled and watched connan ah the simple things in life.. (hahaha and no eddy i dont mean my underwear) my life is going well kisses ariel |
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Even though "We're doomed" is your signature declaration, it's more of a comforting affirmation than a pessimistic prediction. Your Star Wars type is See-Threepio, the chatty protocol droid, and it's your gift for gab that comes in handy when you get yourself into a jam. While you may be somewhat of a worrywart, it's only because your sharp mind and infallible logic fails to take into account the fact that you are also one lucky duck. You are also a friend, never forgetting a birthday or special occasion. Your work ethic is second to none, although your friends usually have to pry you away from whatever your latest project is just so you can have a little fun. Once they do, you can be the life of the party.  You're C-3PO The Classic Star Wars Test Brought to you by Tickle |
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Some desire to speak concisely and cleverly and for the most part pull it off successfully. However, there are times when one’s brain is quite determined to malfunction! It is in these trying times that we depend on some good ‘ole standby words to lighten up the conversation and get us through our stumbling, bumbling, and jumbling sentences. Here is a selection of my favorite substitute words (although some are not recognized as words): Whatchamacallit Thingy Thingamabob Thingamajig Doohickey Doomahitchy Doomaflatchy I hate when I cannot think of a word! Unfortunately, I find myself using these words often! Haha Do you guys have any words (nonsense words) you use? hehehe |
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Seriously I am so awake right now... normally I'm fast asleep but noooooo, not tonight.. weird. I hope this doesn't become a habbit. My job rules. I love it. Chasing little children all day helps give me something to do so that I dont go insane with life slowing down after being so active durring the summer. My sister turned 14.......14..... holy crap..................14.......as in a 1 and a 4.....teen. crazy. I feel like a crappy stalker. Moonlit |
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WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO GUESS WHAT!!!!! I am officially a Pre-school teacher! MWAAAHAhahahahahaha. I have to take some classes and ger 45 hours of training withing my firsr 3 years but that shouldn't be hard at all cuz I just got 3 in communicable diseases today and I go again tommarow for 3 more. This is awesome. YAY ME! moonlit |
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tonight was nice i think i got him to actaully get something accomplished and got 20questioned by the twin im tired, et again ariel |
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im always tired lately and my moms been up everytime ive been hoome which is annoying because im tired and she fires off the 20 question game. i went to a funny movie tonight and had shaved ice -ariel |
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...but to wake and find u there" i tend to write in gaps of time never very many in this blog. for once i can say my life is going pretty good. im in love, i think. im getting along with my parents and sister. works ok. my boyfriend just bought a house i think thats a bit exciting i cant wait to actaully spend time in a house instead of a basement apartment. plus the house is like a block away from mine. |
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Very cloudy today... I hope it rains. We need rain so, so bad. It looks like a desert out here.  Well, I started a pregnancy journal. I have never had one before (not even with my other two pregnancies.) So it is something new for me. Here is the site if you're interested: http://www.babycrowd.com/jr/online/lizzy/ I have been extremely sick with morning sickness... it lasts all day long and I spend a lot of time at the toilet. I don't remember my other two pregnancies being this bad in the first trimester. Well, I have some really awesome news.... my husband has been HIRED for the youth director's position in Maryland!!!! So, it looks like we'll be moving to Maryland soon... I'm pretty excited about it... but yet it also makes me extremely nervous... It gives me all kinds of butterflies just thinking about it. This is a huge step for us... moving away from family and friends and starting a new beginning in a far off state... I'll keep you updated on the date of officially moving... This is all for now... I hope everyone has had a good summer!!!! Is everyone ready to go back to school??? No school for me. I'll be too busy packing... moving... and preparing for the baby's arrival.  Weather: CLOUDY. 97 DEGREES. ~Kittie |
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Here are some pictures from Annie. Song: Hooverville Once-affluent New York citizens are now living in make-shift houses. They are angry at J. Edgar Hoover and blame him for their plight.  Curtain Cast : Becca, Lori, Amy, ME, Shirley One of my roles was Cecille (servant) 
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i went and sat judgement at my grandparents and in front of my aunts i used to love my aunt jane i used to wish to be just like her BUT i dont see anything in her that i want in myself. the one thing that bugs me is how they view my weight and how they told me i better stop eating fast food or ill get fat...or things i shouldnt eat.. i hate that im fine in fact been loseing weight thanks very much. that and the critzing of my job im fucking 19 for heavens sakes my job is fine for now. plus at least im not unemployed like her thats always a good thing. that and critizing all my friends i got from wendys its not fair what the hell does she even know she knows none of them. im sick of being measured up and comeing up short and even my school picks arnt good enough the only good thing that this does is my parents love everything i do for awhile and stick up for me majorly. im going to a movie and dinner with my mommy and sister TA -ariel "And you can trust me not to think And not to sleep around If you dont expect too much from me You might not be let down Cause all I really want is to be with you Feeling like I matter too If I hadnt blown the whole thing years ago I might be here with you" |
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Got some great news.... Hubby and I are having a baby!!!!  Just found out today!!!! Baby will be due in April... My oldest son is so excited!!!! My youngest son could care less... haha. I think I'm about a month along.... I already have names picked out!!!! Girl: First name: Kayrah/Kyrah Middle name:Grace/Hope Boy: First name: Isaiah Middle name: Matthew Girl: First name: Savannah Middle name: Hope/Grace Yeah, I'm maybe considering Savannah. But most likely it will be Kayrah or Kyrah. |
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Well...last time I wrote, I was beginning practice for ANNIE. We just had our final performance this afternoon. It was sad! I'll post some pictures... |