OMG, hey!!!
Date: Aug 3rd, 2007 3:42:21 pm - Subscribe
Mood: mixed
Wow, I haven't got a chance to get on aeonity in a while and so therefore did not know that there was a small login issue. Due to this I thought for a while that I couldn't get on aeonity anymore. I didn't realized until then how much I would miss being able to write here. Well all is well I am back on and able to write. I will probably do a much better update in a few days but I don't really have the time right now. Well folks, ttyl.
<3
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Sleep walking zombie fiends!!!
Date: Apr 24th, 2007 12:11:00 am - Subscribe
Mood: beat
"I like,
Where you sleep,
When you sleep,
Next to me.
I like,
Where you sleep,
Here.
God, I miss Kenny a lot. I know totally lame, but whatever.
I think I am getting slightly sick so I plan on medicated myself a lot tonight in hopes of killing all traces of it. Don't want to go to school tomorrow but it's inevitable. I will be an adult with no school soon, a great and scary thought at once. Probably more rambling about that tomorrow, I swear. Well I dunno what all else to write, the sandman is trying to glue my eyelids together and I may soon reward his valiant efforts with compliance.
Night dears <3<3<3
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My own personal zoo...
Date: Apr 9th, 2007 2:21:30 am - Subscribe
Mood: tired... and hopped up on easter candy
I am up to seven pets now. Literally seven animals living in my house.
3 birds (Pretty-Pretty, Bill, and Akio)
2 Dogs (Jackie and the new Gorgeous Brielle)
1 cat (Osiris)
and 1 snapping turtle (Killer)
It might not be so bad if the puppy didn't bite and shit everywhere. She will be awesome when we get her house broken and get her some more chew toys or at least I hope so. She is cute as hell now, if you ignore those last two things. Killer is cool for now I just dunno what I am gonna do when he gets to big for both the aquariums we have for him. He is only like the size of a quarter now. But if he gets too big or too dangerous to keep I am not gonna want to let him go. I love reptiles! Oh, well guess I will just have to deal with that when the time comes.
As you may have read, I was at Cleveland all week which was cool cuz I got to see my brother, but it was extremely boring. There was nowhere to go there and not a whole lot to do but eat, sleep, watch, t.v. and play on the computer, not as much fun as it sounds for a whole freakin' week. It was worse when Justin was at school, and mom was sleepin' cuz then I didn't really have anyone to talk to but the old man. He isn't too bad as far as step dads go, but he can be really annoying cuz he doesn't know when to leave a subject alone and quit pickin at it. Thank god for Kenny who called almost everyday and the lady who called pretty much everday. I might have died if it wasn't for those connections to the outside world. They did one pretty cool thing while I was up there though, took me to get my eye exam. I should be getting my glasses in within about a week or a week and a half. I am nearsighted and have 20/70 vision without glasses. With glasses that can be corrected to 20/15. They even did a glaucoma test which doesn't hurt or anything but feels weird cuz they blow a puff of air into your eye.
Easter was today, I cannot remember if I have stated it in another entry but I have been dreading it for weeks. Kenny was gonna meet my Adopted Mom and Dad (Aunt and Uncle) and go to church with us. It wasn't so much Kenny I was worried about as it was them. They can totally be freakishly judgmental at times, and if Kenny breathed wrong they could have snapped. Thankfully someone must have slipped them some happy pills because it all worked out ok with a rather large success rate. Richard (the adopted father) even made some comments about them being allowed back whenever they want, and wanting to go fishing with them. It would be really cool. Church even worked out good, they met everyone and everyone was nice and cool about it. For the most part. I was surprised. They both dressed up for church and I made sure to tell Kenny that he cleaned up pretty good. He does look rather spiffy in some nice clothes though I know the boy to well to ever expect that to become a norm and I wouldn't want it to. I am gonna get to see him dress up again Saturday is Prom. I am so freakin' excited I had a blast last time (I think I wrote about it before) and I was just with some friends so this year should be even better. I hope anyway. I have a beautiful light blue Cinderella dress to wear it is all sparkly and girlie. All I need now are some shoes. Well and money for tickets.
Well that tis about all I can think of.
Ciao dears!!!
<3<3<3
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The most lonliest day of my life...
Date: Apr 4th, 2007 3:43:29 am - Subscribe
Mood: upside-down
And if you go,
I wanna go with you
And if you die,
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
I like visiting my mom and Dean but god do I miss my life. I know that sounds weird but this is not my life, this is not my house, and no matter what they say I still feel like I am a visitor, or intruder, ya know? I dunno I love my brother, and my mom (even when we fight, what can I say she is my mom) and Dean is a cool guy I just miss my life.
My other half.
My Kenny.
My Grams (even when she is a pain).
The Dog.
The Cat.
My house.
My friends.
The sounds, smells and feelings that make up my world.
My bed.
My room.
It all just feels like it is a thousand miles away and almost out of reach like someone put me on a deserted island in the middle of the desert. I just get really sad when I am here for some reason and it sucks cuz I know what happens if I don't let things out. I love them all and I always will but I am homesick. I have 3 more days to go... I have only been here 2.
***Lady if you read this I miss you and love you. Or since you will probably read this after, I missed you a gazillion pounds talking to you saved my life. ***
I think... ok enough denial... I love Kenny. That thought scares me more than almost anything in the world. It is weird talkin' to him sometimes cuz I wanna say something like "that is so sweet, I love you." or I wanna make the joke "Your lucky I love you" but I haven't told him how I feel yet. I mean how can I? It is an insanely scary thought for me to think of the fact that I love him, let alone to actually tell him. It's not so much that I am afraid of him goin "Your a freak wtf!" cuz he is a nice guy it is more like I fear him going, "Ok, well I am sorry but I just don't feel that way about you." Or ya know the equivalent of that in Kenny speech, then him gradually distancing himself cuz it's weird then us eventually breaking up. It happens, telling someone you love them can ruin relationships. That would hurt a lot. If he broke up with me and I didn't say it at least it wouldn't be because I told him I loved him and he didn't love me, that's definitely worse. I give Jesse so much credit. It took balls to do what he did. I don't know that is about it folks.
I MISS MY WORLD SO MUCH!!!
I MISS YOU ALL!!!
LOVE YOU!!!
and some love for the rest of you who might read this <3<3<3
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la.la.la....DOOM!!!
Date: Mar 25th, 2007 1:12:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: young
OK so what all is there to say. Watched four episodes of Hellsing last night, plan on watching as many more as I can fit in today with my brother. We both get on messenger and talk while watching it is actually pretty fun. I miss that kid more than he will ever realize. I love him to death. We argued all the time before we moved cuz of all kinds of stupid things and I feel bad about it. But I am trying to make up for it even a little.
I worry about him a lot because of his school, friends and were he lives. I cannot scare away the assholes anymore like I used too.
I have Itunes now and a gagillion songs on my computer... ok 400 some but they are all good.
I am addicted to this site called Deviant Art. I post a ton of poetry on DA. And like one photo manip and a story. I may sometime put the link to that on this but I don't know.
I am reading some of my friends stories and so far they have all been wonderful. Well that's all folks, bye <3
(p.s. i don't ever change that mood so ignore it.)
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