long_gones Aeonity Blog

Kids!

Mon, 18 Jul 2011 07:54:06 -0500

Went swimming at the lake yesterday with my fiancée, some friends, and there kids. It was a lot of fun actually! They have a 1 1/2 yr old and it was his first time in anything bigger than a kiddie pool. He had a floaty but his face was still great to see. Big old smile and an evil giggle here and there. Amazing how a kid can make your day better. ... Read More

No privacy or any sense of a real life.

Wed, 06 Apr 2011 10:37:43 -0500

I don't really feel like writing at this moment I really feel like ranting to the heavens, to the neighbors, to anyone and everyone who will listen. I wanna just tear out my hair and scream and be a crazy person. I mean really!!! I have no internet yet I try to get on as often as I can. Writing soothes and calms me, it helps me keep my head on stra... Read More

When it rains it pours...

Mon, 25 Oct 2010 08:24:03 -0500

I don't get to get on much anymore. Seems crazy because i used to get one all the time. But now i'm always working or watching kids, plus I don't have my own net connection anymore. I have a journal at home on paper. It's just not the same. It's totally getting to the point were I don't wanna answer my phone anymore. Every time I do it's someone te... Read More

Mixed up and confused!

Fri, 19 Mar 2010 23:47:12 -0500

Everything has been crazy lately. It seems almost impossible that its been a year since my dad passed. Some days are normal and some days it seems like my brain will explode! I am so emotional lately I start crying over little things. I get irritated over nothing, and not sleeping well. Anyway long story short I decides that it was stuff I could no... Read More

Too true...

Fri, 01 May 2009 04:38:39 -0500

I heard this song and I didn't know why I lvoed it so much at first. Then I looked up the lyrics and realized I probably couldnt have writted the feelngs any better myself. But it's how I feel most days... "I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest Or the girl who never wants to be alone I don't wanna be that call at four o'clock in t... Read More

R.I.P. J.M.B. Apr. 2nd 2009

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 23:39:20 -0500

My father passed away like...3... days ago... wow only three I can't believe it, it feels infinitely longer and at the same time shorter than that. I have only broke down once so far, thank god, but I just know it's coming. I am numb right now I am sure this entry will come off very blah for such a horrible event but I just can't seem to let myself... Read More

Despair in a pretty package.

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 00:26:17 -0500

How can I still love something that has broken my heart so thouroghly How come I am never enough Why aren't my blood, sweat, time, tears, smiles, laughs, hopes and fears not enough for anyone I gave up my heart My passion My personality My peace My family My friends My safety My security and my home and jumped out on a tiny limb pr... Read More

Spiraling down

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 02:46:13 -0500

"...learn not to close your heart and mind in grief. Allow life to replenish you. When sorrow comes it seems impossible - but new joys wait to fill the void." I thought I was going to lose one of the most important people in my life not even a week ago. I am still scared everyday that I still could. It wasn't an accident it was a choice and one ... Read More

Stranger things

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 23:50:17 -0500

I have had an interesting day running into an old friend who I am now chatting with. I didn't realize I missed this friend so much, or rather the side of myself that person brings out in me. I really enjoy our conversations, though they tend to float a lot between several topics. It amuses me. I couldn't wait to get online and see if my friend was ... Read More

Your so gay... and you don't even like boys!!!

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:18:43 -0500

So what's new you ask... life! I have a job at Subway, yes I am a slave of the corporate machine. Oh well, it pays the bills and I love my boss. Boss = my friend Rachel who is hands down the coolest boss ever. I work random hours though usually I close, and I get to eat Subway which as far as fast food goes, doesn't suck to heinously. Tomorrow is m... Read More