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lost_souls
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I think I'm over you. After 3 years. How pathetic can I be? And that's not even the least of it. The quote of the day is one of the best quotes I think I have ever read. I hope you agree. Youre more punk, hardcore, mod, straightedge, emo, indie than me. Your hair is cooler, your pants are tighter, you have more tattoos. You have cooler pins on your messenger bag & your favourite band is more obscure than mine. Your shoes are more vintage & so is your t-shirt. You own more black clothes than me. I dont even own a trucker hat or a denim jacket. Your glasses are thicker & blacker than mine. The plugs in your ear are bigger. You know more people in bands & your black jelly bracelets are the envy of scenesters everywhere. Your photography is blacker & whiter, your make out club profile is wittier & you have much better soul records. Your tie is whiter, or redder, or blacker. Your scene points are double, perhaps triple mine. Because as we all know, thats what really matters. In a scene where the music has taken a backseat to the haircuts, you win & I lose. |
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lost_souls
"...in our plans." Aug 14th, 2006 2:10:20 pm - Subscribe
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Yesterday was my birthday. I feel older. But it didn't happen yesterday. I grew up the day I fell for you. I grew up the day I got over you. I grew up the day I discovered the truth. I grew up the day I started keeping this secret for you. I grew up the day I learned who I couldn't trust. I grew up the day I realized that you weren't the person I thought you were, the person I used to know and love. I grew up the day you started forcing us to think about the future. I grew up the day you told me about your financial troubles. I grew up the day I had to start watching what I say. I grew up the day I realized that I had to pretend to be happy so that I didn't worry you. You have enough worries already. I grew up the day I realized we weren't who we used to be. I am older than 15, yet I've only been alive for 15 years. What happened to being a teenager? I absolutely love this song. And most of Johnny Cash's songs, though I'm not really a country fan. Quote of the day: We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing, to art, because we desperately do not want to be alone. We want to know we aren't going crazy and someone else out there knows exactly how you're feeling. We want someone to explain the things we can't. We love everything tied up neatly, easy, simple, and when we can't do that, it scares the hell out of us. To not know the next step, or where you're headed, kills. Being unsure isn't in our plans. But it's those moments, the ones where you risk it and step unknowingly into the future, that assures us life is larger than we'll ever know. |
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Which is better? Aug 20th, 2006 2:21:07 pm - Subscribe
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I finally got over somebody who had had my heart for 3 years, only to fall for someone who lives in a different state. I can't decide which is better; liking someone who is unavailable or liking someone who you only see once a year for a week. I saw the documentary 'An Incovenient Truth' last night. I made the mistake of buying popcorn to eat while watching it, because as soon the pictures of the glaciers and of the devastation from hurricans came on the screen, I lost my appetite. It was upsetting to think that people care more about money than making sure our earth will be inhabitable 10 years from now. It was upsetting to learn that people have been aware of this problem since the 60's and nothing significant enough to matter has been done about it. And nothing is going to happen with our current administration in office. It was an upsetting film, but I am extremely glad I saw it. It will stay with me for the rest of my life. And everyone should see it. Everyone. www.climatecrisis.net Quote of the day: The rain begins to fall as soon as the lights go out; Another day of gloom is sure to come when dawn breaks, but for now we have our dreams and we can live a fantasy. if just for a few hours we can be who we really want to be because in the darkness of the night we're not afraid to stand out. |
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uncomfortable Aug 21st, 2006 2:37:14 pm - Subscribe
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I'd rather you tell me the truth and make me uncomfortable than be lied to. I know the truth anyway. Edit: So you won't smoke cigarettes, but you have no problem getting high. Do you realize that you make no sense? One is not better than the other. I wish I could do something. Anything. I love you. Do you know that? I think my biggest question is, Why do you do it? Is it an escape? Is life at home so unbearable for you? Is it just for fun? What separates the recreational drug and alcohol user from the addicted? Quote of the day: Here's the truth about the truth: It hurts. So we lie. |
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Do you care? Aug 24th, 2006 2:38:18 pm - Subscribe
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This changes everything. I hope you're reading this. I wish you wouldn't get wasted out in the garage when I'm here. Like I said, it changes everything. Why do you think I left that day he came over and the five of you were out there?? Do you care that I'm crying right now. Do you care that I've completely lost my appetite. Do you give a fuck about anyone other than yourself? Sometimes I don't think you do. Like right now. Would you care if I told our mother? Or father? Would you? I don't know if I should keep my mouth shut anymore. It's only because I care about you. I love you. I hope you're reading this. And there's no one to talk to at the moment. When I need it the most. How did I know this would happen? |