xbang_bang
It's been far too long - Subscribe
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I haven't been around much sorry guys. Well tonight I am supposed to be sleeping I told myself I would get to bed at a reasonable hour but I can't sleep. I have to be up in four hours, I have a funeral to go to tomorrow morning and I have to be at church for eight. I don't really know the guy who died it was my mom's good friend from high school but I know his parents pretty well because they were friends with my grandparents and my grandparents practically raised me. Aside from the funeral I have a job interview, and I hope I get this job, I need it so badly! So please keep your fingers crossed  I know I am. I really should try to sleep. I will update more I promise! XO |
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two thousand nine... Jan 1st, 2009 11:49:28 am - Subscribe
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| couldn't have come fast enough. Happy New Year everyone! |
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Christmas Eve. Dec 24th, 2008 9:47:32 am - Subscribe
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Yay it's Christmas Eve, I feel like this year went by 100 times faster than it normally does. Christmas kinda snuck up on me this year I wasn't prepared at all! I started my shopping yesterday. I really feel like Christmas has become to commercial. When my friends and I were at the mall everyone was in a bad mood! Nobody has Christmas spirit anymore. My whole family decided that next year we're not doing Christmas. We are going to Mexico and go on vacation instead on exchanging gifts which is perfectly okay with me, I hate Christmas shopping. Well anyways everyone have a good Christmas Eve and if I don't post tomorrow, Merry Christmas! |
runawaykid
happy holidayssss~ Dec 21st, 2008 8:31:10 am - Subscribe
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wish that every day goes like this. its awesome to be in a holidayyy nothing to think about and plus, i can get my naps anytime i want. just got back from a trip from singapore. shopped like hell. bah. anyway.. tis the season to be jolly falalalalalalalalal~ whatever haha. not really good at singing carols anyway.. happy holidays everyone!~ |
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xbang_bang
Lalalalala Dec 19th, 2008 11:15:06 am - Subscribe
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I just downloaded Google Chrome and it's awesome. I love it. I had Safari originally but Chrome is totally fast and better Hm it's supposed to snow like crazy today We're expecting up to one foot of snow ): Not really super excited. I love the snow but why does it have to be on Friday?! Oh well my friends and I are all planning to have a blizzard party. We're gonnah go to someones house and get snowed in and have a good time. Hope all is well and I hope no one got snowed in too bad. |
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xbang_bang
Another year almost gone. Dec 16th, 2008 8:44:09 pm - Subscribe
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2008 hands down worst year ever. For me at least. The end of this year is a million times better than the rest has been, but it's still a bad year. My resolution for next year is to get a grip and start being more productive with my life. No more acting like everything will come to me. Because I know it won't, I am just too scared to try at anything and fail. My sweet is still amazing <3 and I am happy. I can't wait for the Christmas and New Years Eve. I can't wait for 2009 with my new beau my friends and my finally happy family. |
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xbang_bang
The sweetest of dreams. Dec 4th, 2008 3:54:28 am - Subscribe
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I have the most perfect boyfriend. I must be dreaming. |
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IIIIIII Nov 28th, 2008 10:42:20 am - Subscribe
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met a boy recently. This is a breath of fresh air to me. He's so sweet, his eyes twinkle when he smiles and he's always smiling. He knows how to make me laugh, and I'm not scared of him. He looks at me like I am the only person in the whole world. When he kisses me it's soft and slow and everything a young girl dreamed of in her prince charming. He doesn't expect anything of me he just accepts me. In the morning now when I wake up I take an extra five minutes in the mirror if I know I am going to see him. The minutes when I am not with him feel like hours and when we're together it feels like the night just began. He's not afraid to kiss me or hold my hand in front of his friends. And I'm not afraid to let everyone know I'm with him. I'm smitten to say the least and I can't wait to see him tonight. |
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runawaykid
all hell broke loose. last night. aaa. Nov 23rd, 2008 12:19:13 am - Subscribe
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have been such a long time since the last blog. nowadays, it seems that 24 hours just doesnt cut it. the weather is currently cloudy. the wind is blowing. and blowing. and i feel like falling asleep. but i cant. im having my final exam next week. and im supposed to be sitting for my entrance exam for NTU on february. and im no longer sane. after getting my hands on the syllabus for the entrance exam, i have the weirdest feeling ever. its this feeling of questioning myself, if i am good enough. lets just hope i am. this is the only thing im counting on right now. bytheway, i had the highest score in class for the last bio test. im happy! |
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xbang_bang
Lalalala Nov 15th, 2008 10:30:55 am - Subscribe
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| I hate sinus colds and waiting for the first snow fall. |
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runawaykid
waiting.. Oct 24th, 2008 5:43:56 am - Subscribe
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..for the light at the end of the tunnel. school has been hectic-er than before. am going to do a new course on math a level. and i have no idea how i'm going to be able to finish it in just 3 months. god bless us all. been thinking a lot bout the future lately, and i dont know... everything just seems uncertain for the past 2 months ive been so sure of wanting to go to uni in sydney but then i just changed my mind. and now i want to go to singapore. so currently, i have to prepare for my ialts test in case i wanna go to sydney again, and i have to prepare for my math, chem, and phy a level tests, in case i wanna go to singapore.. when there's a will, there's a way. i just hope i know mine before its too late.. :/ |
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xbang_bang
I assumed Oct 17th, 2008 5:34:45 pm - Subscribe
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I was pretty much over the fact that love sucks, but I've realized I hate seeing and hearing about how happy other people are with their loves. I am so sick of crying. Well never assume because like they say when you assume you make an ass out of you and me. |
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U Turn. Oct 16th, 2008 4:15:04 pm - Subscribe
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I've come to realize I don't need anyone to make me happy. It's a long road that I have to venture ahead of me but since I've started showering and going out in public again I feel a lot better about myself. In fact I finally landed a sweet full time job, I got a gym membership, I am going to buy a new car, moving into a new apartment and I have started going out with my friends again. This is a new and different Mandy. |
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xbang_bang
Update Sep 27th, 2008 12:05:56 pm - Subscribe
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| I have found much comfort in the arms of friends recently. |
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runawaykid
missing. Sep 22nd, 2008 4:27:51 am - Subscribe
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life moves so quickly, too fast for us to even watch it passes by. 1,5 years ago i went into this classroom expecting nothing short of awful. its amazing, how classmates can turn into friends. and how can friends turn into family. extended family; if you like. i find myself wondering.. how the future is going to be like. not quite so sure though :/ its overwhelming to think about the times that we've lost. more overwhelming to think about the times to come. do you know how when you watch tv and then commercial goes on, and then you switched to another channel, and then you switched it back to find that the commercial's finished already? like youve just missed a part of the show. that part may just be as unimportant as the commercial, that part may be unimportant at all, but that doesnt matter cause you feel like youve missed something. that is how im feeling right now. no matter how hard i try to slow down and stop to smell the roses, i cant seem to wonder, "is there anything that ive missed?" .... :/ |
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xbang_bang
Love doesn't exist. Sep 12th, 2008 12:12:07 pm - Subscribe
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Ray told me he never wanted to see me again. Figures. As far as I am concerned love doesn't exist. |
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runawaykid
finding home. Aug 16th, 2008 5:56:51 pm - Subscribe
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i find myself questioning a lot of the things i've done quite lately. just realized that what i want is not to be in love but to fall in love. i want to feel the feeling of falling. i miss the feeling my stomach makes when he called, or texted. i miss those nights when i cant seem to go to sleep cause smiling is the only thing i can do and when my heart beats louder than even the earphones that are jammed in my ears. but then i remember how all those things bring me back to this one boy. and how i wont be able to fall in love with anyone else when he's still in my mind. testing the water becomes harder when youre afraid that there might be sharks hiding. it becomes harder when youre afraid that you dont get it right this time. that maybe you have to test it in a whole different swimming pool. or in a whole different lake. or maybe even ocean. "everything happens for a reason, or is that just our reason for everything that happened?" |
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runawaykid
whenever i fall at your feet... Aug 12th, 2008 6:20:14 am - Subscribe
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sometimes, you just need a shoulder to cry on. moving on is easy, its what you leave behind that makes it so hard. im just tireddddddddd. from school but everything has been a lot of fun. this is the final year in high school and you can feel it in the air. everyone is just living this year like its going out of style.  found a possible quote for the yearbook thing "just because we argue doesnt mean there's no love and just because we're not related, doesnt mean we're not family." |
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xbang_bang
All the good ones. Aug 10th, 2008 1:58:36 am - Subscribe
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Pounding, spinning, slow. Churning growls louder than my jumbled thoughts, getting blocked out by snippets of television every now and then. Slow and steady. Relax. I cry. Deep breaths. Slow and steady. I need someone more than ever but there is no one for me. Where have all the good ones gone? |
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xbang_bang
Boys hit girls. Aug 4th, 2008 8:56:20 pm - Subscribe
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Him: Drunken anger, hatred towards me, love for his brother. He doesn't listen to anyone I tell him not to, more like beg. Me: Sober, scared, screaming. "Stop don't do this your brother will be home soon he isn't going to like what I tell him, don't make it worse" He hit me once. I hit him back. He hit me twice. Unconscious, bleeding from my mouth. On the cold hard floor. Bouncing around I hear crying pushing my hair out of my face with a wet face cloth wiping the blood from my mouth. Ray is bent over me crying, Amanda is driving somewhere. Concord hospital, empty I'm cold. Ray has his arms wrapped around me, where was he when his brother hit me? I need six months of dental work and now I have braces on my once perfect teeth, I have a concussion, and I need to have surgery on my septum. I probably shouldn't have stood up to him. Damn my stubborn confidence. |