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hello emoblog. . . i mean aeonity.com. man this is weird. i miss emoblog. but maybe i should say why i was gone so long. someone look one of my older blogs and gave it to my school counciler. so i am now a suicidal anorexic freak. thanks a boatload to whoever did that. ugg i hate you. people suck. but lets see to bring everone up to speed, i am dateing a guy. an amazing boy named zach who i very much adore. he's everthing i need right now. i was going to a therapist for a wile but she now is refering me to someone else. someone who deals with EDs, but they havn't found anyone yet, so right now i am free. school is stupid as usualy. i'm in a fight with janna everyother day btu that is just usual right now. basically my life sucks. blah |
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Smile on my dear girl Smile till the end With every breath that passes There is another moment to pretend London Bridge is falling down Falling on my head Smile just one more time Make it more pretend Grasp their meaning in one hand Maybe then they’ll understand What makes one girl different from the next? What makes it right to play pretend Everyday we are faced with what’s right and what’s not The more you chose the less you know What’s right is wrong, what’s wrong is right Nothing is ever the same Try as you might to make it real The people that matter never seem to feel Heart beats turn into a clock Ticking out your end The day when you finally say Enough with playing pretend |
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me and zach watched haggared tonight. yea lets just say that that is a total guy movie. basically skateboarding, tits, and beer. every nice to watch with your boyfriend. so i wrote a poem a little wile ago that i really liked. . . here it is. . . Pray for us, the ones who hunger Pray for us, the ones who starve Pray for us, the fat and the thin Pray for us, the ones who never win Pray for us, those that are lost Pray for us. We are the girls whose mirrors rule the world For our mirrors are the gateways to ours souls We are the girls who live for yesterday For tomorrow never comes We are the girls who fast for days For food makes the pain go away We are the girls Pray for us oh heavenly father, for the girls who have lost their way. For the girls who can not stay. For the girls who see fat staring them in the face. For the girls who will never be able to turn away. Give us the strength we need to survive Teach us the way to leave by your side Food that was once never consumed, Now burns a hole in our throats. We know the way through pain and hunger Teach us to live without our thunder Teach us to play side by side Teach us to love inside There will come a day where we shall put all our attempts away On that day father, pray for us The girls who never lived. |