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ACT today. sucked ass.im sure i failed. grandpa's coming to dinner tonight, and i have to clean the bathroom. im pretty much cured of my ED now. (well as cured as an ana gets. we know its always there, hovering, but im doing much much better now, thanks to zach) i weigh about 116, which isn't all that good, but it was my very first weight wish. my boyfriend is the best boyfriend in the world. he treats me soooo good and hes hott as hell. i really do love him. thats all folks. |
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today is sunday. grandpa stayed over last night, but i didn't get to see him until this morning cuz i came home late last night. he left right after church and then me maw and elli went to target and igot a bunch of new shirts. pretty kick ass. emily called me to go to the music benifit at the Y but i got to stay around here tonight cuz we're having company. some chick my dad works out with. zach said he might come over, but i have yet to get ahold of him so i dont think it will happen. sometimes i wish he had a cell phone again. my car smells like something died in it. its pretty gross. i must be all the french fries me and zach consumed last night. pretty damn greesy. the people are coming over in like, 40 mins. i had to clean the bathroom which always sucks. there was a dead fly in there that i know has been there since like, 3 weeks ago. i can't wait for next year. next year at this time i will be so far gone from the place. college here i can. one more year to suffer through and then im out!!!!! i can not wait. college will be my time, i just know it. ugg i can't wait. grandpa is going to get a new car, and i hear that eather me or courtney will get the bug. i am soo excided if its me. but i would have to learn how to drive stick. but really anything is better than the POS i drive. 201,000 miles on it. that thing is a peace of shit if i have ever seen it. the whole floor is going to rust out wile im driving. that really wouldn't be safe. but i guess its good. at least i have a car. joy and joh are coming over for dinner too. which will be cool. somethign crazy always happens when they are around. im lvl 30 on WOW. woot woot. so close to getting my mount.!!! i really can't wait. i think it must be really weird to think of little ol' me playing world of war craft with all the nerdy boys that play it. welll im out- gotta go help me maw. |
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today is a day filled with work. im at the office now. and ill be working here until about 2:00 or 2:30. then off to the library. i'll work from 3:30-8:30. ugg. summer reading programs start today, so its gonna be soooo busy. im not looking farward to it. zach never did come over last night. i kind of figured. i really hope he remember sunday. . . . im going to cry if he forgets. hannah invited me to go on the river with her family tomorrow. i said we'll see. i have to call zach and see if we're hanging out. if not, then im definitly going with her. i've been hanging out with hannah alot latly. she really has changed. she's not so much of a bitch anymore. which is a really good thing. joy got a convertable and i got to drive it yesterday. only down the road and back but at least its something. I NEED A NEW CAR!!! but i should get going. i need to run to the post office for diane and then me and joy are going to go run some palces. |
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ugg boys are stupid. its like he dosn't even want to hang out with me. he's more worryed about what his friends will think if he says he can't hang out with them, than what i'll think. all i want is a day to hang out with my boyfriend. is that so much to ask for? i guess so. i asked him about everyday this week. he said he dosn't know. he may have to hang out with his friends. ugg i must be a bad girlfriend. god im dicusting. and i know why its all happening. im so fucking fat. no one treated me like this when i was loseing. god you fat discusting slob. no one wants you. no one. |
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im going to the beach with hannah and her family today. im really exsided. i really want to get tan. i wonder what the temp is going to be like today. i herd in the low 80's. which is nice. i wish it was like 90's though. it looks sunny, all the clouds from this morning went away thank god. after work last night me and hannah went and walked downtown and then we went to mr. movies and rented snl best of will farrel and the vigina monologs. we only saw the snl, cuz i was tired and wanted to go home and sleep. wow was a depressing life i live. but it was still fun. i can't find my new swim stuff, which sucks, but its ok cuz my old ones are cute anyways. corkey keeps barking at something and its really annoying me. blah shut up you bumb dog. ugg i should go finish getting ready. over and out. |