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there must be something in the water. . . whatever that means. whatever happened to the days of reruns and summer sun? i use to just sit and stare into space, now it seems i need a permit just to do that. clap me in iorns, i know what i did wasn't legal, but what you didn't wasn't right. brandy, mans best friend. higgins couldn't have written it better, and thats saything something. myspace whore kiss your men three times a day so they know your not cheating. life love and belly button lint. sometimes you can't control things, like the amount of blood, or how much you kick ass. there is just something sexy about guys who wear girls pants, there is something even sexyer about a guy who wears girls underwear. . . i'm outtie. over and outtie. |
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i think stilwell and em are in a fight. they have both canceled eachother from their myspace. oh well i'm to sick to deal with anything. ugg, i feel so discusting right now. i've decided that i'm not aloud to eat tomorrow. i'm not sure how Cece does it, but i'm determined. i can't even look myself in the miorror anymore. i can't believe i let myself go. 125. i'm so close. almost at 130 again. i never want to go back there. 130. ugg. i can't let myself go there again. no. never. i will be thin. i will be thin. no one can stop me because i will be thin. i feel really sick. i came home early today because i was so sick. i think i have the flu. janna came over tonight and we hung out and watched a movie. it was about a student who assults his teacher and she tells the cops and the cops think that she assulted him. its really sad. it also had rape in it and if anyone knows me they know that my biggest fear is rape. i can't believe what has happened. mel, oh please come back to me. everything was fine until you left. you left a hole in my heart. ugg, i just wish there was a way to end all of this pain. i can't control anything anymore. i know that all i need to do is focuse on food. if i can control my food, then i can control my life. get a grip lucy and keep strong. get ahold of this thing. your better than this. just stay focused on your food and then you can control your life. food=control. just keep telling yourself that. food=control food=control food=control i know i can control this. |