distortion

May 9th, 2005 7:24:04 pm - Subscribe
Mood: jazzed

i'm working on a poem for my young adult lit class right now. i call it distortion. its about a girl whos mother beats her and she used drugs to "distort" her life and make her feel no pain. its acutally pretty good, its goes. . . . Everywhere i look nothing seems right. I'm in a haze of color and i can't quite tell where i am anymore. I can only think about the pills that Dan gave me. i can feel them swimming around in my stomach, flapping around, like fish out of water. They feel beached in my insides.I havn't ate in days and my stomach acid is starting to eat away at my insides. I know these are the regular simptems, but in this state, my heart starts to race, thinking maybe, just maybe i am fianlly dieing. I can see my my mother looking at me now. The haze and the colors have started to lift and i can tell she is looking at me, talking to me. I can't make out the words but i kow she is yelling at me. I try to think back to what could have made her so mad, but my mind is blank. I watch slowly as she lifts her hand high above my head, but i can't see what happens next. I feel a sting in my cheek and i know i'm on the floor, buti can't remember how i got there. There are stars everwhere, dancing behind my eyelids. i can't make out anything anymore and i feel myself slip back into the haze. just anoher day as a stoner. . . . And thats all. i think its pretty good. i have to write a summary about it now and how it partains to young adults and stuff. i hate my teacher, Mrs. Powers. its nothing she has done personally, but our personalitys clash, ya know? its weird, i can't pin point it, but i just know i don't like her. i only have 5 weeks of her class left thought so i'm happy about that. i bought a braclett today from school that is camo and says support out troops. its really cool, only nate got mad about it. he said that real camo dosn't have yellow in it, but mine does. i ask him what about if your hiding in the snow and you pee on it, then you would blend. i mean its not like if i walk into the woods, no one will see me because i have camo around my wrist. anyways i should go do my homework, god math sucks!

Today my mood is: happy go lucky!
song of the day: bloodred summer by coheed and cambria.
snack of the day: better chedders
Clothes: Too small striped shirt that says Ton Sur Ton (anyone know what the hell that means anyways?) jeans, spiked belt, big headband, black and red chuck taylors.

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