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It's been years since I've had a real online diary. I've been posting to facebook for a few months. A few special entries. I'll probably copy them to this site. They're about some seriously amazing times in my life. All of which have happened to appear in the last year.

I'm a makeup artist by trade, a new wife and Mom by fate, and homemaker by circumstance. I enjoy where my life is right now. Things are finally starting to get going. I can't help but think.. Was this all the right choice for me? Everyone asks themselves these sorts of questions when they have something pivotal and groundbreaking enter their lives. I feel solid in my decisions, actions, and follow throughs.. I love my life, my husband, and my new baby boy.
Lord only knows why we feel that we must interrogate ourselves when our brains finally come to call.
Clarity comes from questioning.

I've never done anything with more meaning, solidarity, determination or vital importance than the last year. Hopefully, I'll spill it all here. I'd like to look back on it in a few and see where I am and where I was.

Ciao
xoxo

M

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Mood: cuddly
Random thought:: My baby boy is one month old today.. It's also a half year exactly into my marriage.

makeupmom x-posted from facebook.. Sep 9th, 2007 12:47:33 am - Subscribe

So Close.. - 3:31pm Thursday, Feb 15 | Edit Note | Delete
We finalized our reservation at the Old Mill.. It's going to be gorgeous. I couldn't have asked for a more gorgeous room. We have our menu consultation with the Head Chef this weekend, tuxedo fittings, and bridesmaid try-ons. Whew... At some point this week I need to buy shoes as well. I've got everything else.. I'd like to get some blue shoes, my mom and I saw this gorgeous pair on this bride in a magazine and she used them as her 'something blue'. I'm sure it will work. Even if I don't find a nice pair in blue that I love I can still go white.. and then just have my flowers be the 'something blue'.

I've already got my late Grandma Sue's pearls (old), dress/veil/headpiece/etc (new), Audrey is lending me some pearl teardrop earrings (borrowed), and the blue is taken care of.. I'm relieved that all of this is working out. I planned for so long and so hard to have everything fall into place like it is. It's such a relief.

I know right after the wedding I'll have a lot more time since there won't be anything left to plan.. *smirks* except for the package arriving in August.

Immediately after the wedding is the last month or so of school, then moving, then the baby, then Mike back to school and moving again, and then winter will be here again. Heh. Time flies when you actually have a purpose in your life. I'm sure I'll have time to enjoy the summer. I'll be feeling fabulous and drifting around in the pool.. Mmm. I can't wait. I need a new bathing suit. I'll get a new tankini, I love those on pregnant women.

Michael and I picked out our wedding rings last night.
I'm so happy.. and everything feels just as it should. What more could a girl ask for?

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Mood: preppy

makeupmom x-posted from facebook Sep 9th, 2007 12:52:39 am - Subscribe

Things change.. - 8:57am Saturday, May 19 | Edit Note | Delete
At the beginning of next month my sister's will total up to four. I've never thought about all this family converging until right now. I like having a big family.
When I was growing up, our daily life and holidays only included immediate family because every Aunt, Uncle, cousin, and Grandparent lived south of the border.

It's just awesome to know that this Christmas there will be family everywhere and our son there to make everyone smile. It's just amazing.

I'm in love with my husband more than ever right now for helping me make a family of our own. This is what we were meant for.
♥ Love you.

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makeupmom x-posted from facebook Sep 9th, 2007 12:56:50 am - Subscribe

♥. - 4:15pm Saturday, Aug 18 | Edit Note | Delete
This life has only just begun..

I'm so in love with you, Jakey.. This is what life was meant to be like.
I promise to be a great Mom, just like I had. You're worth it. You're worth everything. Mommy and Daddy are going to make everything as perfect for you as we possibly can. I promise.

Love you, little one.

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Mood: proud

makeupmom I should be sleeping. Sep 9th, 2007 11:16:38 pm - Subscribe

I rarely get the opportunity to watch it but Curb Your Enthusiasm is a fabulous show. Mike and I don't have cable yet but my father flicked it on during dinner at their place tonight and I found myself screaming to it.
The scenario was that Larry and his wife were having a party and wanted to pick up a cake their friend fed them at a previous get together. They found out that the cake was from an erotic bakery and were furious since it was in the shape of a penis and they weren't made aware of it... only served a slice. Larry confronts this man from serving him dick cake.. and says that he had no idea that it had been in that shape before he consumed it.. To which his friend replies "..so then why did you take the balls home?"

I never am good at reiterating jokes so hopefully that wasn't too painful. Good show however.

Mike's bought a 360 and I find myself resentful. I don't know what it is about video games. I'm one of 'those' people I suppose. I just don't like video games. Never have. It's not because I'm not good at them, which I'm not, or the fact that they're overly expensive, which they are. It's the fact that they're just a waste of time to me.
Bad memories regarding them, I think.

Boyfriends who used to park me in front of the tube for literally 12 hours at a time... screaming at me if I complained.. Smoking joint after joint after joint being contented by that. Not me. There's so much more to my life than that now. Thank the Lord. Sheesh.

I know I shouldn't punish Mike for playing them... I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like when the system gets switched on, I take the back seat. Everything else is on hold.. I barely get an acknowledgment from him if I say something. Understanding that guys will be guys. He's the age where you want to play and he has held off getting this system for a long time. I just feel that with him in school full time and working full time.. There's going to be time for little else. My son deserves time with his father.
Mike is not neglectful.. and is helpful in the middle of the night with anything that Jake needs.
I don't know why I'm so selfish. Attention issues, I suppose.

I've always been a brat.

Cable comes on Tuesday. Then I can stop stealing wireless from our neighbours. I miss watching some specific tv shows. Plus, House will be on this month. That's something that Mike and I do NOT want to miss. We're junkies.

My son hardly ever cries. He's a month old tomorrow and he never cries unless I've done something wrong.
Today we were shopping with my mother and she had to make a few stops on the way home. Jake screamed and screamed when we were stopped. It took her longer than expected in every 'quick stop' that we made. I could feel the anxiety pouring out of my ears because I couldn't take him out of his car seat. All he wanted was for me to hold him and make him feel secure. Stable. Loved.
I know it wasn't anyone's fault and babies cry.. but I couldn't help myself. He cried so hard his entire body turned blood red and tears were pouring down his cheeks. The crying where you feel the change of tone in your core. They're just giving up. Believing that you're never going to help them since you're ignoring their needs then.
It's heartbreaking for me to hear.
My baby.. so upset.

Everything was fine.

But I reacted poorly. My emotions weren't in check. I should have just relaxed and accepted it but I got frantic and just started to continuously apologize to the little one. Silly, I suppose now that I look back on it.

I hate not owning a car. I have no control over my life when I'm dependent on others. I have someone depending on me now.. and I can't afford to have things like this happen all the time.
My nerves can't handle it.

I'm off to bed. Jacob's got his one month Dr's appointment tomorrow.

Goodnight.

xoxo
m

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Mood: stalling
Random thought:: Who gives an eff about Britney's comeback. Let that trash go.