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axa FOFREAKINGFINALLY [01.10.2007] - Subscribe
FINALLY!

Back to my glorious and wonderful blog of pure GORGEOUS.

>D

Now that I can post in it at school again, I'll be sure to post on a daily basis so as not to abandon it again.

Which means Emily and Jane should start posting again. >_> So I have something to read at school. Cause, you know... That would make me feel so much better and everything.

I'm just in such a good mood today. >D

My day has been absolutely wonderful thus far. And I get to watch the Beyblade movie later today. =D It's going to be so exciting. I can't wait!

My happiness today at being able to post on my Aeonity makes the coldness of outside not as bad to bear. ;o;

-sob- It's so emotional.
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Mood: hyperactive
Yaoi Fix: ASCH/LUKE. AHAHAHAHAHA. REPLICACEST. >D

axa Raaaargghhh. Non dormire sum. [12.07.2006] Dec 7th, 2006 10:04:27 pm - Subscribe
I AM UNABLE TO SLEEP.

Gahh. I was so tired earlier. I fell asleep at Jane's house for about an hour, and now I can't get to sleep again. That really pisses me off. Because I'm freaking EXHAUSTED.

I want to sleep so bad that I could cry right now at my inability to.

Mourir, to your comment, I have but one response. My bitch instinct makes me want to beat my cousins senseless.

My uncle and the guy living with him both got jobs. So they'll be working and making money. But of course, Diane hasn't gotten off her lazy ass to find a job. Oh fuck no.

She just wants to be pampered. The lazy bitch. ROAR.

I'm too tired to really rant right now. I mainly posted to hopefully tire myself out more and to keep this thing updated.
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Mood: TIREDASHELL
Yaoi Fix: "I realized that you're not looking... At me." - Kazaki/Wataru~ <3

axa Finally an Update [12.05.2006] Dec 5th, 2006 11:47:18 pm - Subscribe
It's about damn time that I posted in my blog. I pretty much forgot about it, and in the process missed entries that my friends made.

I love you guys. -huggles Mali and Mourir- ;o; Sorry I abandoned our clique blogs.

Anyhow. Onto the rant that is bound to come with a post on this blog.

My cousins [who I'm not even fucking related to yet] are so, so STUPID. THEY ARE IDIOTS. Thank all that is good I don't share a blood-relationship with them.

They claim that my Uncle's moving to this state ruined everything for them. They have decided to give up, because it's all my Uncle's fault that they are here in the first place.

Jessie, who is in the sixth grade, skipped school today without the knowledge of her parents. She was caught by my Uncle, and is now grounded.

Anthony, who has started the most important schooling of his life--high school, has just given up on trying. He's making straight F's. He claims his teachers don't like them, no matter the fact that they are busting their asses to find a way to grade him on things that he likes to do.

They are both fucking idiots. They are selfish brats that are too immature to understand anything.

The next time I accompany my mother to my Uncle's apartment, I think that I will bitch both of them out.

Where the hell do they get off thinking that giving up is the right thing to do? If I was in their situation, I'd be working my ass off trying to be better, trying to get out of the situation they are living in. I'd prove to everyone that just because you come from a struggling family doesn't mean that you'll always be struggling.

At this rate, they are going to end up just like their good-for-nothing, waste-of-space, drug-addict mother. Lazy, without a job, and relying on the government.

They aren't making anything of themselves, and that pisses me the fuck off.

And they think that they are better than everyone else. They are WORTHLESS to the economy. They are WORTHLESS in grand scheme of things. They are wasting the air that I breathe.

If they can't bother to help themselves and work for their right to survive, then they don't deserve the priveledge of living. I am sick and fucking tired of people living off the government and doing NOTHING for themselves.

Since when did anyone owe them that? How the fuck can they act like they are so wonderful when they are jobless, lazy fucktards? Since when did that make you a good person?

Some people are born into wealth. Others are unfortunate enough to be born into poverty. But you don't always necessarily stay in whatever category you were born in. People can change. People can work for their money, and end up rich by sheer dedication alone.

But does my Uncle's family do that? Fuck no. The only one trying in that family right now is my Uncle, who is trying to get a job. And Dalton's too young to know any better, but he's smart enough not to give up like his stupid half-siblings.

UGH. UGH. UGH.

WHY ARE THEY IDIOTS! WHY DO THEY PISS ME OFF SO MUCH!
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Mood: pissed off
Yaoi Fix: Our Everlasting. T_T I want to read it.

mourir Some more grr-ing. Nov 29th, 2006 7:33:38 am - Subscribe
It's really rather sad when your mother doesn't want you to have friends over because it prevents you from checking your brother's homework.

Dude. What a douchebag.

Jenny's only over until 6.

OMG TEH HORROR0RZ!!!

I AM UNABLE TO CHECK MY BROTHER'S HOMEWORK FOR THE TWO HOURS THAT MY FRIENDS HANG OUT WITH ME!!1!!

GASP0RZ!1!!!1!

I can see how much my mother cares for my wellbeing. Perhaps she does not understand that it is not money that makes me happy, it is my friends. Unless she doesn't think I have time for happiness in my educational career, I would like to be happy every ONCE IN A WHILE.

GRR.
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Mood: pissed off
Yaoi Fix: caring for my happiness.

mourir Grrr. Nov 28th, 2006 7:47:19 pm - Subscribe
This is how I can tell that I don't like Tasha anymore:

[1] I roll my eyes everytime she talks
[2] I don't want her to share any more of my interests, such as Tales of Symphonia [same thing happened with Ann]
[3] I write little lists like this about the recent signs of why I don't like her anymore

GUH D:

The only reason I haven't said anything to her face yet is that I don't want to cause unnecessary drama.

I can't wait until this school year is over.
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Mood: peeved
Yaoi Fix: complimenting Kratos x Lloyd

mourir WHAT. THE. FUCK. Nov 22nd, 2006 2:56:12 pm - Subscribe
So, I ask my father if I can spend the night over at Jenny's house tonight and tomorrow night. He said okay. I said okay. We hung up.

Then, my mother calls and she bitches me out about always going over to somebody else's house. It's not a calm, civil scold or reprimand. She's literally screaming at me, wondering why I'm always at a friend's house, and that my brother and sister are going to be home alone.

I absolutely fucking HATE it when I'm shouted at for no damn reason whatsoever. I didn't do anything but ask to spend two nights at Jenny's house because it's fall break and they'll be gone Friday through Sunday and I won't be able to go anywhere during those days.

Since when did that become such a crime? If she had a problem with it, she should have told my dad to say no rather than screaming at me.

Oh, look at me. I'm cleaning the house out of my own good will because I felt bad for slacking. I felt bad because I was putting all the housework on my mother. I'm such a horrible daughter for always going out with my friends.

About my brother and sister staying home alone: My mother and father left me alone in the house when they went gallivanting around the country. Did I complain? No. I could take care of myself. And it's not like they're completely helpless either. My sister can cook more than I can. And if there's any problems, she can call me and I'll fucking RUN to the house if I had to.

It makes no sense.

At least with Emily's parents, they want her to stay home because they want to spend time with her. But my parents just want me home for the sake of being home. I don't see my siblings being home alone as an excuse.

I'm so PISSED OFF. I'm a SENIOR, meaning I'll probably never see Jenny or Emily or anyone else as much as I'd like. Can I not enjoy my friends' presence in peace?

Can somebody PLEASE tell me what I did wrong?

I asked if I could go. I could have just gone without telling them.

I'm making sure that I do housework before I go. I could have just left the house a complete mess.

And Jenny's mother takes such good care of me. She makes sure I'm fed and always pays for my meals and she's just so sweet. She's so different from my mother, who leaves it up to me to make sure my friends are fed. My mother doesn't cook or pay for my friends.

Fucking hate that bitch. What a useless, worthless, pointless mass of flesh.

The 'select mood' that randomly appeared is 'overworked.' I could not agree more. How ironic.

I'm going to continue cleaning because regardless of what my parents think I do all I can to meet their expectations.
[But I guess it's just never good enough.]
[Why am I never good enough?]
[NEVER.]

And today's supposed to be such a happy day. It's my 3-year Kai x Rei anniversary. I posted my fic and everything.
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Mood: overworked
Yaoi Fix: 3 years strong

mourir Exhausted Nov 18th, 2006 6:14:47 pm - Subscribe
School is exhausting me. I almost can't keep up - don't want to keep up. A pointlessness lies behind all the bullshit that is given to me under the guise of education.

English is pissing me off, and I take every opportunity to express my hatred of it.

I'm sorry, as much as I love the teacher, I can't stand the class. I can't stand being bombarded by all this work and being expected to do it perfectly and being expected to understand it.

Is this what college courses are like? A flurry of work with ambiguous purposes and very little time to absorb the information? Being thrust into assignment upon assignment with little explanation?

College course or not, I'm still in high school. AP courses are meant to imitate the level of difficulty in college courses. They are not an exact simulation.

I feel like completely giving up, but I can't. I've worked years and years to make it to this point, and giving up now would destroy everything that I've come to know: academic excellency.

I'm only hoping that English will ease up, because regardless of the fact that I have very little homework in other classes, I still manage to stress out every night because English gives me enough work to make up for the other classes.

Pisses me off.
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Mood: braindead
Yaoi Fix: cheering for me to endure school

axa The Emo Kid Has Cheered Up [11.14.2006] Nov 14th, 2006 10:21:37 pm - Subscribe
Wow. As I looked at my last entry I realized how PATHETIC I was, being all depressed like I had nothing better to do.

I'm so glad I don't constantly live with those feelings, or I think I would hate myself.

But, because people were kind enough to comment me and lift my spirits, I feel that it is my duty to thank each individually.

emogirlie: Thank you for your input. It's always nice knowing that others are going through the same turmoils that you are. All we can do is live and hope it starts to make sense, right?

meip3ng: For the most part, I am a very open person around my friends. I don't get depressed often anymore. And I'm always myself - I don't know how to be anything different. Thank you.

mourir: TT^TT Thank you, Jane. What you said reminded me of your senior quote. :3 Because the only opinions that matter are the ones of my closest friends. Thank you for your words of comfort and advice. I quite enjoyed the mental hug, and I return it.

mali: X3 Aww, you're so cute Emily. Thank you for making me smile and putting me in a better mood~. -hug- You're such a good friend. ;o;

Speaking of friends, I have wonderful friends. I love them so much it seems impossible sometimes. Jane, Emily, and Anna are always looking out for me when I get upset.

I'm sure that I'll be optimistic for a while before I feel depressed again. ^^

Thanks again to those who gave their input. It helped.
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Mood: lovable
Yaoi Fix: Nagi -sniffle- and Omi. ;o; Cuddling and having a pillow fight. Kyaaaa~

mourir Cunt! Thy name is Tasha! Nov 13th, 2006 2:17:33 am - Subscribe
Let's all kill her for being a narcissistic, immature cunt.

Somebody should inform her that there are two ways of doing friend cut posts: pathetically and annoyingly.

She has managed to do both.

Always trying to find some way of inflating your ego, aren't you?

Change back to the girl I used to be friends with. Even Ann was more tolerable. All she did was annoy the fuck out of me. You, on the other hand, manage to lie to me and talk smack behind my back.

Motherfucker.
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Mood: fucking pissed off
Yaoi Fix: comforting

axa Want to Want [11.07.2006] Nov 7th, 2006 11:54:29 pm - Subscribe
I don't understand myself sometimes. I confuse myself sometimes. I get lost in my thoughts because they are clouded and vague.

I have been the type of person who lives for someone else's happiness.

I've become the type of person who lives for my own happiness, with no regret towards the people I hurt to get that happiness.

I've shamelessly broken hearts because the whim suited me. Because being single would make me happy. Because being in a relationship was too stressful and not my scene.

It makes me a cold person. It makes me a heartless bitch to the people who end up hurt.

I want to go to college. I want to get a job and forget about college.

I want to be single. I want to be in love and be placed on a pedestal.

My thoughts contradict themselves in all directions.

I don't like to feel this way. It makes me feel depressed. I feel like the glass is half empty. Like I need to live off the love of people.

I want to be an optimist again. I want to wake up in the morning and think "What can I do today that will please me and make me happy?"

I want to be a bitch that knows what she wants, instead of these fickle whims that change from day to day.

I want to know what I want again.
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Mood: headachy
Yaoi Fix: Papa to Kiss in the Dark

mourir CELEBRATION RABU! Nov 2nd, 2006 6:57:09 am - Subscribe
-flails-

I MADE A 2040 ON THE SATs. I IMPROVED BY 200 POINTS. I MET MY PARENTS' EXPECTATIONS.

I AM SO DAMN HAPPY RIGHT NOW ToT
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Mood: euphoric
Yaoi Fix: having lots and lots of sex as my reward

axa Halloween and Signals Oct 31st, 2006 5:37:11 pm - Subscribe
Is it sad that I can only get a signal at Jane's house if I'm standing in the middle of her drive way? And even then it's only two bars. I'm pretty sure she thinks I'm crazy, if she knows what I was doing. xD;

I freaking hate Sprint. But I'm in a contract with them for two years. Unless Cingular will be awesome and fund the deactivation fee to get me on their plan. But I'll worry about all of that after I turn eighteen and the phone is put in my name.

Anyhow. Onto the subject of Halloween.

I'm taking my cousins Jessie and Dalton out trick or treating. It was originally supposed to be all three of my cousins. And then it was supposed to only be Dalton, since Anthony was planning on handing out candy and Jessie was going with her friend.

Her friend apparently got grounded. So now I'm going to be taking her trick or treating as well, and I have to put her hair in a bun and locate some of my hair chopsticks. I think I gave all of them away, though. Either that or I lost them.

I'll figure out something. Her hair is shoulder length, so it probably would hold chopsticks very well anyway. Feh.

She is such an ungrateful little brat, though. I was nice enough to locate one of my costumes for her to wear, since she didn't have one. And then she had the gall to ask me if I had anything else.

And her mother said "I don't want Jessie wearing a sheet." I made the costume myself. And I put a lot of work into it.

And wow. Every item of clothing definitely starts out as a sheet of some material. Just because the costume is white doesn't mean it's made out of a fucking bed sheet.

God. They have money troubles, and yet they feel that they're too good for some things? I'm sorry. But that seems really fucking stupid. I have had my bouts where I wanted stuff and money. But when it comes right down to it, I am not spoiled. Not like Jessie and that idiot mother of hers.

But yeah. I ended up letting her wear my Chinese cocktail dress and a pair of hand-made Chinese slippers that I bought from this really sweet lady. The restaraunt I bought those shoes from isn't opened anymore. I CAN'T replace them.

And my cocktail dress is no longer made in the short style. It's only made in the long style. And I like short Chinese cocktail dresses.

So if Jessies tears it up I'm going to be really pissed off. It was freaking expensive, and I wear it to classly get-togethers. I will NOT be happy if it comes back in mediocre condition. I've had it for two years and it still looks as pristine as the day I purchased it.

And I don't care if they don't have the money to be wasting. If that ungrateful brat [who didn't even thank me] tears up my dress, Diane and Charles will be forking over the money to buy me a new one. Including the shipping tax.

I'm such a bitch. I'm slowly beginning to realize that I'm getting colder and colder towards my Uncle and that woman he's living with. And Jessie. I haven't really spoken to Anthony to form a definite opinion about him. Dalton really is the only one in that family that I like.

He's so cute, and he actually thanks people when they give him things. No matter if it's just a glass of chocolate milk. In all that he does, he is sweet. And I love him to death.

I wish we were only taking him out trick or treating tonight. It would lighten my mood.

I was okay having time taken out of my night to just take Dalton out trick or treating. Regardless of the fact that I have homework. I was willing to stay up and get it done. But now that Jessie is tagging along. I feel like my night is being robbed from me.

Good thing I'll be with Emily, Jane, and hopefully Holly.

If Tasha shows up I think I'll cry.
I'm not in the mood to put up with her.
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Mood: imabitchimabitchimabitchbitchbitch
Yaoi Fix: Gackt and Hyde ;o;

mourir Asian men = AWESOME Oct 29th, 2006 12:19:23 pm - Subscribe
My newfound obsession with Gackt [and, of course, Hyde x Gackt] eventually led me to re-discover my love for Korean pop singers. More specifically, Se7en and Taebin and Minwoo.

And since I'm the only one in the Yaoi Clique [because we are now apparently a clique] who hasn't posted YouTube links yet, I shall get started on that.

[You can usually tell who Se7en is because he is almost always wearing a hat . . . with his name on it xD]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_f4SbYSQ1cU
[Around 2 minutes in, Se7en and Taebin do some sexy touching *_*]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IpRGrst9YGs
[Se7en and Taebin do some more 'dancing' together in this one~ This was my first video of them ;o;]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Eke_qjbaDI
[Se7en and Taebin being cute and adorable!]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEDVbgSn-hM
[Se7en and Taebin being even more cute and pillow fighting on a game show]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36nBBKulRx0
[Se7en and Taebin and Masta Wu acting like normal, cute, adorable people]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03j758p5L-4
[I didn't see any touching, but I like this song xD]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKT1aDCYRB0
[Minwoo being SOOOOOO CUTE -dies-]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uIqaBveVVLU
[A bunch of clips of Minwoo and one of his band members]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qg-6xSMHncA
[Hahahaha. Minwoo and some other guy babysitting]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9Sx8cZ0N8Y
[Minwoo and one of his band members playing hand games for some reason~ To be honest, I can't tell which one's which xD]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIl85cKtSDg
[Soon, I hope that Se7en and Taebin will do things of this nature. I love you, Gackt. I wish that other guy had been Hyde *0*]
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Mood: fangirly
Yaoi Fix: mansmex rabu

axa I <3 Hyde [And Gackt] [10.24.2006] Oct 24th, 2006 11:38:47 pm - Subscribe
Mali, I'm going to kick your ass.

After you went in search of Gackt videos on YouTube, I felt compelled to find ones of Hyde. Since I love him more than I love Gackt. XD

I found some very amusing ones. Ohheckyes.

So, my lovely readers, please enjoy!

[Cell Phone Commercial?]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AuXCvp6WL4Q

[Clips of Hyde put to the song "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6J23RVdM7do&NR

[Hyde Gets Man Kissed. Ohheckyes. XD]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3C7K1UP03A

[Sexy Dancing Hyde <3]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zimFgNLwvLk

[Terrible Quality, but it's Hyde acting silly.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t43gZtVS4oc&NR

[Penguin Smacking. O_o I love Hyde and his penguin.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtOBnIye3Rk&mode=related&search=

[What's in the Box? Hyde doesn't like Octopi.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPc-c4TmX7s&NR

[Singing Karaoke with a Pink Mic]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NEEHB--fIDU

[Have my babies, Hyde. XD He really enjoys "fuck".]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4rPKNiBXNt0

[Hyde dances... With Santa!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIn9HMc78xc&NR

And now for some Gackt and Hyde! :3

[A Moonchild Music Video. I couldn't resist.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BeXirX-HZVI&NR

[Hyde and Gackt: Bless the lord, it's raining men!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmn7JkAchlc

[I fucking love them. There is man hugging.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQJOvWOSl5I

[Gackt and Hyde clips done to "Everytime We Touch" by Cascada]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vpf602OhgpA&NR

[HYDE, QUIT BEING PRETTIER THAN GIRLS. Another Gackt/Hyde fanvideo. I'm pretty sure this is my favorite to date.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVqInO0a0RY&NR

[Is it sad that I watched the beginning of this video ten times before watching the rest of it? THIS is now my favorite to date. >_>]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZD_xkT5elrQ

[Hyde is such a freaking tease. And Gackt actually waits for Hyde to finish getting make-up so that he can get a hug. -explodes with love-]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xkwRd7Gi6g

[-sobs- I LOVE THEM AND THE GIRL MAKING THESE VIDEOS. THANK YOU FOR LIVING.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0o-u0IojS5Q

[I just should stop commenting. They're going to turn into blubbering rants that make no sense.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJFTPtCVGWg

[Singing together! -sniffle- SO CUTE. I'm such a fucking fangirl.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ycx-gWg-On8

[Just a slide show of pictures, but it makes me happy anyway. BECAUSE THEY ARE FUCKING GORGEOUS PICTURES. The end never fails to make me drool all over the desk. Though I believe it's been photoshopped. But hey, I can still dream.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4r9GbGMF5U

I wonder if they know how many girls [and boys] cream their pants of them paired together?

This is for Mali. I hope you enjoy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXO5DHfHaDc&NR

And I'm pretty sure I love Gackt ten times more than I did before this video binge. XD



Hehe.
-squeals with glee-
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Mood: affectionate

axa Finally Posting [10.24.2006] Oct 24th, 2006 4:21:55 pm - Subscribe
Ever since Aeonity was blocked at school, I no longer get on and post. Which is displeasing to my friends who enjoy reading my entries.

So I'll try to be more faithful in posting now. Since this is the only blog I really keep now, aside from a new one that I'm starting on an unblocked site at school. However, I suspect it will be blocked by the end of November.

So. Yaoi.
Real life slash.
Yep. All of it is hot.

Emily has been buying several movies as of late that have delicious Boy's Love in it.

Like Battle Royale II. Shuya/Taku = Love.

And then there is Moonchild, which stars Hyde [my favorite Japanese singer], and Gackt [who is becoming my second favorite]. They are so wonderful together. And so beautiful. ;o;

I can't wait to finish watching it, but I've been told that the end is so sad. ;o; But very Boys Love-y. So, that's good. <3

AND LATTER DAYS. OH MY FREAKING GOD. I loved it like something crazy.

And now I'm going to watch a movie. I'll try updating tomorrow or something.
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Mood: deprived
Yaoi Fix: Chibis. ;o;

mourir Going cynical Oct 19th, 2006 1:36:13 am - Subscribe
Oh my dear sweet yaoi. She's getting on my nerves so bad. Everytime she says something really stupid or starts telling a story, I can't help but roll my eyes.

I don't want to be angry with her. I still want to be her friend. But there are things about her that I just can't shake off or that I just can't help get irritated at.

For now, I think I'll stick with just ranting and complaining about her. Hopefully, that will get the bitterness out of my system.
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Mood: sleepless
Yaoi Fix: currently happening on my bed

axa ANGER! [10.18.2006] Oct 18th, 2006 2:57:01 pm - Subscribe
The school has blocked Aeonity on their computers. So now I can't get on every day and blog. Ugh. That makes me so freaking angry. And they blocked it as a Game site. WTF? I THINK NOT. DX

Next they'll block Smartania. And I'll be even more pissed off.

UGH. I'M BLEEDING FROM MY FUCKING VAGINA. I DO NOT NEED THIS KIND OF IRRITATION RIGHT NOW.

-storms and rants- ARGH.

I WANT TO CUT OUT MY OVARIES. RAWR. D<
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Mood: malicious
Yaoi Fix: Cuddling with NO blood. T_T

mourir Bleh Oct 15th, 2006 12:22:39 am - Subscribe
I was going to go to sleep, but I ended up reading Let Dai and, well, not sleeping.

I really hate how I get so poopoo when I'm tired. I guess that's why my prime writing time is when I'm about to nod off and sleep at the keyboard - emotions are raw, then.

AHH THIS IS ALREADY SOUNDING LIKE EMO TALK!!!

GO AWAY, TIREDNESS. I WANNA WRITE BUT I DON'T WANNA BE EMO TOT

EMOEMOEMO.

Now I'm acting crazy.

Sheesh.
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Mood: unworthy
Yaoi Fix: consoling me with porn

axa A Little Surprised [10.13.2006] Oct 13th, 2006 1:33:06 pm - Subscribe
Computer Application assignments have been getting a little more time consuming lately. But that's only because research has to be done to do them. For example, for the past two days we have been doing brochures. I did my firs on Wingate University. The second I did on the state of Pennsylvania. I manage to finish the informative parts of the brochure on the day it is assigned, and coming into class the following day I would put the finishing touches [my name, and such].

This weekend my mom and I are going to be putting together my Rainbow Fairy costume for the Halloween dance on the 21st. It was cheaper to make it than to buy an actual costume. I've compared myself to being a gay parade with all of the rainbow involved in the costume. Rainbow armwarmers, rainbow legwarmers, rainbow collar/choker, rainbow wings. And a friend of mine is going to make my eye make-up rainbow colorful as well. My mother, bless her naïveté, thinks it's a nifty idea to be a colorful fairy. She doesn't even realize what I'm going to be symbolizing by wearing it. Or, rather, she knows what the rainbow stands for, but she doesn't realize that I know and that it is my intention to stand for that. I love her to death. But I can't bring myself to tell her about the things that I like. It would disappoint her, and I just can't let her down. I couldn't face her, knowing that was disappointed with my choices.

I went to sleep at 11:00 last night. And I slept until 7:45 this morning. I'm finally feeling like I've had enough sleep. Which is great. I'm so glad that I'm not about to fall asleep. I'm so awake right now, it's insane.

I was somewhat satisfied with my grades at the end of the first six weeks. They went as such:

Psychology/Sociology: 96%
Latin II: 77%
Computer Apps: 100%
Forensics Science: 88%

I was a little annoyed at my Latin II grade. It's a C, but it's a low C. I really need to get a B. It was my fault, however, since I didn't finish all of my homework up. It dealt my grade a blow.

I'm REALLY annoyed by my Forensics grade. I had a 93 in that class. An A. But the school decided to drop a couple of the assignments that not everyone did. I'd done them. And taking away those assignments made the test that I bombed that much more important. So now I have a B. That pisses me off so much. I fucking hate that class. And I hate the school for making it without having a teacher ready to take it on. It's so irresponsible.

We are getting a teacher, however. A teacher that is giving up her planning period to take on the class. Each Forensics class has a different teacher. Because THAT is such a BRILLIANT plan. We're getting the teacher on Monday. She said that we might not even learn Forensics, because she doesn't know Forensics. I don't know about you, but doesn't defeat the purpose of it being a Forensics Science class? If the schoolboard wasn't loaded with assholes, we might have gotten a Study Hall. But no. They can only hire jackasses that don't remember what school is even like.

Rantrantrant.

Rah! I'm furious! Can't you tell?

Not really. Just annoyed is all. I'm required to rant about the school system being retarded. It's my job as a hormonal teenager, don't you know. Now. Onto other subjects. Like the Yaoi viewing and how it's been going.

Boku No Sexual Harassment gave a new meaning to "drunk off your ass", as my witty friend Emily mentioned. There is a scene in it which is, well, disgusting. Really disgusting. Nasty. Sick. Wrong. Etc.

If you don't have a strong stomach, I advise you not to read what I'm about to recount.

If you squirm very easily, leave this entry right now. If you can't handle squicky [vomit-inducing] concepts, then you do not need to read this. I promise you that you will be better off never knowing this. You'll never be able to eat a specific food ever again. EVER. I know that I never will.

There is a disgusting, vile man in Boku No Sexual Harassment. I don't remember his name. But he raped my cute little uke Junya. Then he blackmailed him with video tapes of their sex. And since Junya wants to keep his reputation, he remains a good little boy and does what he is told. Until Honma, his boss, decides to intervene. He gets his revenge. And the nasty man gets EXACTLY what is coming to him. Oh yes. But it is nasty. Very nasty.

Junya gives the nasty man a knockout drug in his bourbon [a type of alcohol]. He passes out, and when he wakes up we are given an interesting perspective of him. You can see a bottle of bourbon being emptied into what looks like his ass. For a second you think "Nah. They wouldn't do that." BUT THINK AGAIN. Honma was most definitely feeding and entire bottle of alcohol into nasty man's unattractive keister. EW. And he actually began to get drunk off of it.

I wanted it to end there. I REALLY did. But oh no. They couldn't spare me from further disgust. Next Honma brandishes corn. Still on the cob. With the leaves peeled back. "Oh my god. He wouldn't do- OH MY GOD." Honma thrusts it up nasty man's but and begins ministrations akin to anal sex. I'm about to puke at this point. IT WAS SHINY. AND NASTY. AND OH GOD I WANT TO THROW UP THINKING ABOUT IT.

Maybe you think I'm over-blowing this, but it was NASTY. I mean, I love a cock up a guy's ass as much as the next yaoi fangirl, but it was CORN. IN A MAN'S ANUS. Maybe it was my utter unattraction to nasty man, paired with the disgust of seeing food used LIKE THAT. Especially when I LIKE corn.

NOT ANYMORE. I will never. Ever. Eat corn again. Not with that image forever burned in my mind. If my mother serves corn on the cob for Thanksgiving, I'm pretty sure I'll upchuck. Yeah.

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Zetsuai was really... I can't think of the word. Melodramatic? Yeah. I think that's it. AND THERE WAS NO FUCKING SEX IN IT. RAWR. I AM ANGRY. I WANTED TO SEE SEX. DX

I really liked the story line, though. But I'm afraid to see Bronze. It's a continuation of Zetsuai. Though I DO know that there is sex at the beginning. It made me quite happy.

We haven't watched Legend of the Four Horsemen or Fish in the Trap yet. But we will. Soon. When Emily DOESN'T complain about the artwork in FitT. That's right, mali. I'm talking to you.

Jane, Emily, and I are working the concessions at the Football Game tonight.

Don't get me wrong. I'm in no way displaying school spirit. It's because Mr. Horne begged me to do it, because he was short workers. Mr. Horne is my favorite teacher at this school. How could I possible say no? I don't have anything better to do.

So, we're going to have fun working together. I would say since we won't see Jane on Saturday, but I think we're going to see The Grudge 2? I think so, anyway. After she gets done with her SATs.

Emily is spending the night, so that's going to be fun. I think she's going to bombard me with horror movies.
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Mood: dandy
Yaoi Fix: Cuddling! Fireplace! YAY! ^o^

mourir Oh my days Oct 12th, 2006 9:12:58 pm - Subscribe
It is quite difficult to explain the complexity of the American education system. I'm trying my best, but I think I'm failing.

I'm not really looking forward to the SATs, but hopefully every deity known to mankind will give me the strength to make at least a 2000. If not, God help us all, my parents will go berserk.

I can't wait until the SATs are over with this weekend. I've been so stressed lately - not really myself at all.

And that damn coffee made me sick.

Tasha continues to get on my everlasting nerves.

From what I heard, it wasn't just Laura who thought Jeffrey got outside help. It was Michael and Uli, too. I guess that means they deserve hatred because, oh no, they are against Jeffrey!1!11!!!11

-.-

Calm down. Jeffrey still showed a collection. Sheesh. Get over yourself. He's still not going to have your babies, so don't cry a river.

I'm tired, but I still have homework and stuff to finish. I can't study for the SATs tomorrow because I have to work concessions at the football game. Much joy, but thankfully I'm working it with friends.

Life needs to start getting better before I drop-kick it like a whore.
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Mood: ugh
Yaoi Fix: secks.