Date: Dec 15th, 2006 4:25:03 pm - Subscribe
It hurts so much ... realizing that you have no one around you. I scratched over my scars, hoping that they will rip and bleed. And I cried the whole time. The last weeks were full of tears and I can't hold them back so easily anymore. I'm weak, I lost my strength and my play-acting. My mask is just a torn up piece of skin.
I want to bang my head against the wall, numb my feelings, turn everything off. Maybe I become an actress again, if I hurt myself, who knows ... but the pain was always sitting in my head and never left me alone. If the whole situation won't change in the next few weeks, I will have to let the pain out of my body again to feel okay.
Just notice me ...
Or am I such a parasite?
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anonymous - December 15th, 2006