Date: Dec 15th, 2006 4:25:03 pm - Subscribe
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It hurts so much ... realizing that you have no one around you. I scratched over my scars, hoping that they will rip and bleed. And I cried the whole time. The last weeks were full of tears and I can't hold them back so easily anymore. I'm weak, I lost my strength and my play-acting. My mask is just a torn up piece of skin.

I want to bang my head against the wall, numb my feelings, turn everything off. Maybe I become an actress again, if I hurt myself, who knows ... but the pain was always sitting in my head and never left me alone. If the whole situation won't change in the next few weeks, I will have to let the pain out of my body again to feel okay.

Just notice me ...
Or am I such a parasite?

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anonymous - December 15th, 2006
Ich hätte dich gebraucht, gerade, jetzt. Ich bin nach Hause gekommen und dachte mir, hoffentlich ist Ma doch da, ich muss mit jemandem reden.

Bring dich doch um. Tu's doch. Angeblich kümmert sich ja kein Arsch um dich, boo hoo. Hau rein, was hast du hier denn schon zu suchen?!
Aber glaub nicht, dass dich niemand vermissen würde, du dumme Kuh!
Du bist dermaßen egoistisch. Freut zu hören, dass dir meine Freundschaft überhaupt nichts Wert zu sein scheint. Wenn das der Fall ist, verzichte ich gern auf dich!

Komm mal wieder zu dir, verdammt.

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