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Such a boring day it's been! Yes, who's getting tired of the same old repetitiveness of the 20th century? I know I am. This era is all copycat fashion trends and poser/wannabees. I'm pretty tired of it ...but, at least some people are still real. Is that more meaningful, to have a few people real while everyone else is fake, or when everyone's real. ...Meh. So, my day; Left school after second period. The class room was so hot and I hate being hot, it gets to the point I can't even breathe and I feel faint, so I just left. Spent the WHOLE afternoon, even to this point, downloading songs. Mainly trying to find songs by a band that seem to be near impossible. But I got about 16 out of 50 ...getting there. So ...my life, school, computer. Oh right! My good friend Kristie called, invited me over for the weekend, well, Saturday night. We used to be the closest friends ever and we did the whole Friday to Sunday weekend, but now ...we've drifted. I kinda miss those days, and kinda don't. I guess now having a boyfriend (No matter how far) changes certain people in certain ways, it's made me an anti-social butterfly. I always have been, but now more so. I talk less to people I even know now. Makes me wonder if I'll ever change? It's not a matter of being shy anymore ...it's just not caring for the world around me. Blah. ~Marlene Escape from the sinking. Do you see what I mean? Freedom beats the kindgom and I saw you in my dream. -The Pillows |
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ARGH! I keep coming home early from school and avoiding class because of having too much to do, too many assignments at once! I'm really screwing up too ...I don't wanna waste this semester. I will try to do my homework tonight. Anyways ...bored out of my mind, spent quite a while trying to find more songs out of all the ones I want, having trouble with it, got three more today, go me! I'm sure sooner or later I will have them all. What's New For Fall Into corduroys or jeans, chinos or capris, sweater vest no sleeves, oxford underneath or whatever you think, I mean whatevers gonna make you want me. C'mon, dress me, I'll be your mannequin. Make me attractive, so sexy and thin. I'm gonna stand still, pose me, in any position and when the people pass by my window, I'll be adored by them. Yeah, I will. I want to be one of the boys from the catalogues that you flip through. You'll point and say "He's the one." (Lick your finger turn the page slick gloss over images). You waste no time deciding. You grab the credit card, call, start ordering, but what's new for fall by spring means nothing. I want to undress you in your walk-in closet after you try on one of your new outfits. I know that six months later you won't be caught dead in it, but for the moment you're there with your shape hanging everywhere and it looks perfect, oh, just perfect ... ...I don't think she likes me, not with this new haircut. I don't think she likes me, I shouldn't eat so much. I don't think she likes me ... Wow, Conor Oberst's lyrics are always so amazing. Well ...nothing else to say, so, have a good friday tomorrow everyone! It's finally just about the weekend! ~Marlene |
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So ...another entry, two in one day, I'm on a roll. I really wish I had something going right now ...to get my mind off things, mainly this never ending boredom. I'm sure once I'm out of this house and more on my own, I'll have more of a life and be more happy with myself. I'm thinking about after this year dropping out of school for a while. I mean, I'm in grade 12 and really regretting my whole skipping 'obsession' over grade 10 and 11. I really screwed up! Now I have to stay an extra year AND a semester, and I can't handle it now, you know? Think it would be ok just to take a couple years off and when I'm living on my own with my boyfriend, I can take courses that cost 20$'s for three weeks (or something like that). ...Think that would be ok? I need feed back to know wether or not my decision is stupid or makes sense. Thanks everyone who reads all I write, I appreciate it. Damn, this blog always makes things better, since everyone here makes sense! Yay all of you for not being ignorant like everyone else I know.  Well ...now that thats off my chest, I hope to get some good responses to all that stuff. ^^ ~Marlene Crying out my eyelids because it's hard to be a man when you are scared like a little kid. The world has become a little too mean and I can't see the point of patient love when everyone just wants to get fucked. - Bright Eyes |
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Well ...today was pretty alright. In first period, there was a couple making out outside out portable when I had went in and then at the end of class ...they were still there! I can understand wanting to do that with your lover ...but ...at school??! Besides, it's the middle of winter and today was much colder than it has been lately ...I just don't understand some people. But ...on to the good news. Me and Zander are getting along fantastically. He's been making me so happy today, my eyes have watered ...such a lovely feeling that I very rarely get. I might get to move into his house this summer, exciting! And with that being said ...I'd have to go to school if I did live there, and I'd want to, I'd get to go with my sweetie! Talk about a win/win situation. Life is going so nicely. I just hope that it doesn't change ..I hope Zander's parents let me live there! Wish me luck, everyone! ~Marlene Screaming is bad for the voice, but good for the heart - Conor Oberst |
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So, last night was pretty okay. I went over to my friend, Kristie's house. We went and saw "Meet The Fockers." It wasn't nearly as good as the first one, and I wouldn't see it again. I wanted to go see "White Noise," but she had already seen it last weekend when she had a birthday party. So anyways ...we watched my Invader Zim DVDs, which was fun, and played Twisted Metal: Black and some Mortal Combat game. Though, we played Twisted Metal most of the night, that's pretty much the game series me and her play the most together. So ...I got home around five today and just took a shower and came on the computer, downloaded a few songs, and now, listening to music and waiting for Zander to come online. Hopefully school tomorrow will go by okay. I'm definitely not looking forward to waking up in the morning. ~Marlene You're a little bit shy, a little too quiet. You're the mixed up girl that everybody leaves behind |