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So, so bored ...like usual. Damn Mondays, they stink. ...Today I went to all my classes, got some of my dreaded work finished! Go me, or something. I came home to finding my mother had finished the ice cream she had bought for me ...and I was looking forward to it all day, so she's buying me more tomorrow after she gets off work ...or so she says. I guess she feels guilty. Okay, now ...about a half hour ago, Zander said he had to switch computers, and he still isn't back! ARGH! The only other thing I was looking forward to ...gone. Pfft, what a dumb day it's been for me, nothing is working out. I even have a headache ...typical. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Let's all hope. ~Marlene Life is beautiful, thank you ...my twilight. -The Pillows |
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Yeah, so, today I didn't have to go to school. I was supposed to go to a doctors appointment and get a full exam, but ...got my period and decided I wasn't comfortable being checked all over while bleeding in those specific areas. So, birth control shall have to wait. My mom said I can stay home, since I was up since 2 in the morning leaving me with about 4 hours sleep. Cramps woke me up and they were so bad, I couldn't get back to sleep, it made me wanna cry, heh. But, better now, took a bunch of advil. I'm glad I got my period though, in a way, I want to put off this doctors thing, though it needs to be done sooner or later. Also, now I won't have my period when I go to stay with Zander for a week after exams. I can't wait. Well, all I've done today was eat, try to call the doctor's to re-schedule and download some songs that seem to be taking their time, but oh well ...I have all day now. So, I should probably dedicate this day to getting caught up on all my projects, we'll see. |
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I have nothing to do. Nothing at all. I'm talking to Zander right now, which is great, but he just doesn't seem too interested at all. Whoa, it's so weird when you write words before you even think them in your head first and you get ahead of your mind and start writting messed up things. Yeah, I do that all the time, but ...anyways ... Turns out the one day I get off of school to do my thing is the one day school is actually cancelled. Why couldn't they just cancel tomorrow? Then I'd get two guilt free days off!! Heehee, I just downloaded all of the songs off of Bright Eyes' "A Christmas Album" and I can not stop listening to "Little Drummer Boy." Such fun it is. I don't usually like christmas songs, being not so christian, but Conor Oberst makes anything sound good and enjoyable to me.  Well, that is all ...mmhmm. ~Marlene "Come," they told me, pa-rum-pa-pum-pum. "A new born king to see," pa-rum-pa-pum-pum. |
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The day has been long, going to class sucks. I skipped fourth, didn't feel up to going, besides, we'd just be working on slower than slow computers for something I'd have more a chance getting done at home, so in the end ...it was all for the best, or will be. When I got home today, I shovelled the driveway, which sucked, I hate snow. Then I just came inside and played Final Fantasy 10 for about an hour and a half. Once I finish this, I'm going to go make myself some tea, then download stuff and wait for Zander to come online. We haven't been getting along too great lately, which is a bit of a downer, but after hard times in a relationship, it usually gets 10 times better after, hopefully it'll be like that this time around. ~Marlene |
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Well, I was talking to Zander, but, he seems so uninterested in me in every way possible. He barely said anything, he hardly responded to anything I had to say ...I feel like crap. So ...his dad had a heart attack, and I don't blame him for being effected by it so stronly. I've tried to comfort him, but it's so hard to when it's on MSN messenger and all he's doing is making me feel like crap. So, I was offering him my opinion and what I think will happen and what I could do to help ...and of course, asking him how it made him feel and what would happen if it got worse or better. But, all he seemed to care about was how much his life was being screwed up. You know, as if he had a problem and I should feel sorry for him (I don't know if that's really how he feels, but thats what I'm getting from it). I'm not that type of girl, rather than sit there telling him how sad he should be and how bad I feel for him, I'd rather try and help him and give him advice. I hate getting and giving pity. So, he really ticked me off and I told him that it seemed he didn't care what I had to say and that I was going to go for a while, and he pretty much just apologises for being so quiet and telling me he did care, and then "okay" to me leaving. Like ...really??! He never tries and stops me, and that's depressing. So I just said "um, right ...well, bye" ...and he just says bye. ARGH! I'm so mad I feel sick. Hopefully he'll come back on later ...I don't feel close with him at all. This sucks, love sucks. I hate life ..... ~Marlene |