 it will always be. about me. the others. memories past. home |
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it will always be. about me. the others. memories past. home |
| Me, I\'m in my bedroom, crying out my eyelids. |
Jan 13th, 2005 7:51:26 pm - Subscribe |
| So ...another entry, two in one day, I'm on a roll. I really wish I had something going right now ...to get my mind off things, mainly this never ending boredom. I'm sure once I'm out of this house and more on my own, I'll have more of a life and be more happy with myself. I'm thinking about after this year dropping out of school for a while. I mean, I'm in grade 12 and really regretting my whole skipping 'obsession' over grade 10 and 11. I really screwed up! Now I have to stay an extra year AND a semester, and I can't handle it now, you know? Think it would be ok just to take a couple years off and when I'm living on my own with my boyfriend, I can take courses that cost 20$'s for three weeks (or something like that). ...Think that would be ok? I need feed back to know wether or not my decision is stupid or makes sense. Thanks everyone who reads all I write, I appreciate it. Damn, this blog always makes things better, since everyone here makes sense! Yay all of you for not being ignorant like everyone else I know.  Well ...now that thats off my chest, I hope to get some good responses to all that stuff. ^^ ~Marlene Crying out my eyelids because it's hard to be a man when you are scared like a little kid. The world has become a little too mean and I can't see the point of patient love when everyone just wants to get fucked. - Bright Eyes |
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| mood: Isolated Current Tune: Bright Eyes - Saturday as Usual |
(9) sat behind the drumset. |
| deathcab4u |
January 13th, 2005 |
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| I don't think you should drop out. My sister got married right after high school and put off college. She says she plans to go back, but now that shes pregnant I don't see this happening. The baby will probably be going to college before she does. Its not quite the same situation, but I don't know how easy it is to just go back to school. I hope you can stick to it. and you don't have to be a social butterfly, but its always really good to have a few close friends other than your boyfriend. Its important to have a friend that is near you to hang out with and talk to. I <3 Bright Eyes so much. | ||
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marlene |
January 13th, 2005 |
| I <3 Bright Eyes so much too! And I know what you mean about the whole friends thing ...it makes school a whole hell of a lot easier when you have someone there to help you through it. But, I mean, I know if I dropped out, I'd probably want to put it off, but, I know what it's like putting it off now because of the recent two years of skipping ...it's just school has really became too much for me right now and it seems right to stop for a while. And it'll be perfect, since my boyfriend is going to University and I can pick up my extra courses then ...I guess I have a lot more thinking to do about it, and maybe talking about it more with some people. But thanks so much for putting in your 'two cents.' It helps ...lots. | ||
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_paperdoll |
January 14th, 2005 |
| _I don’t think you should drop out either think about it this way if now you are not committing & you are already there, are you going to after you leave? I am leaning towards no, after one takes on an ‘adult life’ things get much more complicated making tasks that are achievable now much harder. I can’t say my experience in high school was pleasant but I loved every single second of college & I am just counting the days to start my Masters. Sometimes we have to make small sacrifices for a big reward; the big reward in this case is finishing it & never going back. | ||
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marlene |
January 14th, 2005 |
| That does make a lot of sense ...thanks a bunch for all the advice you two. ^.^ | ||
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paperdoll |
January 14th, 2005 |
| dont give up picking u your life is hard but it feels good.... i fucked up 10th grade to | ||
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marlene |
January 14th, 2005 |
| I'm glad I'm not the only one ...always makes it seem easier, even just a little, if someone has been through it too. | ||
| deathcab4u |
January 14th, 2005 |
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| Oh yeah. I havn't been bad, but We all think it sucks. I'm almost dine, luckily I made my first three years suck and this year I do nothing...sometimes we all want to quit...but we must mantain our optimism. And on a sidenote...How did people get the Bright Eyes CD's early? I know if you pre-ordered from saddle creek they shipped the 11th...som some people already have theis i guess? I want mine!!! | ||
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marlene |
January 14th, 2005 |
| Yah, I know what you mean. And I have no idea, I downloaded all the songs ...maybe it just all depends where you live. Heh. | ||
| deathcab4u |
January 14th, 2005 |
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| hmmm...I did see the songs on limewire, but I only downloaded one song that they already had at the saddle creek site. peace | ||
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