So what inspired tonight? - Tell me why you cried ...

Tell me why you cried ...	Jan 16th, 2008 1:30:32 pm - Subscribe
...and why you lied to me. I'm scared of letting myself fall in love any more. It seems every time I do, a week, a month, a year goes by and suddenly I fall for someone else. I hope nothings wrong with me and one day I will find someone who always keeps me satisfied, I'm just tired of relationships that end. Works been so fucked up I can't stand it. Suddenly I'm not scheduled for an entire week, now they switched my times. Instead of 11-7am, I'm to work 3-11pm. My afternoons. The best time of every day and I'm supposed to work. I've decided I'm going to ask the manager about it when I get a chance, it may be temporary because they just fired someone off that shift. If they want to make it permenant though, I'm finished there. Perhaps I can switch to days if someone so desperately needed to take my night shift from me. But afternoon/evening is definitely not happening fulltime.
mood: sticky Current Tune: The Beatles	(3) sat behind the drumset.

	frost	January 16th, 2008
	Well hey, welcome back! Long time no see. Hope you can get your times changed at work and it starts going better. Anyhow have a good one, and it's nice to see you back.

	tron	January 17th, 2008
	I understand that feeling. I feel like I've fallen so many times that sitting still isn't right for me. Even when things are really happy, things are good, that weather eye on the horizon scans for someone else. Maybe its because I don't feel like anyone can love me enough. Maybe its because I am addicted to the 'falling in love' part. Maybe just maybe I'm not loving anyone at all. All I might be doing is deluding myself until I find something somewhere comfortable enough to 'do'. I thought I loved someone once, and maybe for a time they even loved me back. But it didn't work, and I'm not sure if I'll ever truly trust anyone again. There probably isn't really someone who will always keep you satisfied. Probably noone who won't seem boring sometimes... But I'm sure at some stage a certain level of complacency will set in, a creeping crawling compromise which will take most of the fight away. Or maybe not. I think I feel extra cynical today. Tron

	evie	January 20th, 2008
	ugh, I hate it when they switch things up on you without your permission. It's so rediculous how they forget they're dealing with actual people rather than a bunch of robots that they can suddenly reprogram to conveniently fit their schedule.