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martinne91
It's overrrr! D-X - Subscribe
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My community service is finally over. Am I supposed to be happy? Well, it feels kinda sad too. I'll miss that gay trainer of mine in the front desk. He made the days fun for me there. Heheh~ And I'll miss the guys there too! I swear! x-D The certificate can be processed tomorrow immediately.. Although I'm not sure what time I can go back there so that the paper can be fixed... ... Like I don't wanna go back and get the paper! *LoL* This is freakin' crazy (again). *slaps forehead* Anyway, last Sunday I met up with a guy... I'd say he's cute with all that fats. Here we go again--my weird fetish acts up again! Oh. Didn't I mention that I like fat guys? Especially if they're bald? *sheepish grin* Whatever. As long as they would look like the number 8. *ROFL!* I kinda like the guy, you know? Well I'm not sure anyway if he does too. Maybe not, eh? Great. *rolls eyes* What the hell, if a guy doesn't like me, then why give a damn? Next! x-D Kidding. I'd like to be serious as possible, it's just that...Why waste efforts on somebody who's not interested with your efforts right? I've been meeting a lot of them lately, and nobody looks interested enough. ...They only want flings! I sure wouldn't like that anymore right? Anyway some guy in YouTube captured my interest recently. His videos are so funny. Check it out!~ That's all for now. Gotta roll out of the internet cafe and I'm running out of time. You know I can't be outdoors after dark, right? Later~ ^_^ |
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martinne91
The sem will be... Dec 10th, 2009 7:31:47 pm - Subscribe
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Over. It's gonna be long boring days ahead~ I'll have some good memories from that school =p Next step... I'm gonna look for work. Hope I would x-D That's all for now =p |
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martinne91
Random Ramblings Dec 24th, 2009 9:44:26 am - Subscribe
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Really don't know what title to put there. Lol. I tried to make an entry last night but the entry won't show up. Aeonity had put up a captcha code now... And I didn't notice it. Lol. How dumb of me. I didn't spend Christmas the way people usually do. I ate earlier and tried to go to sleep earlier because I've forgotten my case of hyperacidity. I felt spasms after i ate 3/4 out of a piece of leche flan.. Gosh, I can eat more than that before. Really getting old. *Lol* Okay, I forgot typing already. It's been almost an hour since I typed the first few words above. Haha. I've been busy with chatting, so... Good thing I wrote what I wanna write in a draft first. First off, I'm glad that I got the chance to pass the initial screening and get interviewed for a job. I passed there too, so I should come back on January for a panel interview. I admit I'm still thinking about it, trying to spin answers in my head for the upcoming interview. Anything I can say about it? Nothing much except that I found my first interviewer weird. He looked astonished or shocked or amazed (i dont know!) when I gave answers. He was maybe biased about adolescents; maybe he thinks most of the people in my age are either irresponsible, immature--all play. Do you think I should be taken differently? Well, if he thinks I'm that dumb I can't blame him. I always thought I'm that dumb too; that I've always been stupid. Or maybe I really looked stupid enough that I fooled his eyes. *Lol* Of course I wanna get hired and be a part of their company, but I'd still be happy even if I didn't get hired. Why? Because I experienced the thrill of it. After that I can be ready for more intense, stress-bound interviews. I could take advantage of starting out early (like in my age) to be able to learn more. I'd say, though, that I'm disappointed with myself. I thought I could get a job before this damned Christmas and fire away. That would be probably just a miracle. I don't believe in miracles anyway. Haha. And in relation to miracles, it could be one if I find a perfect guy! Forgive me, these are just the side-effects of experiencing being loveless for about four months. Lol. What about the other guys I encountered during that 4 months? All of them flunked. Screw it. Either they'll leave you hanging and call your affair a long-distance relationship (which I don't want anymore), I find something bad about him, or I can't give my trust. The third one always happens, the first one the second to it. I started talking to different kinds of men when I started chatting in IRC, when I was 12. And through the course of time I found this out to be true: Men are all the same--either selfish or some wasted son of a bitch. If you're desperate to find somebody serious or just any guy for the sake of having a relationship, and if you've got ideas about what, who, or how your potential Adam (or Adonis maybe. lol) would be, nobody will match your criteria of perfection. True, nobody's perfect, but most guys just don't fit. Either you don't like them or you do but with somethin' bad. Your "man of your dreams" will end up "only in your dreams". Damn fairy tales. Lol. Do I sound terrible now? Like a man-hater? I'd say guys should be the one we call bitches =p Anyway... I've done this entry for almost more than an hour. That's because I've been chatting at the same time. Haha. I'll be back later =p |
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martinne91
Update out of boredom Dec 25th, 2009 7:02:23 am - Subscribe
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I felt like updating again. Maybe because I've got nothing to do. Actually I'm just surfing the internet for available jobs posted around. That's what I've been doing aside from chatting. Or maybe because I felt sick. Just a cold anyway. But that's not much like me--getting a cold at this time of the year? When everybody's supposed to be happy and healthy and-- Oh well, I think everybody felt the way they should about Christmas except me. Have I? Ever? They could have liked the noise (and probably the smell) of firecrackers and other stuff, but not me. I think there will be no good in doing such thing. Fingers get blown off, and then when you try to go out, you'll smell smoke like everybody smoked a whole cigar pack at the same time, with the noise already dissipated afterwards. You'll see carbon monoxide filling the air as if there's no more space for gases like smoke to disappear. What was that, widespread, not-so-deadly version of fumigation? Lol. Actually I didn't feel like talking about the stupid firecrackers. That's just something to babble about because I got bored. Of course I'm not looking forward to that for this coming 2010, but to the other things to be busy about. Sometimes I wish I'd still have a year or two before I think about those things. It's sad that I've got only 2 years to spend in college--in a school which isn't really my choice, a course which, for me, turned out to be a wrong decision later, and, in relation to the school, the type of education which is distance learning. No offense for people who likes distance learning, but if I really want to learn I won't go for it. If I'd have a kid someday I won't let him/her feel the same way like I did. [Off topic] Of course, if you'd have a child you don't want him/her to do the same mistake, but don't push what you want him/her to be (which you probably didn't became). I'm telling you this: no other things can replace freedom. If s/he did regret later, let him/her do something to straighten it out. If you see the determination for that then don't try to discourage. You'll miss something good to see in your life if you do. So... Back to 2010's future busy world. I'd be looking or getting to work, I'm gonna vote (I'm registered already) and... How about lovelife? Argh. Sorry--I was running out of thoughts. (First hypocrisy attempt) Honestly I can't help getting to that. I'm just thinking about what to say. (Still not true LOL) Okay, I give up! I AM thinking about it! (Honest to... Sigmund Freud. LOL) I'm still young, but I can't help thinking. That's just the age anyway. If you're doing things earlier... Yes, you're at an advantage because you learn ahead, but you'll feel like you've lost the usual way your biological clock ticks. You might feel older. I feel like it's now easy to make decisions about other matters such as career, but to think about who to be with isn't that easy. True, I'm looking for somebody I can trust, but, I hope, for the last time. I want to play safe--because I'm tired of getting hurt. One more mistake and I'll never listen to this stupid heart again. You know what I mean. (be a gold digger probably--I'm just kidding.) Or probably I'd go for a lesbian. (What??? O_o) Haha, I was saying stuff as if I can stand it. I'm still normal and I can't do that. Can I still expect anything good to come? I feel the fear now. I mean, I'm scared with the big spiders prowling around the bathroom (Lol)--that's not my point--but you'd be scared to realize that you continuously make mistakes in relationships; you'd be fearful to think that you're the one who's got problems, not them. Try to think about it--if you've always been a failure with that, what future will be waiting for you? It's just that I want to get things right as soon as possible. I've had a lot of regrets about things (and even people) I had let go before. It brought hurt, and I don't want any more of it. I don't wanna carry a burden about heartaches for the rest of my (wasted?) life. That was it anyway. If somebody finds my previous entry and this one contradicting about men, well let me tell you that I still hope to believe there's somebody who would make a difference. But I'm not taking back everything I said. =p |
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martinne91
Crazy Stuff 101 Dec 26th, 2009 7:17:01 am - Subscribe
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My cold is getting worse. I'm blowing my nose off every other time I feel it's clogged but the efforts are just useless. I hope it would go away soon. (I'm not the type to get sick often, so I guess I'll be relieved soon.) I remember my grandmother joking around about colds. You might remember this ole Filipino joke (maybe not, I'm not sure) about how the mucous or phlegm would look like condensed milk. So for people who doesn't know that stuff (coz I dunno if there are some in other countries), condensed milk is some sweet sticky stuff Filipinos love to use--from various kinds of desserts to just plain bread spread (yeah, we do that here). So I was in the room with my granny and aunt (what a girls-dorm-scenario we have, lol), eating coconut shreds with condensed milk. Coconut shreds usually come with fruit cocktail and can be made as a salad, but for people like me who can't wait (or maybe that's just me), we eat it even without the fruits. As for me, that's okay--way better. One time I felt my nose was so clogged that I stopped eating and blew my nose hard to expel mucous, when suddenly my granny suggested substituting my nose-goo for condensed milk because I consume too much of it (I'm always the only one using it because the others can't use it.. Why? Coz when they check the can it's already empty. Lol) Something you might wanna know about me anyway: my sweet tooth always drive me crazy. Sometimes I experiment with some food by adding sweet stuff like condensed milk, sugar, or powdered milk (honey won't count. I don't mix it with other foods). My aunt even told me that when I was a toddler (I think I remember things when I was 4, but this one is earlier, I think), I started coating some fried unripe bananas ("saba" in Filipino) with powdered milk. I wasn't quite a trend-setter here, but when I did that maybe I became one at the moment (even if I was just a toddler? Lol) because my aunt and younger sister did whenever grandma fried some unripe bananas. Maybe I'd like to be a pastry chef too ^_^ I know, I know, I do a lot of crazy stuff. Lol. And I think it's a little crazy to take lots of drugs (hey, I'm not an addict, okay? Just a little, but that's for other stuff). I understand doctors would recommend taking two or more kinds of drugs at the same time, but it seems like taking only two kinds are too much for me to take lately. Since I have a cold I'm taking phenylephrine-paracetamol (I'd prefer the generic term. It was Neozep). But few weeks ago I started my first pack of oral contraceptive pills (better play safe than play miserable) which I take once a day. I don't know if it's the effect of the pills or because I'm taking more meds than I can but I start to feel dizzy even if I just woke up. But that happened twice or thrice before even if I'm not taking the meds yet. Maybe I was just feeling weak because I'm more of a couch potato (and probably the only exercise I do is to make out--I'm serious! LOL). Can anybody tell me what "couch turkey" meant? Is it the same as that one? Thanks Speaking of more crazy stuff... Remember Mau from the past entries? Well she had grown lately. Not bigger anyway, she just kinda stretched. She barely had a tail before--yes, when we found her she had no tail--but now it had been growing for some time. We always kept her in a cage so when we let her out she's always running around like crazy that me and my younger sister found it hard sometimes to catch her. I haven't mentioned that another one of my aunts brought home a cute puppy this past November. My cousins (her sons) started to call the puppy "Babes"--the pup is female--because she was kinda fat that her body looked like the famous "Babe" from the movies. You know, the fat body, the big (perky) ears and slightly curled tail. The crazy stuff I did? I put them together and let them play. Lol x-D I did try to get the cat close to Babes' face before, but since that was the first time, my little adorable (and SPOILED) furball put her paws on the pup's face and... Scratch. Lol. Fail? What'd you expect? Not the harsh scratch mad cats do, though. So Babes didn't cry or let out a whelp or anything. She just got scared--at first. So a while ago I tried to pick them both and I hurried to a closed vacant spot in the house where I freed them. Suddenly Mau started running after Babes, then they're putting paws on each other's faces but there seems to be no mad scratch (or slap. Just kidding) intended. Too bad I'm not too good at filming--I could have had some shots of that just for them. It was a pleasant sight. I'm quite surprised with the puppy because most of our old ugly dogs are normal--they hate cats. I remember we had an old brown dog who loves to kill kittens. He looked gorgeous for me, despite the small size. He looked like a smaller Belgian Malinois because of the dark nose, brush-like tail and the way his reddish-brown and black color blend together in the tail. I only wished he would be bigger. x-D I think I'd like to train this good puppy to get used with the spoiled furball. Lol. That's all that had happened yesterday. I only posted it today because I'm surfing free off-peak hours in the internet. Yeah, I'm still on prepaid. It's still okay for me, although I got used to the uber-fast connection of DSL outdoors (in most internet cafes). See there? Nothing eases my stress but cats and sweets. ^_^ |