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martinne91 Just killing time... - Subscribe
Well, I've been becoming busier and busier lately...

What's more, I will be attending my first community service on Sunday! Yay!

It might be weird that I feel happy about that, but I really am. I've been pretty outgoing these past few days.

Moving on?

No.

Still not healing!

Just forgetting--and maybe hating too.

But what else can I do about that?

I'm a bit happier now ^^

anyway I'll blog more later.

Ciao~
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Mood: grand

martinne91 I'm in.... Nov 12th, 2009 2:02:18 pm - Subscribe
...Surge of panic right now D-x

Coz last Wednesday I lost my Sun Cellular sim card! Darn it angry.gif

And now I can't understand why I'm panicking. The first thing I've thought of when I lost it...

...Was a guy?

He's not my boyfriend or anything, but I've started to be close to him lately since we're always meeting up.

Now where and how the hell can I find him???

Waaaaaaa~ angry.gif

I don't think I'll feel okay if I don't know where the hell he is! Or have a way of communication at least!

I can't understand myself about this. I thought I told him that if he'd be gone, I won't look for him. Then what the hell am I doing???

I'm even planning to stop by to SM North Edsa's Video City to see if I can find him there...

I think I'm getting insane. D-x

Nooooo!

I'm not. Maybe I'm just following what I wanted. I sure wouldn't wanna lose him.

I've been asking myself a lot of questions about him last night before I drifted off to sleep, and now I've got 'em all.

Now that I'm about to lose him!? Argh.

I'm getting way too late.

Anyway I'll blog later. I'm getting busy.

Here's my new number: +639058388416
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Mood: manipulative

martinne91 I BAIL OUT! Nov 15th, 2009 2:03:23 pm - Subscribe
I didn't find him the first try a while ago.

And guess what?

I give up!

*slumps*

Later~
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Mood: malicious

martinne91 I'm so freakin' STUPID! Nov 30th, 2009 4:37:44 pm - Subscribe
How can that slip through my fingers? T_T

A while ago I saw HIM!

He's crossing the highway...

I can ask the jeepney to stop or anything so that I can go down and call out to him..

But what did I do?

Man, I was so frozen in my seat, I can't do anything but stare.

And after the stupidity I've done I'm crying because I WASTED the chance? Damn.

This is sooooo STUPID.

Or maybe some things scared me when I saw him. It's because I'm not sure what his reaction will be when he'd see me.

And for some other reason, I don't wanna betray somebody whom I think I can trust since he himself was the one offering a serious relationship. I don't wanna be unfair with that person.

...But I don't wanna be unfair with myself either, do I?

I got tired when I first tried to search for him, but when I saw him a while ago I suddenly had a little bit of hope that I would get to be with him again.

Gosh, this is terrible, I'm being stupid again. This is freakin' crazy!

I'll blog more later, I gotta have my community service at 1pm.
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Mood: regretful
music: Shawn Desman - Hurt