I didn't know what crossed my mind to disarm all the pride I have and ask him for another chance.
The worst is that I can't come back anymore.
I didn't know why I thought of doing that and forgot my boyfriend entirely for a while.
It's like I'm ready to leave everything for this guy. I don't know, I felt like I'm possessed at that time.
I still can remember how his words hit me like gunshots to the heart. If I can physically bleed, I already did.
It's embarrassing how I cried on the phone while I'm talking to him. I don't feel like I wanna remember it anymore.
I don't even wanna remember that night, I felt like I died. Well, almost did a big part of me.
Well, It's easy to, literally, leave, but not leave all the feelings behind.
I can't believe I even promised to wait for him. It's so damn crazy, you know. But I did.
I think I should forget everything from now on. Even that promise of idiocy that I made. It won't get me anywhere.
And I have my boyfriend, right? And other people I know as well. If he won't be there for me anymore, they will.
I'll rant later. I'd be even happy to do so if I got rid of all the hurt. Get well soon for me then ^^;;
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Last Friday we found a female kitten sitting in the roof of the furthermost house of our compound. I named her Mau. Well, we didn't find her other and my younger sister Jamie liked the critter so much that we decided to keep her although yesterday my aunt told me that she have seen Mau's mother.