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Birthday Oct 19, 1982
Last Time Online 07/23/05 9:51 am
Date Registered July 21st, 2005
Biography I can have a pile of words to describe myself. But for what puzzles me the most, I'd rather choose three words to draw an outline.

I'm not quite an optimistic person, though I'm smiling for most of the time. But it's just a kind of job or say, an illusion. As a matter fact, everyone is acting. Like I always told my fat cousin, "You're really slim!" You might've done that acting before, as we have to, sometimes. I'm not (very) happy for, like everybody else, I have a lot of troubles to sort out, or even more. I don't want others to know my troubles. I'm trying to pretend to be happy (sometimes). For I think that will do good effect on my friends (or say the people around me). But I'm struggling inside. I'm an actor, a tired actor. (I can hardly express myself on this aspect, but it's just something like that.)

Everybody is kind of Sin for some reason. Although I don't quite understand God, I know no one is perfect. However, people (especially those who don't believe in God) seldom consider themselves as a Sinner. If not being perfect is a kind of Sin, then I'm even worse. Everyone was a piece of blank paper when he/she was born, we're drawing something as we grow up, something we have encountered, something has done effect on us. Gradually, I can figure out what my drawing looks like, but unfortunately, it is an unpleasant one. I named it "Taboo". That thing is bothering me, that sexual orientation thing. I'm struggling inside, about which way to go. It's not only a matter of right or wrong, but innocence or guilt. I have a girlfriend (for the time being) as I want a change. She loves me, very much, and I don't dislike her, at all. I'm puzzled again. Am I well on the way of "washing my Sins away" or it's just another wrongdoing? I'm trying to be normal while I don't want to do harm to her. I'm struggling and struggling. If there is God, then please, give me a sign, for I'm a Sinner, a Sinner with an innocent heart.

Everybody needs somebody, somebody whom is called "Friend". "A friend in need is a friend indeed." If only that kind of friends can be called "Friends", then there are only few up-to-standards for me. About friendship, we have millions of quotes to support my "saying", "Friendship is nothing but giving." But for most of the time, we're pleased with receiving things from others, instead of giving. Well, I'm not saying friendship is based on stuff-giving, but it needs emotion exchange, like "I can give you nothing but friendship", it sets up a very good example of friendship. Maybe we're too concerning about others' shortcomings, that we've missed a lot of friends-to-be. There are too many aspects about a good friend after all. So just take it easy, and let time do the rest.

Too describe a person within three simples words is a difficult task. But the three words I have chosen is exactly fit my figure. Trying to be unique but back to normal is what I'm working on now. No matter it is right or wrong, it is me, an Actor, a Sinner, and a Friend.
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Email Address	Only logged in members can view email.
Aeonity URL	www.aeonity.com/meeno
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Public Blogs	8
Comments Posted	0
Mutual Friends	1
Friends Listed Me	1
Gender	Male
Birthday	Oct 19, 1982
Last Time Online	07/23/05 9:51 am
Date Registered	July 21st, 2005
Biography	I can have a pile of words to describe myself. But for what puzzles me the most, I'd rather choose three words to draw an outline. I'm not quite an optimistic person, though I'm smiling for most of the time. But it's just a kind of job or say, an illusion. As a matter fact, everyone is acting. Like I always told my fat cousin, "You're really slim!" You might've done that acting before, as we have to, sometimes. I'm not (very) happy for, like everybody else, I have a lot of troubles to sort out, or even more. I don't want others to know my troubles. I'm trying to pretend to be happy (sometimes). For I think that will do good effect on my friends (or say the people around me). But I'm struggling inside. I'm an actor, a tired actor. (I can hardly express myself on this aspect, but it's just something like that.) Everybody is kind of Sin for some reason. Although I don't quite understand God, I know no one is perfect. However, people (especially those who don't believe in God) seldom consider themselves as a Sinner. If not being perfect is a kind of Sin, then I'm even worse. Everyone was a piece of blank paper when he/she was born, we're drawing something as we grow up, something we have encountered, something has done effect on us. Gradually, I can figure out what my drawing looks like, but unfortunately, it is an unpleasant one. I named it "Taboo". That thing is bothering me, that sexual orientation thing. I'm struggling inside, about which way to go. It's not only a matter of right or wrong, but innocence or guilt. I have a girlfriend (for the time being) as I want a change. She loves me, very much, and I don't dislike her, at all. I'm puzzled again. Am I well on the way of "washing my Sins away" or it's just another wrongdoing? I'm trying to be normal while I don't want to do harm to her. I'm struggling and struggling. If there is God, then please, give me a sign, for I'm a Sinner, a Sinner with an innocent heart. Everybody needs somebody, somebody whom is called "Friend". "A friend in need is a friend indeed." If only that kind of friends can be called "Friends", then there are only few up-to-standards for me. About friendship, we have millions of quotes to support my "saying", "Friendship is nothing but giving." But for most of the time, we're pleased with receiving things from others, instead of giving. Well, I'm not saying friendship is based on stuff-giving, but it needs emotion exchange, like "I can give you nothing but friendship", it sets up a very good example of friendship. Maybe we're too concerning about others' shortcomings, that we've missed a lot of friends-to-be. There are too many aspects about a good friend after all. So just take it easy, and let time do the rest. Too describe a person within three simples words is a difficult task. But the three words I have chosen is exactly fit my figure. Trying to be unique but back to normal is what I'm working on now. No matter it is right or wrong, it is me, an Actor, a Sinner, and a Friend.
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