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i just watched the show CLICK. at 1st i watched it... and i thought it sucks. cause... i didnt really focus on what they were saying. and thought it was meaningless. but soon i found out it wasnt. i watched it again. this time... full concentration. and... it really does touched me. some parts. i wouldnt say i love the show but it made me realize something important. never ever treat your beloved friends or relatives or even family and those close to you or important to you badly. dont regret later on that you've never had the chance to show them how important they are to you. so conclusion is... be honest. tell them you love them. tell them how important they are to you. show them that you care. do anything, anything that'll show how you feel towards them. treasure each and every of them as thought they are worth so much even money cant buy (which is true). dont wait for last minutes. time's flying. life's short. we never know what will happen tomorrow. heheh so... i guess i wouldnt care what people would think about me anymore. i'll just say what i wanna say, do what i wanna do. as long as i dont reget them later. - p.s. i love you - |
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i stayed back yesterday in school.. like usual. fridays hehhe... but i dont think i can already. my parents are getting too... i dont know how to say. they (Actually my mom) kinda think its weird. and my mom is like not allowing me to stay back in school already. safety precaution. thats what she says. and she scared i get too deep in into that relationship stuff. heheh i already am. so doesnt make any differences. we stayed back. me and him. yeapz. heheh at first school starts. like i predicted, keruing and cendana combine classes again. yippee~!!! heheh so we sat together the whole time we're in class. and those idiots like usual... getting busy with their jobs of teasing and gossipping and even questioning!! but... for me, since im in the same class with them for over 2 years, and being treated that way for the whole 2 years... those arent really big a deal. but for him? i dunno. i dont think he mind too. i think. i hope. hahah but no big deal since everybody knew bout it already. wow. he really answered them. honestly. no doubts. i cant do that man. heheh... opps! i can. but i'll for sure drag the time and hope they skip the Q. but if they dont, i'll still answer. hahah dragging time... is lady's specialty. hahah im slapping my own face. *piak* metaphorically of course... and like usual, after recess, we... i guess its more bout me, disappeared to nowhere. hahah no.. thats what my friends are gonna say. cause... i'm not in class. few days straight after recess. heheh naughty me. yea i know. but teachers not teaching also!! eh, wait... yesterday after recess i DID go back to class. i knew pn cheng is gonna come in. and i knew she's gonna ask us to do revision. as a good girl *ahem* i went back to class with him and do my work... while talking to him. hahah taechers notices that. but none came to me and tell me to hush. so... heheh i talk and i do. multi tasker *winks eye* after school... we - me, him, jan, lyn - went to a restaurant. those restaurant selling nasi briyani. they were great. psss~ tell you something. its the first time me eating those. haha. no, im not rich or anythng. but my mom dislike those places. not really dislike but she tend to like chinese restaurants more. and my dad? same. my bro? hahah for him, its anything. plus, i cant go out alone. and i cant go out that often. so i dont eat outside that often either. thanks to them i get a chance to eat more nice foods. not really a big deal though. heheh just love going out with them. hehe. we talk, as usual while eating. laugh out loud the whole time. but there are times when theres great silence. hahah dont know why. i took us bout 1 hour to eat. plus the walkings too. from school to there back to school. heheh those were lunch time. and after lunch? of course we waited for them to leave. no, no we're not shoo-ing them away!! no, never. hahah just that their parents are coming. and they have to leave. so we accompanied them outside the school. oh gosh... i'm being bullied the whole time!! by him. hmph~!! hahah "my camera's on standby" bullshyt! he kept snapping my pictures. stealing my pictures. hahah =P and thanks to john. that annoying bugger. he talk and talk and talk and talk. non-stop. all bout cars. hey, im NOT INTERESTED BOUT CARS!! feel like wacking him already. he said he wanna make me a car freak. good luck dude. you're not gonna make it. as long as its NOT my car, i dont really give a damn. hahah i do admire cool nice cars. but hey, i dont drool over them. i dont get crazy over them. i dont go "oh my gosh i love that car so much! i wanna buy it!!" no i dont. but nice part is what happened after that. no sorry if you're thinking of any actions or indecent stuff, no. thats not what happened. its just me and him world that time. no disturbance. although there ARE some afternoon class students that passed by and *ahem* us. haaha we actually shoo-ed john outta the class. he... i dont mind. i dont like him. but i dont hate him either. get what i mean? so we stayed in the class... his class. cendana. and sit together, holding hands and talk. just nothing but plain talk. oh does that stealing picture action counts? hahah yea he did try to snap pistures but failed. hahah you have to understand. i can avoid being cam very good. but know why he gets some of my pic? cause i didnt really avoid that much. i let him take. but not too much =P do i like being on a camera? yea i do. then why did i avoid? hahah i dont know. seriously. i was suprised we can actually talk that long. from 3 i think... till 4.30 or later. heheh but of course... we enjoy talking to each other. i hope. at least i do. although even if we dont talk... as in total silence... i wont feel bored either. its as though time flies real fast. without me noticing. can the time slower down a bit?? his shoulder... warm and nice. heheh nice to sleep on. i almost felt asleep. its comfortable. the weather is nice. its raining. its cooling. its windy. with him, everythings nice. but with him talking, it made me stay awake. hahah i wasnt tired staying with him. but gosh, when i get home, i was dead tired. i slept on the sofa. and could not get up. how come eh? heheh i miss him a lot. i like him a lot. i... so wanna hug him. his bday is coming. i have a suprise for him. lets just hope i have the courage to give him that suprise. damn. i should have gone online yesterday. i... over slept. cant chat with him T.T *sobs sobs* |
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i just finish making him his card. well, to be exact, its not at all a card. its more like a erm.... note or something. i forgotten to buy a birthday card. truth is, i cant. i cant even leave my house. as in, my parents dont allow me to go out. get it? so i cant buy. i knew that long time ago. so i DID plan to make him one. but ah.. ended up making him those small little notes. heheh but its cute tho... for me ^.~ why didnt i make him a birthday card? good question. i forgot. until just now. which is 30 minutes before his birthday. meaning its like what? 11.30 Pm? wow thats late!! where do i find stuff to make him one? even if i do, it wouldnt be nice. tho those notes arent that nice too. hope he likes it!! i spend most of my time just to make that box. the box to wrap the pig. keychain pig. female pig. hahah a cute small one. wait... its not that small actually. not for a keychain. but its cute! who cares! hahah its pink in colour. wrap with purple colour paper. yea i made a box out of a normal paper. why purple? know what purple means? sexually frustrated haha! but he likes purple! so yea i did that on purposed. made the box purple. wrote his notes with purple pen. and all. heheh... i felt happy doing that. not tired at all. although it wasted most of my night time doing that. it was pretty fast actually. faster den me making a birthday card. i hope he likes it. i hope he doesnt throw it. i hope it will make him smile and laugh and at least be happy =D its his birthday now. its already past 12 morning. and im online. chattin with him. but i didnt wish him. cause... i wanted to give him a surprise. later. after school. when its close to tuition time. what surprise?? heheh he'll know later. no rush. be patient. i cant tell yet. just in case he finds out bout this blog. nope. no one knew bout this blog. except me. for now. hehehe i cant wait. its like... i dont feel like giving him the surprise. just in case anyone sees it. if its teacher, im dead. wait a minute... its nothing indecent or nothing illegal kiez? its totally decent. but i wanna give him that surprise. i dont know. its all up to later. see how i feel. i hope i have the courage. and i hope no one disturbs. as in.... disturbs. lamp post. hahah sorry sorry. no offence. happy birthday honey!!! -muakz!- |
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she called me this morning. this morning as in... around 2 am. plus minus. we talked for quite some time. definitely more than 1 hour. well, thats all i know for that time. he called too. its all my fault. im now not sure was it the right thing for me to tell him that she needed to talk to him. but eventually i told him. and yea he called her. they sort things out. or maybe not. she asked me how to contact him. and i was suprised. ok its not like she never asked me before. and its not like i dont know she likes him. and of course i know they are having some problems. but... she called me just to ask me how am i gonna contact him?? of course more or less i'll get jealous! but hey, dont get the wrong idea... i was jealous. slight ones. jealousy is a natural feeling everyone would definitely feel. not always but they do at times. so yea i dont deny being jealous but of course i do control. i told her to call his parents handphone as his handphone is currently with his sister. and his sister is abroad. so conclusion... he has no phone. and he was out that time. and after thinking for awhile, i think its appropriate for me to let him know that she's looking for him eh? how i know what's happening? she's my close friend. he's my boyfriend. they have problems together? they gotto sort it out. and i do really think he deserves to know. so yea i told him. and he called her. and they chatted. i have no idea what did they chat about. but after that, he called me. to tell me bout her condition. but she called at the same time too. so he felt that she needed someone to talk to, he sacrificed himself and asked me to answer her phone. but she already put down. so i called her instead. we had a long chat. like i said earlier... 1 hour plus or so. i dunno la. things are getting more clear. but more complicated. im not complaining. but she's putting herself too deep in. she gotto chill.she really ought to chill. i made her tell out everything. maybe not everything but most of it. i had to. i cant bare seeing my friend suffer from this kinda problems and dropping their grades. i just cant ignore. so i forced her to tell. to say what she wanted to say years ago. wait... maybe months ago will be more accurate. whats her problem? well, its more like OUR problem. two girl one guy. wanna know the whole story? she likes him. he likes her. i like him. he likes me. shockingly, she likes me too. but i like her as my friend only. get it? ok maybe i should make it clearer. he liked her last few years ago. when he's form 3. same class as her. i was a new student then. so obviously i dont know him. but i know her already. she enjoys disturbing me. now u know why im getting jealous? he does likes her. but now maybe not. i dunno. its hard to say. love does not guarantee anything. it comes and goes. and even comes back. but no i have no doubts on him. i know he's serious towards me. or at least i believe he is. i trust him. why on earth do u think i tell him bout her??? i like him a lot. and im trying my very best to be honest with him. tell him everything he deserves to know. everything. so back to the story. she was confused. saying he leave things hanging. cause... he told her he likes her right before he left for china for a wushu competition stuff. so she stayed undecided. she doesnt wanna think. she doesnt wanna know. so both of them drag it until today. and she regretted it. cause she now came to realize that she likes him a lot too. but he.. vice versa. he doesnt like her that much anymore. as in... friends, of course. but crush? i hope no more. and until recently, he met me. and yea i met him. we knew each other as each other since last year. but we never talk. until this year... must i thank joey?? i dunno. i kinda feel bad towards him. i definitely dissapointed him. but hey, i dont sacrifice my feelings. we met each other. wait... we ARE schoolmates. and in fact, next door class for two years. so recently we started chatting and fell for each other. wait.. correction... its not THAT recently. its like few months back ago. earlier this year. that we started chatting. and until early this month he asked and i answered. so... we gone steady? news spread fast. many knew bout us. even her. well, she knew it all along. we didnt kept it secretly. we... more of erm... let it be. so now, if we ignore her, its gonna hurt her even badly. cause to her, im someone important. and to her, HE... is also someone important. but if we dont ignore her. or avoid her. wouldnt that hurt her to see us together??? i really dont know what i should do now. ok i do know what i should do now. but... her studies is going wayy down. gotto do something bout that. weird isnt it? i like him. he likes me. she likes us. and we thought things can never go more complicated.... |