harold n kumar
[blasted on] Oct 26th, 2006 2:11:10 pm - Subscribe
[I am] mixed up
i just watched "Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle". its a great show. it makes me laugh and also made me realize... that my life aint that sucky after all. though its just a show and its silly for me to think like that just b'coz i've watch it... but to seriously take a closer deeper look into my past life or even now... my life aint that bad after all.
the way they overcome their problem... they way they ended up standing for themselves... the way how life can actually be worst when you thought nothing can get any worst... stuff like that... just reminds me of... how useless i've been. i kept complaining and complaining for every problem that has happened. aih...
i shld be more tough with what i want. what my goal is. what i shld do to solve my problems. not just by thinking... or complaining. or ignoring. cause... each time i think... i get heartache. inner pain in me. tears flow at times... but nobody seems to see it. because i build a solid and huge wall so that nobody could ever come in. to see how weak i actually am.
sometimes i look up upon the stars and moon... oh how i wish to go up there. to be free. free from everything. no problems. no politics. just plain simple.
sometimes... i just wish to close my eyes and hug the person i love so much and to kiss him gently... as though nobody's around.
i cant control my feelings... so what i'll do is just to live with it. and to live with it aint easy. cause... it hurts so bad at times... but so lovely that you can fly up so high...
ok i shld stop.
life is beautiful. life is a living hell.
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