me him and her
[blasted on] Sep 14th, 2006 4:22:56 am - Subscribe
[I am] confused
she called me this morning. this morning as in... around 2 am. plus minus. we talked for quite some time. definitely more than 1 hour. well, thats all i know for that time.
he called too.
its all my fault. im now not sure was it the right thing for me to tell him that she needed to talk to him. but eventually i told him. and yea he called her. they sort things out. or maybe not.
she asked me how to contact him. and i was suprised. ok its not like she never asked me before. and its not like i dont know she likes him. and of course i know they are having some problems. but... she called me just to ask me how am i gonna contact him?? of course more or less i'll get jealous! but hey, dont get the wrong idea... i was jealous. slight ones. jealousy is a natural feeling everyone would definitely feel. not always but they do at times. so yea i dont deny being jealous but of course i do control. i told her to call his parents handphone as his handphone is currently with his sister. and his sister is abroad. so conclusion... he has no phone. and he was out that time.
and after thinking for awhile, i think its appropriate for me to let him know that she's looking for him eh? how i know what's happening? she's my close friend. he's my boyfriend. they have problems together? they gotto sort it out. and i do really think he deserves to know. so yea i told him. and he called her. and they chatted.
i have no idea what did they chat about. but after that, he called me. to tell me bout her condition. but she called at the same time too. so he felt that she needed someone to talk to, he sacrificed himself and asked me to answer her phone. but she already put down. so i called her instead.
we had a long chat. like i said earlier... 1 hour plus or so. i dunno la. things are getting more clear. but more complicated. im not complaining. but she's putting herself too deep in. she gotto chill.she really ought to chill.
i made her tell out everything. maybe not everything but most of it. i had to. i cant bare seeing my friend suffer from this kinda problems and dropping their grades. i just cant ignore. so i forced her to tell. to say what she wanted to say years ago. wait... maybe months ago will be more accurate.
whats her problem? well, its more like OUR problem.
two girl one guy.
wanna know the whole story? she likes him. he likes her. i like him. he likes me. shockingly, she likes me too. but i like her as my friend only. get it?
ok maybe i should make it clearer. he liked her last few years ago. when he's form 3. same class as her. i was a new student then. so obviously i dont know him. but i know her already. she enjoys disturbing me. now u know why im getting jealous? he does likes her. but now maybe not. i dunno. its hard to say. love does not guarantee anything. it comes and goes. and even comes back.
but no i have no doubts on him. i know he's serious towards me. or at least i believe he is. i trust him. why on earth do u think i tell him bout her??? i like him a lot. and im trying my very best to be honest with him. tell him everything he deserves to know. everything.
so back to the story. she was confused. saying he leave things hanging. cause... he told her he likes her right before he left for china for a wushu competition stuff. so she stayed undecided. she doesnt wanna think. she doesnt wanna know. so both of them drag it until today. and she regretted it. cause she now came to realize that she likes him a lot too. but he.. vice versa. he doesnt like her that much anymore. as in... friends, of course. but crush? i hope no more.
and until recently, he met me. and yea i met him. we knew each other as each other since last year. but we never talk. until this year... must i thank joey?? i dunno. i kinda feel bad towards him. i definitely dissapointed him. but hey, i dont sacrifice my feelings.
we met each other. wait... we ARE schoolmates. and in fact, next door class for two years. so recently we started chatting and fell for each other. wait.. correction... its not THAT recently. its like few months back ago. earlier this year. that we started chatting.
and until early this month he asked and i answered. so... we gone steady? news spread fast. many knew bout us. even her. well, she knew it all along. we didnt kept it secretly. we... more of erm... let it be.
so now, if we ignore her, its gonna hurt her even badly. cause to her, im someone important. and to her, HE... is also someone important.
but if we dont ignore her. or avoid her. wouldnt that hurt her to see us together??? i really dont know what i should do now.
ok i do know what i should do now. but... her studies is going wayy down. gotto do something bout that.
weird isnt it? i like him. he likes me. she likes us.
and we thought things can never go more complicated....
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