silentjade
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silentjade
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clint called me a and told me that brittany invited him to go the mall tommorow. bitch didnt invite me. sure she we dont really enjoy each others company. but we should try to be cool with each other before she moves to texas. i havent had this much hatred for anybody as i do for brittany lester. well accept for cassie kenner. clint was telling me to go meet up with them there. but she would just yell at me and tell me to go away. she was one of those friends that i had no idea i was friends with her in the first place. im better off with the friends that i have right now. clint, ming and ginni, good bunch of kids, 2 queers and a staight girl. well anyways i need to run around my house and start yellingl"I HATE BRITTANY". -jade |
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silentjade
this song speaks to me Aug 5th, 2005 3:39:57 am - Subscribe
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my colapsing frame by commander venus Would you do that if it really meant They would see you and would be convinced that you love me And you didn't care who knew it? Please believe me, when I say it's true I have never felt as close to you, or anyone as I do right now And I'm begging you, please don't leave yet And this moment's glass in a fragile state I've convinced myself that it won't crack or break Like a heart, in the winter, when the air is cold And your words, the same, I know them, I know them I am broken, I am wounded Watch me as my fragile frame collapses, collapses on me, on me But it's not your fault you never meant to hurt me You hurt (me) And when it's 5:00 a.m. And you're too tired to ever sleep Well there's no rest for the lonely I hope I die in my sleep There's never been such hopelessness or devotion Or devotion Or devotion What's devotion? i dont know but i can kinda relate to this song. i love songs that i can relate to. |
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music: my collapsing frame by commander venus |
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silentjade
untitled Aug 4th, 2005 10:37:16 pm - Subscribe
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today was boring. i woke up at 11:30, ming called like an hour later i listened to him talk about clint until i got feed up and told him that i needed to go because my mom needed to use the phone even though my mom wasnt even home. then i took a nap for about 3 hours. watched some quality tv. good eats was on food network so i watched that. then i laid in my dark room and listened to bright eyes and david pajofor and hour. and now i'm sitting here typing this boring entry about nothing. nothing intresting has happened recently so my entries have been pretty bland. when something intresting happens i'll be sure to post it. -jade |
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silentjade
why am i mean to the people i care about Aug 4th, 2005 1:29:10 am - Subscribe
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i've noticed this. i'm so nice to people that i hate but to the people i really care about i'm a real bitch. i treat all my love ones like shit. the way i act to my parents isnt the way i should act. when they say i love u i just stand there and say okey. this one time i said they were bad parents. i dont know why the hell i said that. and the way i treat my friends isnt that great too. to clint and ginni i just dont treat them the way they should be treated because those 2 are about the only 2 besides my family that i love to death. and the way i act around gillian isnt that great either i tell her that she has a crazy eye and that shes too ugly to get any guy but really shes abosolutly beautiful with a great personality, she can get any guy she wants. i really need to change. just its something that i think about all the time. im going to try my hardest to start treating the people i care about with the respect they deserve. -jade |
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music: bright eyes- easy lucky free |
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silentjade
have pity on my gums Aug 2nd, 2005 9:46:10 pm - Subscribe
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i had to go to the denitist today for teeth cleaning. my dentist is really nice but she likes to poke my gums alot. i felt like gums were going to bleed when she was cleaning my teeth. but the worst part about going to the dentist for me is when she gives me floride. my floride has a jelly consitancy and it tastes like an old orange when the orange isnt juicy. i was about to vomit is was that gross. i really think that they should come out with jolly rancher flavored floride. its the taste that makes it gross not really the consistancy. i have 2 cavites so i have to go back to the dentist on saturday to get fillings and an x-ray. i hate going to the dentist... -jade |
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silentjade
7 women, 1 homosexual, and carlos Aug 1st, 2005 6:05:37 pm - Subscribe
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that movie had nothing to do with 7 women and 1 homosexual. that pissed me off. it was just like an expression. like it means that a guy needs to cheat. its really stupid the guy in the movie didnt even cheat on his wife. it would have been good if he did cheat on his wife and something bad happened beause he cheated on his wife. like that girl that he cheated on hi wife with gets pregant or his wife finds out. but no nothing happened. him and his wife lived happily ever after. i like movies that have a sad ending. i just dont like that movie. -jade |
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should i be sad or glad Aug 1st, 2005 12:17:29 am - Subscribe
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clint called me today and told me that brittany called him and told hi that shes moving to texas. i dont know if i should be sad or glad that brittany's moving. yeah sure were not friends anymore and she was kind of a bitch when we were friends but we had some good times together. but then theres those other times when i would tell her about my problems and she would just laugh at me. i didnt really enjoy that. and also she didnt make me feel good about myself either. she would always say i'm fatter than her when really shes like 10 lbs heavier than me. but anyways i guess now that i think about it i'm glad that shes moving. but shes not as bad as casey kenner! -jade |
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2:30am and still awake Jul 31st, 2005 4:40:50 am - Subscribe
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lately i've having this problem of going to sleep. i usally had no problem with going to sleep. i could take a nap in the afternoon and gonto sleep at 10:30. now i take no naps at all and go to sleep at 3:00am. its so hard to fall asleep. setting aside my speeping problems heres an update on today. well ming called me 4 times today complaing to me that clint hasnt called him. "he promised that he would call me today". i was going to tell him that i dont care and to get a life and stop obsessing about clint. but i didnt want to be mean. so i made an excuse not to talk to him after the 4th time. i told him that i was going to the mall with my mom. it worked he didnt call back all day. i went to wallgreens to get pictures developed. but on my way back home i saw the skater that clint used to like. so i called clint and we were talking and then i hear his mom yelling at him to get off the phone. so i had to hang up. i never get to have a real conversation with him anymore because he always has to get off the phone after like 5 min. then i watched the movie with the drug attics. i was good. it taught me not to be a drug attic cuz you'll be poor and maybe die. the rest of the day was a blur so i dont remember what happened after the movie. need to try to go to sleep now. i hate staying up. -jade |
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i wish i dont turn out like that Jul 30th, 2005 3:14:47 pm - Subscribe
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yesteday we went to the airport to meet up with my dads freind cesar. hes a nice guy and everything but like he a really lonely guy. his only friend is my dad and he lives in portland alone with his 2 dogs. and he wasnt really that attractive. i was thinking as i was sitting there at the foodcourt listining to him and my dads conversations that what if i turn out like him and live with two dogs and have no friends at all and no companion. damn that would suck to turn out like him. -jade |
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jealousy Jul 28th, 2005 6:33:38 pm - Subscribe
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ming has to ruin everything doesnt he. its official ming and clint are together. for some reason i'm jealous of ming. he took away my best guy friend from me. Clint just likes ming because ming's rich and they both like cars. ming told me that he was going to find someone for me in return for me hooking him and clint up. but i'm not intrested. it would probably one of his stupid friends. if he ever hurts clint in any way i swear i'll make him pay. i'll choke him with his dior vintage leather belt. i should try to like him. because i have a feeling i'm going to see alot of ming in the future. -jade |
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Mood: jealous music: boys to men- i\'ll make love to you(leave me alone i was in the mood for boys to men!) |
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silentjade
untitled Jul 27th, 2005 9:36:20 pm - Subscribe
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i couldnt think of a title. so thats why i called it untitled. i wrote a song about what happened on saturday. i was going to post it but i dont think its good. anyways i just wrote it to let my feelings. thats the reason why i like writing is because i cant express what im feeling by talking about it i have to write it down. i think thats why i like having a blog. to express what im feeling. i dont think i would ever post any of my songs. well today i went to the dermatologist. dr.hale gave me another persciption for my face. now i have to use 3 creams now. IS MY FACE THAT BAD! then i went home and my dad yelled at me as soon as i got home. he started yelling at me because i dont clean the house. i dont think i have to because they make most of the mess. so i ran to my room. i listened to music. wow im bad daughter, oh well. now im just in my room still listening to music. im really mad that clint likes ming. ming is really annoying. i think that clint just likes ming because ming is rich. clint is quite the gold digger. im just kidding clint went out with a girl who lived in a trailer park once. -jade |
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ah finnally a breath of fresh air Jul 27th, 2005 1:10:10 am - Subscribe
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i finnaly got out of the house. it was raining. thats was weird that it rained in arizona. especially in the summer. first we went to ulta. i was going to get matrix shampoo but the were all out of the conditioner. so then i looked for paul mitchell shampoo but that was too expensive. $20.00 for a bottle of shampoo! i want good shampoo but im not going to pay $20.00, im not my sister. so i found texture line 2 for $25 that was like the price of one bottle paul mitchell. im just not sure if its going to be good. ill try it out tommorow. then my parents dragged me to home depot cuz there going to paint there room. we were there for like 2 hours trying to find the perfect shade of red. i was about to kill myself. i hate home depot. was so happy when we left home depot. but no they wanted to go to blockbuster. i just wanted to go home. i dont remember what we rented. i can go and look but im to lasy to walk all the way to the living room. its 11:09 pm and im tired im going to bed. -jade |
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i hate the summer Jul 25th, 2005 5:46:55 pm - Subscribe
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im so bored. theres never anything to do. this sounds weird but i wish school was back because i had something to do. i miss making up weird stories. like about the family that lived on top of the mountains. haha i love that story. i remember this time when i told this girl mariah that ginni's dad calls her doll baby. haha its kinda an inside joke so its kinda hard to get what it means. when used to tell people that eels come out from toilets.i had so much fun making up stories. well got to go. im hungry. -jade |
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update on yesterday Jul 24th, 2005 12:38:40 pm - Subscribe
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well yesterday i went to my moms friends b-day. it was so embarressing. i walked in t the house, i didnt know that everyone was praying so i said "holy shit there's a lot of filipinos then jeremy told me that they were praying. i didnt know they were praying, i cant tell when people are praying its not my fault. then me and jeremy, gillian,and gicel when to CVS to get some red bull cuz jeremy forgot it a home. but then when we got there he relized he didnt have enough money. jeremy's a dumbass i dont understand why he calls me a dumbass. then we went to dominos and i got an amplication it told the guy i need this job cuz my family needs money for rice cuz were starving. then i asked him if we could just eat pizza without asking. it was funny you would have to be there to think it was funny. then we went back to the house we were bored and we decide to take weird pics we put a bra on top of jeremy's head and i then i pinched the top so it looked like i was pinching his nipples on his head. we just took one cuz my camera ran out of battery. that was bassically what happened other things happened but i would rather not talk about it. -jade |
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today\'s schedual Jul 23rd, 2005 1:30:08 pm - Subscribe
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well first of i need to thank those who left me a comment on my last entry. it really means alot to me. today im going to my moms friends house. it'll be ok i guess since gillian and gicel are back and i wont be alone with jeremy. jeremy said that he would bring a four pack of red bull to the house. that kid is addicted to red bull. everytime im talking to him on aim he always talks about how good red bull is. jeremy and i always have things to talk about. i love having a staight guy friend. i used to have only have gay guy friends and straight girl friends but now i have a staight guy friends. all i need now is a lesbian friend. maybe gillian is. that would be a suprise. well anyways gotta go get ready. -jade |
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i wish someone would think i was... Jul 23rd, 2005 4:50:41 am - Subscribe
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i just finished watching the rest of the talented mr.ripley. the part of the movie when he was in the room with peter kingsley and tom were in the ship and peter kingsley told tom that tom was not a nobody and he was a somebody. that made me think. that would be great if someone said "jade ur not a nobody ur a somebody". it would make me feel like im worth something. but nobody ever sya that to me. sometimes i feel like tom ripley he said "I would rather be a fake somebody than be a real nobody". those words spoke to me. but anyways im not completly like that i wouldnt kill somebody and take their identity thats going a little over board. but anyways noone would ever say that to me. people hardley remember me when they went to school with me for 7 years. -jade |
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just woke up Jul 22nd, 2005 9:18:32 pm - Subscribe
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| my guitar is coming and im not at all ready. i havent taken a shower or anything. my mom just woke me up and told me that william coming to teach me. im like half awake. doesnt she know that i always take naps at 7. guess not. well anyways gotta go. |
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10:35pm Jul 22nd, 2005 12:52:38 am - Subscribe
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i couldnt figure out a title so i just put what time it is right now. today i just sat on my lazy ass and watched movies. i met this kid ming,in a chat room and hes gay and he lives by me and hes desperate for a boyfriend so i offered clint he was so happy he was willing to pay me. but being the good person i am i told him to keep his money. i guess hes really rich. he has two vaction houses one in scottsdale and one in california. he reminds me so much of clint. he also has only girl friends and he gets teased by guys for being gay. im going to hang out with him this weekend or next weekend it'll be fun. i went to best buy today and i bought 2 movies. whats eating gilbert grape great movie leonardo dicaprio gave a good performance. and the talented mr.ripley thats just an amazing movie. -jade |
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untitled Jul 20th, 2005 4:10:28 pm - Subscribe
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i had to go to the movies with my parents yesterday. they dragged me out of the house. we went to see the wedding crashers i usally hate movies like that but it wasnt that bad it was pretty funny. well after that we went to blockbuster we rented immortal and the keys tothe house they look like intresting movies i'm going to watch keys to the house later. i have nothing else to talk about so i'll just leave it like this. -jade |
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!?!?! Jul 19th, 2005 6:31:58 pm - Subscribe
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my subject has to do about what i'm going to write about but i just couldn't think of a subject. i'm just going to write about what i'm thinking write now. my foot itches. my room is messy. my hair smells good. this peice of cake has been in my room since saturday. i think my dog pissed on my bed. how would it feel like to be a dog, i could sniff my own ass. i want some dried mangos right now. it would really suck to be a fly because your life span wouldnt be really short. i'm really thirsty. if i had force powers like jedi that would be so fucking awesome i can make anybody do whatever i want them to do with jedi mind tricks. ok i'm done that was fun writing about my random thoughts. gotta go get ready my parents are dragging me off to amc to watch a movie. i guess they think i spend to much time in my house. i have to see a stupid movie. god i hate going to the movies they never have good movies. -jade |