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meshmdz long time coming - Subscribe
it has been forever since i have posted in my journal here. i think the last time i posted here, from looking at the last entry, was right after cara and i broke up. since then things have changed. in my life, in many ways. i had a new girlfriend named shannon, decided i was going to branch military police or military intelligence, received a scholarship with the army, and have decided to move to knoxville and attend college at the university of tennessee, thanks to the united states army. i took the initiative to look into bettering myself and was offered a scholarship with the vol army at UT. so i am going to transfer down there this summer, after i get back from LTC at Fort Knox in kentucky and start working on my masters at UT while doing army rotc. i am excited! things are looking up. also, in regards to cara. she had a new boyfriend within 2 weeks of us breaking up. turns out, the guy was a nice fella. however, she couldnt get over me and she willing admits it, so they consequently broke up. i got a new computer. i got a new bike. and i have been ever so busy with graduate school. i have met tons of new people since cara and i broke up and have formed new relationships. and when i move to knoxville, even more will form. oh yea, i got a new iPod too. a new Nano! now my next purchase will be a mac computer. i feel like i am updating from a lifetime ago, but its just been too long. i did some remodeling to the blog and i think it looks nice. tomorrow is going to suck for 2 reason, one which takes precedence over the latter. i have an exam to complete, which i have even started on, and there is no NASCAR. that exam is going to take forever and i am really not prepared to type all that shit out on it that i am going to have to. the works cited page is going to SUCK to say the least. so that being said, i am going to go to bed for a few hours after a shower at 0341 hours.


briefly, USC got beat tonite by UCLA which was great. Arkansas got beat by Florida sadly, and Hawaii lost by 3 to Oregon State. All in all it was a good day. its good to be back in the saddle again so to speak.
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Mood: fantastic
Listening to:: Goo Goo Dolls

meshmdz school Dec 4th, 2006 6:21:54 am - Subscribe
i am absolutely furious with computers tonite. It took me damn near 9 hours to get a final exam done on my computer. not the laptops fault... it is the damned free program "open office" that cheap people (me) can download for free and it works with microsoft office as a converter so to speak.. it is compatible, so to speak. i got the stuff typed out here in about 5 hours and then went over to the lab and it started trying to start world war 3 with me! angry.gif i had to get on 3 computers and do all kinds of crazy re-editting and stuff to get it right. took me forever! i was livid to say the least! angry.gif but i finally got it. i know its not A material but i am hoping to get a B out of it. i am just ready for this shit to be over! i am so sick of school. the MAT program is WORK! dont be fooled. they are not giving MAT degrees out like candy from ETSU thats for sure! i talked to cara for like 2 hours today. we have been chatting alot lately. i think she likes me guys, wink.gif eep.gif wink.gif haha. cara if you read that, just chuckle... ok? tounge.gif ahhhh lets see.. what else on my daily report do i need to fill in on...... no NASCAR!!! angry.gif gah i hate that. sundays were for nascar and i watched every race. but they will start back up in february so thats not too far off... i am ready for it... football, another good sport thats burning up the airwaves. there are going to be some great games on this year.. its bowl time and i love watching all the bowl games, even the small bowls. sometimes, they are the best games! well thats all i have for tonite.
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Mood: romantic
Listening to:: Brian McKnight - Anytime

meshmdz Gather The Horses Dec 4th, 2006 7:43:26 am - Subscribe
Gather the horses boy
Summon the men
Say your last goodbyes to the women and children
There is fighting here to be done

Houses of pleasure and houses of pain
Down here in the low they seem one and the same
And there is a battle here
To be won

You've got to ride on
Let the people say what they want
You've got to ride on
Let the people say what they want about you

Lock, stock, and barrel shot
One smoking gun
And enough anger in you to hurt someone
And there is a battle here to be won

You've got to ride on
Let the people say what they want
You've got to ride on
Let the people say what they want

I get the message
And it breaks my heart in two
And I try to

Ride on... let the people
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Mood: affectionate
Listening to:: Charlie Mars - Simple Things

meshmdz Simple Things Dec 4th, 2006 7:45:40 am - Subscribe
I want to cry but I ain't got the guts
I sit and stare but I ain't thinking about much besides you
And the simple things we used to do

When the dust settles and the winds subside
Would you help me rip this thorn from my side
We'll drive it deep down into all our failures in life

Oh baby, baby, baby
This is your song
When you're lost in that house
You can't make it there on your own

I look out the window
I found our star
I tell ya, this ain't what we wished for
Without you
It's a sleepless night what can I do

Well the questions come easy but the answers hit hard
I try to turn but its circles and stars
Without you
And the simple things we used to do

Oh baby, baby, baby
This is your song
When you're lost in that house
You can't make it there on your own

Most times the sun comes up and I go down
To dream my days away
And when the sun comes up and I go down
The good in me should say

Oh baby, baby, baby
This is your song
When you're lost in that house
You can't make it there on your own

Baby's song
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Mood: hurt

meshmdz ...Nobody Cries... Dec 4th, 2006 8:05:47 am - Subscribe
I'm looking for a simple kind of life
Slow and easy
A life that won't bring me down
I'm looking for a simple kind of love
But it ain't no bed of roses in the lonely little town

Could you tell me how it's supposed to be
Because between you and me

Nobody cries when I leave
They tell me you should try to believe
When it hurts like hell,
This too shall

Pass me through the stars to a simple kind of faith
And put me up in heaven with a Burnside settin' down
I'm looking for a simple kind of touch
But it ain't no bed of roses in this lonely little town

Tell me how it's supposed to be
Because between you and me

Nobody cries when I leave
They tell me you should try to believe
When it hurts like hell,
This too shall

I've got so much love to give and I can't get it out of my head
You should know by now
My heart has love
You should know by now

Nobody cries when I leave
They tell me you should try to believe
When it hurts like hell
This too shall
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Mood: split
Listening to:: charlie mars