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Take the quiz: "What Cutter Fits You Best"

From Depression
you cut because you hate life and you always get depressed from alot of things and cut to make it all go away
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Mood: yes...
music: yes...

lovepain more Aug 14th, 2005 1:37:57 am - Subscribe
You scored as Too Far Gone - All American Rejects. You are "Too Far Gone" by The All-American Rejects. You don't worry how a relationship will work out in the end- You live in the moment, enjoying all the time you have with the ones you love. You are probably fairly close to your family.

Too Far Gone - All American Rejects

100%

Save Me - Unwritten Law

95%

Cute without the 'E' - Taking Back Sunday

90%

You're So Last Summer - Taking Back Sunday

85%

Feeling This - Blink 182

85%

Minority - Green Day

80%

Helena - My Chemical Romance

80%

Home - Three Days Grace

80%

Buried a Lie - Senses Fail

65%

You know what they do to guys like us in prison - My Chemical Romance

40%

The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

35%

Burnout - Green Day

35%

Work - Jimmy Eat World

25%

What emo/rock song are you?
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Mood: electric

lovepain hmmmmm Aug 13th, 2005 10:29:55 am - Subscribe
You scored as Cemetary drive. Your missing someone sad.gif But this is a good song!

Cemetary drive

100%

You know what they do to guys like us in prison

83%

Helena

83%

Im not okay ( I promise)

77%

What song are you by My Chemical Romance
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Mood: appreciated
music: hellogoodbye

lovepain each day Aug 8th, 2005 12:02:04 am - Subscribe
why arnt i loved!!??
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Mood: lonely

lovepain each day!! Aug 3rd, 2005 5:30:04 am - Subscribe
im a lost soul wonderingin the darkness! no where to be, no where to go....
no mater my destination, ill end up alone!
my soul turns black
my heart turs cold
i can feel this pain rising within me
my life is my misery but my pain is my best friend
torture is all i see




sits in the corner, alone
knows that no one knows she is there
long dark, black hair covers her silky, white face
chocolate waterfall

every so often, she moves slightly to reveal big blue eyes
they are two jewels
worth more then the worl itself

tears run down
burning pain invades her
black, broken heart
rushing river of sorrow
everyday feeling
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Mood: .....

lovepain warmed by the blood of my open wrists Aug 3rd, 2005 4:15:44 am - Subscribe

My Emo Name is warmed.by.the.blood.of.my.open.wrists.
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i dont know what will come up but yeah!!! lol
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Mood: bloody

lovepain barry white...i think Aug 2nd, 2005 8:23:15 am - Subscribe
oh darling i..... cant get anough of your love baby!!!! i dont know, i dont know why i cant get anough of your love baby!!!!!
lol my life is ups and downs!!! earily on today i was on such a low, i counldnt handle it!! but tonyt i have been running around like a little school girl....per say!! lol dont know why!!! this tends to happen!! ill go to bed tonyt all unset and angry at the world like i do every other nyt!! its a not a change for me to be like this........ im a wired person so this type of behaviour is normal.....kinda!!




i feel..... again......but for how long!!??
how long must each day be a shelter of unindouting hope and suffering!!! my ramble crap may sound like......ramble crap but it does mean something to me and ive learnt thats all that matters!!!


FUCK THE WORLD!!!
FUCK THE SYSTEM!!!
Fuck you!!!!!




lol
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Mood: sexual

lovepain love will always last Aug 2nd, 2005 4:50:22 am - Subscribe
i wish....oh love i wish, that i shall never leave... and the love that holds us closer will never fly away, hold the soul, hold the wisper of the dying voice...i shall live, i shall go on, and i will believe that our life, love and mysery will be here to save the dying pain that i shall never want or never see!! i love you my daring....i always will!! your my soul, my life and my dying days will soon end and i shall live!! inside the pain that you feel...... to hold this close and to find my love will be a lasting pain inside your lonely and broken heart!!!! you shall live but die inside because my existence is what you live from, breath from and love from!!
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Mood: fullfilled
music: afi

lovepain ........ Aug 1st, 2005 12:13:55 am - Subscribe
Holding....
Wishing....
Waiting....
Wanting....
Holding the pain
Wishing i loved
Waiting for you
Wanting to live
Everyday
With you
With this pain if i have to
Holding
Wishing
Waiting
Wanting
YOU
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Mood: i dont know.....i wish i never do!!!

lovepain when will this day end Jun 7th, 2005 11:13:43 pm - Subscribe
Each day i rise and then as the day drags on i fall again. this painful world has done nothing for but only brought pain and suffering to my and thoose around me! my mother is entering hospital tomorrow and im scared as hell. its nothing serious but things like this always seem to go wrong for me.
each day is one more day completed. and one one less day i have to suffer.
i hate the saying'tomorrow nerver comes'. what if one day it really never comes! what if this was the last day of humans existence of this planet and all we have to show for our time here is evolution and an awful lot of buildings. this world needs to find more but i feel i havnt even found myself yet. but maybe thats why i dont underdstand this world, maybe were not ment ot under stand until we find 'our special someone'
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Mood: tormented

lovepain today............ May 11th, 2005 1:11:37 am - Subscribe
this varse and endless world is expanding the pain and sorrow that i cant seem to get rid of!! my heart has been riped off its hinges and i dont think"blue tak" will fix it!! i always look for the easy why out so far its just made the cuts deeper!!
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Mood: unattractive
music: crowded house!!!

lovepain MY HEART HAD TIME TO HEAL!! May 5th, 2005 3:28:00 am - Subscribe
today the pain faded!! it was really good!! it was like a building has been lifted off my shoulders!! today was a boring, simple day!! i loved it!! its bout time that this torned up heart had time to heal!! it feels really good!!
so i hope that the rest of the day goes really well!!
i think it will!!
today i can finally breath!!
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Mood: remotely alive

lovepain newbies May 4th, 2005 5:29:50 am - Subscribe
i cant see naymore!! not phisically, menterally!! i cant see my future!! i want to be a musican, to be in a band, to feel like i belong so badly that i cant see whats right in front of me!!
the fact im doing really well in school and music, drama, legal studies hasnt even crossed my mind until today!!
theres an new girl at school that my music teacher told me about!! she plays the drums(just like me), shes in my year, she is proberply better then me, better looking, nicer then me, better musician then me!!
im so parinod!! why cant i except the fact shes better!!??
well i havnt acually met her year!! i dont really know much about her!! but i cna be really parinod about things like this!!!

im really scared!!
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Mood: empty

lovepain another day at this wonderful school!!! May 4th, 2005 12:44:57 am - Subscribe
whats the problem with this selfish, mixed up world!!?? i cant walk down the hall with out having to hold my breath!! i cnat stand the fact that everyday is a new heart ache!! i cant thnik of the last time i was remotly happy!! it was a long time ago!! i sit here in class and i see all these people walkong past the window and cant help it wonder how shallow and rapped up in thier own world they really are!! i know THAT sounds selfish but, this came as a suprise but i dont really care!!
all these people that have hurt me hve added to a wall around my heart!! my friends byfriend left the other day and she couldnt stand it and everyone was upset because it was so sad!! i knew it was but didnt fee a thing!! this really hurts! i wish, everyday i could just fly away and find a world that im not a target for everyone else!! maybe its the pariona getting though but im really scared!!
im scared that one day everyone will find out about my little "habits" that run my life!! this school doesnt run on any sympathy for others , it runs on himiliation!! stupid i know but hey what can i do!!?? some singled out lonely freak that no-one knows about!! i hate it!!
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Mood: unloved

lovepain well...... May 2nd, 2005 5:26:23 am - Subscribe
these scars are starting to fade!! but a girl in my class saw them awhile ago, they were fresh and still bleeding!! she finally told my year conorinator!! now im getting "in school stess reduction sessions" with her!! figures they make a fancy name for something that is just her listen to me winge!!!

but im scared that the rest of the school will find out!! i dont wont more of a reason for them to make my life hell!!!!!

im sick of this!!

my brother found the blood soaked cloth and the sleeping pills in my room last nyt but he dosnt care!! its another reason for him to give me shit!! about how much im starving for attention!!

hes a fucking fruit loop!!
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Mood: blahhhhhhh

lovepain my day May 2nd, 2005 5:20:25 am - Subscribe
well!! today started out pritty good!! i got a part in the year 12 yeraly production!! which is pritty good coz im only in year10!! but the rest of the day i could help the fact that every corner i turn they are there!! the fact that every day as i leave the house i cant help it wonder about whats going to happen!!

i found a knife in the cooking room!! i took it and started looking for them!! i couldnt help myself!! i hate them so much that i cant stand the fact that they get away with taking away my sanity!!

but its ended on a good note!! i meet this guy!! actually on emo blog!! he sound really cool!! so i hope that this dosnt end in some disaster like everything else in my life!!


i can only tak this one day at a time!!
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Mood: tired

lovepain ha Apr 28th, 2005 5:50:18 am - Subscribe
i know i sound like i complain alot!! but im pritty ok with my life!! well not the people in it!! but i love my music and i love to act but the people that surrond me are ones of evil!! pure and simple!!

i hate people!! well all the ones i know!! i wanna met a friend, and boy friend, a eqantince, enyone that wont just reject me when the realise who i am!! i havnt had a guy friend in about a year!! but its my fault i know that but i wanna met a guy wont think if he gets me drunk ill have sex with him!!

just a decent guy that treats me right!! but im asking for the imposible!
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Mood: marvelous!!?? bullshit
music: down and out

lovepain the man that ruined my life Apr 28th, 2005 4:43:51 am - Subscribe
as i walked across the park fom leaving the drama audition, which i was already nervous about, i saw him!! the one that fucked up my whole existence!! seeing my ex boyfriend with "her" made me wanna grab the knife my friend was playing with and ram it through for deep and evil heart!! no-one knows how much i still care bout him! people wouldnt understand! my class "mates" say that i make up false memoryies of the time we were togehter! the only real memory i have people say is true is the day that he first touched me!! i still feel those gastly hands run down my neck every time i lay in bed!!
i look at the photo beside my bed, which has been there for over a year after we broke up, and all i see is the fact that one day he might love me again!
each day i wonder
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Mood: crushed
music: worthless

lovepain why Apr 27th, 2005 7:00:28 am - Subscribe
i sit here in this hollow and empty thing that i might of onece called a body! every time i look in the mirror i just want to end this shallow, usless ting they cal life!! i look up and all i see is the life that i could have been in if his ghostly pale hands hadnt touched me!
every morning i wake up and see those devilish eyes that ended mt sanity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
these tears that run down my face are symbols the burning pain that invades my black and broken heart, mixed with a rushing river of sorrow that i feel each and everyday!
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Mood: forgotten

lovepain school Apr 27th, 2005 12:34:59 am - Subscribe
im here at school and i wished this morning that nothing would happen. so far its all good but every corner i turn i shiver because i scared about hows on the other side. so much fights and comments and teasing has gone on at school towards me from peope i used to call my friends, that was along time ago!!!

But as i walked down the coridoor after class, there they were. right behing me yelling perfanities at me and about the way i dress, what i like, the way i live!!!! i cant stand there shit any more! i walk pass them when their by themselves and they act normal, just like their not my mortal enemy!! i hate this school!
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Mood: horrible
music: the beating of my heart