hugs are nice :)
Date: Nov 16th, 2005 1:43:42 am - Subscribe
first up,
dad's home again
what a world we live in
Heart attack one day, back at home 3 nights later
seems fine
his going back to hospital to get somemore things cleared in a few weeks. they got rid of the one that caused the actual heart attack but they spotted a few that could end up getting bad. cause of whatever reason they just got rid of the urgent one and advised him to get elective surgery to fix the rest.
In other news...
I think im sort of with Emma (cording to my friends anyway) which makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. (yeah...tis kind of over my weird infatuation with Cara, I think i actually have something with Emma 
)
lol, i had a talk with Chris today and apparently people started thinking i liked Emma last friday.
To last firday! *travels back in time*
forgot exactly what i was thinking, but durring recess at one point she walked past with Clare and i just put my arms out and we hugged.
then twice more random hugs durring lunch time
Then yesterday i was kind of bummed at lunch and just sitting there not doing or saying much.
Eventually pete found me had a pretty good idea of what i was thinking about, then started cheering me up by doing this dumb little angel and little devil on my shoulder thing (for some reason the devil sounded like gollum) telling me to ask 'her' (pete had no idea who i had developed a crush on) out then the little other dude was like ' no man, i'll look like a dickhead. what if she says no' and crap like that
as amusing as it was, at some point i saw Emma and kind of ditched Pete to sort of just run up to her and embrace her in a hug that apparently a few people noticed (we was like hugging/holding each other and talking so no one else could hear ya see)
What seemed to catch peoples attention a bit was also Rachel's comment that she had never seen me hug anyone before (fair enough, im not a hugely touchy person...usally)
um yeah, from there Pete seemed to be enjoying telling everyone that we were together.
I think the oddest thing i heard was Barker thinking that we had being together for a while and had already gone out and junk.
lol, not that i mind...I deffiently am fond/in greeat like with Emma.
Who's Emma?
Emma's nice, cute in her own Emmaish way, red/brown hair, glasses, she's in my history class and for once i actually feel i can talk to the girl i have a crush on (as opposed to feeling like an idiot)
And just holding her in my arms is one of the greatest feelings ever
lol, after school yesterday i saw her and she was like, 'do you that everyone thinks we're together?'
at that point it think i made a dumb mistake and tryed to explain that it was all just petes doing. Then she asked if we could just pretend we were for everyone. and me being a complete idiot and not thinking was like thats not a great idea
yeah, smooth....today, after telling Horner that, even he was like. Yeah that wasn't the best idea. Should have just done it to have some fun at least.
see, cause i know i like her, but i wasnt sure weather she liked me. And i didnt wanna get into a situation where we were pretending to like each other and have me actually being the idiot who actually was fully into her.
i hate hindsight...
while it may just be wishful thinking there's quite the chance that she was just offering the idea as an excuse for us to hang with each other more (which im all up for )
meh,
I'll talk to her tomorrow! (and undoubtedly throw in a nice hug or two)
by everybody!
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well there ya go...
Date: Nov 13th, 2005 5:53:46 am - Subscribe
Mood: concerned
Listening to: nothing...
my dads in hospital
critical care (though i have no idea what the difference between critical and intensive is)
apparently he'd being having what he thought was indigestion over the past few days, which turned out to be blocked artery or something.
to be honest im not really sure.
either way, my mum said they had to like insert some metal thing in near his artery to make sure it stays open and um... yeah.
im really not sure.
at first i didnt really react at all, but now i think im kind of freaking out.
dont think im gonna sleep much tonight.
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one more period (school....i mean)
Date: Nov 9th, 2005 6:47:21 am - Subscribe
Mood: strength
all i have to do is manage not to do my poetry presentation for one more english period and i reackon im free 
our teacher told us we'd have a sub tomorrow and we'd just be doing revison for exams
then all i have to do is somehow get through monday's english then we have like a 2 week break fro exams
then after them, we've got some dumb transition to year 11 thing for the week after
so hopfully after all's done. she'll have forgotten about the gay poetry.
Ps. not baggin poetry, just the stuff we's doing....its crap
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the pretty music
Date: Nov 9th, 2005 6:44:00 am - Subscribe
Mood: what the, only two types of mood to pick (other then custum) either hurt or strength
http://www.myspace.com/angelasdish
tis pretty
yeah, this is sorta gonna be a 'cara blog' lol
yeah, shes gone...left a week ago now
thus showing how um...yeah, i handle crap
i'm in germany! i couldnt work out how to use the at symbol on these weird german keyboards. and i still dont. so i copied and pasted. hehe.
From: "michael lee" <********@hotmail.com>
To: *******@hotmail.com
Subject: by the by
Date: Wed, 02 Nov 2005 21:43:24 +1100
Ya hair looked nice
When ya where it down
(without the hair band i mean)
Yep, that's all i had to say.
anywho,
have fun in Germany.
(lol, tis sincere this time. I was kind of moppey the other day)
cheers
o o x (o, he went there, lol)
yeah, that was like a thing i sent her on the day she left, i got a response. I felt so glad (lol, man im lame)
got anther one too, twas more of a thing of what shes being up to and stuff she sent to quite a few people.
For some reason i felt quite of down after reading it for a day or two.
Read it again yesterday, sounds like shes having fun though.
she was on msn the other day, which suprised me. apparently they're like...11 hours or something behind us. I think she was actually at school.
wasnt much being said though
o what to say to the girl you have a crush on... who decides to fly around to the other side of the world
laters
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man am i bored
Date: Nov 7th, 2005 6:09:25 am - Subscribe
nothin on ye olde tele, no one on msn, already played guitar for like 1 1/2 hours, dont wanna do homework.
yep
in other news
Went to my first hardcore show on the weekend.
twas very different to the Grysocope one.
Instead of a mosh there was just like this 'crew' of guys (i think they all had 'mmmc mosh' written on their arms) that kind of shoved everyone to the side making this big circle, then they sort of just full on lost it.
They only did it for two of the sets, but after the first i kind of got bored of them and just wished they'd bugger off. (they seemed to be runnin out of moves and just repeating a hell of a lot)
Suddenly felt like i was someone from friday to sunday, now im back to borring old me.
On friday i was at school till like 5:30 doing rehersals for the celebration thing, then i had a guitar lesson later that night.
I had also made plans with Greason to meet in the city on saturday to get tickets to another Behind Crimson Eyes Show. Later to only have to sort of cancel that as i ended up going to the show on saturday instead.
Also had tennis on saturday.
Then on sunday Darcy called and asked if i wanted to go into the city and catch some flick with a few of the other lads. Didn't go, was my last weekend to get something for my mums birthday and i had a crap load of work i hadnt started.
Still...twas nice to be sort of busy for a while, felt like a somebody
meh......
think im getting another cold...sucks
I'm gonna go watch family guy now
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