|
|
|
My birthday is coming up and I am going to have a big party... but there is one thing that I really hope and wish for... I wish that he would be there to complete my birthday.... TOYO sana you would celebrate it with me and our friends. |
|
1st_escape
Thank goodness I know how to swim Sep 21st, 2008 8:13:57 am - Subscribe
|
| Too many things around me are changing. And this isn't turning out the way I planned. I'm not really sure why I am surprised by this. Things never really went to plan before, and it is not like I had a guarantee from God that He would go along with my notions this time. So, like every other time, I will have to go with flow. That is all I can do. Sometimes I just wish I could see over the crest of the wave to where we are headed. Before it all comes crashing to shore. Thank goodness I know how to swim. |
|
|
|
You think I am OK?... this is how I really feel for you TOYO.... the truth is Everyday...I try very hard to be strong and try not fall apart but everytime I see you, my heart aches. I feel helpless. I wanted to talk to you atleast, but you feel so far away. I thought I can easily just let it go, but the truth is, I've never let go of the feeling. I just hope that one day you would realize how much I care and love you. My friends say that I should use my head and just go with the flow but how can I? When in my heart is its always been you. It hurts to breathe because every breathe I take proves I can't live without you, I need you TOYO...you're the only one thats missing in my life. I hate to admit that the greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone I can never have.... now everyday i have to endure the reality that I am only loving you from afar. Lying to Myself - Freestyle I, BELIEVED IN YOU WHYD YOU LEAVE WHEN YOU SAID THAT YOUD NEVER LET ME GO ALL I GAVE WAS LOVE WASNT THAT ENOUGH TELL ME THE TRUTH, I NEED TO KNOW REFRAIN I CAN SAY TO MYSELF, THAT I DONT NEED YOU BESIDE ME THAT IVE FINALLY PUT IT ALL BEHIND ME BUT CHORUS ID ONLY BE LYING TO MYSELF AND ID ONLY BE DREAMING OF WHAT, I KNOW WOULD NOT COME TRUE COZ NO MATTER WHAT I DO TO TRY TO THINK IM DOING WELL REALITY IS THAT IM STILL NOT OVER YOU I, GO, EVERYDAY TRYING TO FIND MY WAY DRIFTING INTO THE EMPTY ROADS CRYIN EVERY NIGHT THESE TEARS, SO HARD TO FIGHT WHAT DO I DO, I JUST DONT KNOW REFRAIN I CAN SAY TO MYSELF THAT I NEVER NEEDED YOU, ANYWAY AND AFTER ALL, IVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY (REPEAT CHORUS) BRIDGE I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS NEVER ENDING I THOUGHT THAT WE WERE NOT PRETENDING IT WAS REAL I KNOW MY HEART WILL SOON BE MENDING AND AFTER THE RAIN, THE SUN WILL SOON REVEAL THAT I CHORUS II I HAVE BEEN LYING TO MYSELF AND I, I HAVE BEEN DREAMING OF WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD NOT COME TRUE I KNOW AFTER WHAT IM GOING THROUGH I WILL BE DOING WELL AND WHEN THE DAY COMES, I KNOW WHAT ILL SAY IS TRUE THAT REALITY IS IM FINALLY OVER YOU |
|
|
|
I had enough.... my life has been a roller coaster. i need a new life. all about my life are sooooo complicated. i have fallen inlove to guys that hurt me all the freeakkkking time. I blame myself. Ang manhid kasi ni TOYO. Hindi nya alam I am willing to give up evrything, but on the second thought ang hirap i-give up anything when you feel in the end xa hindi kayang mag-giveup even just a little bit. Somehow I need to wake up....but I don't know how. |
|
1st_escape
Just to feel alive. Mar 17th, 2008 5:49:42 am - Subscribe
|
|
I walk by the corner market, basking in the California sun. When the smogs rolls through the sky, and mimics the feeling I have become. I watch the smoke trailing, from my cigarette, and look to God for the chance to forget. All these thoughts roll through my mind, breaking down the walls, I had built once upon a time. I had hoped to forget. Once I had forgiven. I had hoped to live truly, In this time that I'm living. I always have my sunglasses, in case your light is too bright. I always have a dollar, for coffee at midnight. In search of life, I read books that taught me... nothing. Because that is all that is known. Take my time, that is fine, take my time, until I find that which is missing, that I already have, that I know is out there. My youthful optimism, is my strongest drive, faster than a speeding car and I roll down the windows, looking for the breeze, just to feel alive. Just to feel alive. |