miranda's Blog

random lows...
Date: Apr 11th, 2005 8:12:22 am - Subscribe
Mood: worn


every so often i have a low. a miserable depressed fucking huge low. often followed by a random skitz high.

take last night for example. everything was wonderful and great, and all of a sudden i was clinging to chris (and i don't know how you cling to someone over MSN, but i did!) and crying and telling him how miserable i was, when five minutes before i'd been fine.

told him i missed him, and bitched and moaned about how sad i was, and how unloved i felt, and how all i wanted was to be spoiled and pampered and loved.

let me tell you now avid readers - no matter how mad i may get at chris from time to time, he is never neglectful and almost always puts me and what i want first.

so i had a lovely selfish bitchy emotional irrational crying session last night, made chris feel worthless, scared one friend, frustrated another, and this morning felt fine for it. i have since apologised, as i always do.

i'm screwed up. i know.

i was up till 5am with mum coz she had really bad asthma. not a full attack but it wouldn't settle down. i think she was really pleased that i sat up and tried to help her feel better. my brothers (including one who also is asthmatic) don't give a hoot about how bad she's feeling.

anyways im off to bed. i'm sleepy as fuck.

miranda

Comments: (2)

reverie - April 11th, 2005 yes, i know how it feels to be high one moment n then plunge low the next... hope ur mum gets better, u get some rest too

joanne - April 12th, 2005 Oh I had the same moments like yours i hope you feel better soon, And oh hope you get some rest. I almost forgot, Friendster is a site where you can have your friends join in and if I add you on my list you can see my friends and I can see yours...its a networking of friends...its cool here's the website...."www.friendster.com"....check it out and tell me if you already join in and I will just add you up if you like.

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