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Meh, bleh and other synonyms
Date: Aug 21st, 2005 4:03:48 pm - Subscribe
Mood: crummy
Song playing: It Don\\\'t Mean a Thing - Duke Ellington

I feel like an absolute bruise today. That may sound weird but its the best analogy I can think of. I feel so goddamn miserable, so sorry for myself, and I have virtually no desire to lift myself out of this melancholy. How can two people love each other and yet be so goddamn miserable?

Edit: How can I be so melancholy and he be so impassive about the whole thing? I think thats more accurate
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Bleh and much else
Date: Aug 19th, 2005 5:40:01 am - Subscribe
Mood: zesty
Song playing: Eek a Mouse: Burn up the Herbs

Well, I've been having lots of heartfelt chats recently, which is good yet a little exhausting... I got my account FROZEN on neopets (and am extremely pissed off about that), so I'm trying to find another internet hobby that's as pointless and time-consuming *g*
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A spot of wrrriting
Date: Aug 14th, 2005 8:46:50 am - Subscribe
Mood: zapped


Crystalline memories dart back and forth across my consciousness,
Flashes of opaline, thoughts as cerebral as they are irreverent.

Here is what I remember.

Our hands and bodies made of iron;
Sheet metal and corrugated heartbeats.
As unable to move as the ancestral bedrock beneath.

Still you sit there, a terrible angel devil bodhisattva,
And listen to my nervousness.

Am I forgotten?

My tenebrous soul was always outshone by yours, aurulent and pellucid paragon.

"The head of the crow, though black, may yet become white."
I read this in a book, child.
Hope emerges from the carcass of doubt


First poem in almost 2 years. Good or rubbish? I am not sure yet
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Grrr...
Date: Aug 3rd, 2005 12:14:14 pm - Subscribe
Mood: frustrated
Song playing: By Your Side - Coco Rosie

Ok, don't really have time to write everything I'd like, but if I don't keep to a strict schedule () then who knows what'll happen.

As my mood says, I feel frustrated today. Not, in the parlance of our times, (hehe Big Lebowski) sexually frustrated, but I feel more creative than I have in absolutely ages, and yet I can't find an outlet for it. I cant make music or paint, and I haven't written in so long. Plus I was never very good anyway.

Maybe next time I make a post I'll put a poem up for you guys to read... not mine, but one that took my breath away nevertheless.

Thats all for today!
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Yay!
Date: Aug 1st, 2005 3:10:48 pm - Subscribe
Mood: safe
Song playing: Good Friday - Coco Rosie

Yay! I just found half a chocolate bar in the fridge - tis cause for celebration indeed my friends!

Today I was tidying my mum's jewellery box when I found a ring, I thought it looked really nice, so i tried it on... Anyway I was staring at it for ages when I realised it was my old engagement ring which I thought had been sold.... Kinda weird... Still feel a bit funny, tbh...

On the other hand I downloaded the most beautiful album by CoCo Rosie. If you like falsetto voices and toy instruments you'd like it, lol. Guess it's not up most people's street. But I think it sounds beautiful

And I'm really missing Steven, even though he's been away for nearly a month already. He's a close friend of mine. Or he used to be. But you knew that already
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