misty_rain
What I did over the holidays - Subscribe
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misty_rain
What I did over the holidays - Subscribe
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I wrote out a big long list of things I'd like to accomplish. I also got bored and bought a kit at a dollar store to crochet a small purse.
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misty_rain
New painting Jan 15th, 2006 10:55:52 am - Subscribe
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Poor WartyMog.
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misty_rain
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, ten Jan 19th, 2006 1:03:31 am - Subscribe
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*** Cooking I cooked. I made veggies. *** Work I write a daily memo at work. It records the things I got done during the day. Today was so busy I had to reduce the font to fit all the stuff on one page. *** Eyeliner I drew my eyeliner really cute today. *** Things at the gym Seems like I take it too seriously, like I do with the rest of my life, and seems like I believe that it... it was destined for me to be there. My folks were going on this morning about how they wish that I would build people up and minister to them, you know, rather than smacking them in the face and beating on them... and I wanted to explain I AM MINISTERING to those folks. I don't know how to explain it but I can spar with someone and we'll smack each other around, but at the end we have a smile and a handshake for each other, and it builds us up. It really does. Plus, if I don't, who watches to make sure that beginner belt keeps her thumbs out of her fists- and that the soft-spoken intermediate belt develops some sense of competitive aggression. Who would have told them that the moves in a kata are practice strikes and not dance moves. I love the setting. I love the study. I like the peer group. I like being invested in. Maybe I need out though. You just don't understand how much trouble I've gotten in over the years for being in this type of setting. I get it from both sides. I get if from my family, because they don't understand why I invest the amount of time in it that I do. My mom pointed out, needlessly, this morning, "It doesn't PAY you." And I get it from the other side, because I don't compete or put out. I'm not saying that happens at this gym. Just historically. My mom was wrong. It does pay. If she is open to it, sometime soon I will tell her how much it pays. *** Scared again Separate topic. In a quandry. Looking for something familiar or reliable to rest on. It's like the world is shifting under my feet and I don't have my sea legs. *** Other Healer Idealist / Guardian Artisan vortexed into an Operator Artisan desperately listens to the music of her own heart and feels the pain of the dischord between desire and mode of operation like a bluesy minor note wafting in the trembling air two minutes after sunset. |
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misty_rain
Games people play Jan 23rd, 2006 10:05:14 pm - Subscribe
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I just read the book this weekend, "Games People Play" by Eric Berne. My LAND!! I thought I was a good person. Mr. Berne busted that illusion right out of the water. Seriously, this book is like those gags you see on Broadway, where a man is walking along in a suit and bowler hat, and suddenly zip! his clothes all pop off and he's in his comically polka-dotted drawers. Except worse, because it's you that just lost your illusion of refinement and dignity. Yet I can't seem to stop giggling at myself. Great book, but only if you are comfortable with your rather naked soul. |