One Against Them All
Date: Jul 12th, 2005 1:56:57 am - Subscribe
Mood: emo
A person can only do so much
To provide so much support and care to a friend
But when will it stop
The abuse they have given me.
I've not done anything
But kept this friendship going.
I've not done anything
But being hurt by them.
What's my objective to continuing
Continuing this painful friendship that I have
There's so much history of good and bad
But it all comes down to this moment.
This moment of drama that was set off
What's my excuse to keeping this going
Being hurt so much, is it worth going on?
I just want to take it all back
Without any drama, so I wouldn't be hurting.
Hurting not only from them
But from those that are angry of what I've done.
I've done to make my friend cry.
When will anyone see
The pain that I suffer from my friend.
When will they put the blame on my friend.
Why do I always have to be the one to blame.
Why do I always have to be the one to fix everything
So much pressure is on me to be the perfect person
To be the one to fix every little problem that is run into.
Why can't I have a break
Have perople to be on my side.
Just once I want a feeling of not taking the blame.
Feeling that it really isn't my fault.
I have no one but myself
To support my hurt and pain.
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WUT'S WRONG WiF ME?
Date: Feb 1st, 2005 4:52:35 am - Subscribe
Mood: miserable
I don't understand what's wrong with me. Everytime I like someone they always seem to have or find someone else. One I liked him alot but i found out FROM HIM that he had a girlfriend but they way he acted around me was like he didn't. Then i try my best to get over him then I find out he's going out with my friend. I just don't know what to do anymore, I've lost everything in my life. I've lost my concentration for school, i just want to be a bad kid for all the pain to go away. I just don't know what to do, I've tried so hard to not be a rebel but I don't know what else to do. Everyone around me is finding happiness but I'm not. I wear a mask to hide my sadness, failure, dissappointment of myself. I HATE myself for who I am, I'm just fat. All my friends are skinnier than me and im the shortest, to me that's all wrong. Sometimes I just feel like becoming a slut or something because at least idk... i just want happiness. I just can't find it, I need to find something that makes me happy. For me to be happy is to spend money, to dress *honestly* like a ho or something; i like having attention maybe not the one i want but i just feel soo ugly. To me it's the only way to do things but i kno it's not. IM SUCH A FLiRTER... i've gone through so much as i've changed my look, people calling me a hoe, slut, tramp, bitch, but it attracts guys idk before guys never even looked at me once but now it's all different. Guys always use to look at my friends n just using me to get to them or something... i'm just ugly, fat, etc. nothing is good about me...
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Person In The Shadows
Date: Jan 12th, 2005 8:09:18 am - Subscribe
Mood: EMO
Person being emo
Person being helpless
Person being useless
Person being troubled
All this person is; is a shadow in the darkness
A shadow no one ever sees
It just stays in one place, never moving
No one can help
No one can care
No one knows this even exists
Is this person real?
Is this person fake?
What to make this person of?
All anyone knows is this shadow
No one ever sees the real thing
Just the shadow of someone being there
The person exists in the darkness
To the extent of no one knowing
Never to show its tears
Tears that no one can help
It stays in the darkness
To shed its tears
Trying so hard to break the urge
The urge of hurting themselves
Never to go back to it
It breaks down
Breaks down without anyone ever knowing
Breaking down without any help
It has to help itself but doesn't know how
It suffers alone
Thoughts of suicide
Thoughts of ever living
Thoughts of just giving up
Never to return
Gone out of this lifetime
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EMOTiONS ALL OVER
Date: Jan 10th, 2005 3:52:58 am - Subscribe
Mood: CALM
Emotions surround our being
To learned to be dealt
Handling ourselves as our minds tell us different
We go to our friends for comfort
Their support carries us through our life
Till everything is in a steady pace
A pace that we can handle ourselves
Without always having help from others
We tend to pull away from the ones that care
But somehow they understand us
Somehow they can relate to us
Someway we just dont understand
We may never understand where they come from
But we will always know that our friends are there for us
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