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mizzxbitch
EMOTiONS ALL OVER - Subscribe
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Emotions surround our being To learned to be dealt Handling ourselves as our minds tell us different We go to our friends for comfort Their support carries us through our life Till everything is in a steady pace A pace that we can handle ourselves Without always having help from others We tend to pull away from the ones that care But somehow they understand us Somehow they can relate to us Someway we just dont understand We may never understand where they come from But we will always know that our friends are there for us |
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mizzxbitch
Person In The Shadows Jan 12th, 2005 8:09:18 am - Subscribe
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Person being emo Person being helpless Person being useless Person being troubled All this person is; is a shadow in the darkness A shadow no one ever sees It just stays in one place, never moving No one can help No one can care No one knows this even exists Is this person real? Is this person fake? What to make this person of? All anyone knows is this shadow No one ever sees the real thing Just the shadow of someone being there The person exists in the darkness To the extent of no one knowing Never to show its tears Tears that no one can help It stays in the darkness To shed its tears Trying so hard to break the urge The urge of hurting themselves Never to go back to it It breaks down Breaks down without anyone ever knowing Breaking down without any help It has to help itself but doesn't know how It suffers alone Thoughts of suicide Thoughts of ever living Thoughts of just giving up Never to return Gone out of this lifetime |
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mizzxbitch
WUT'S WRONG WiF ME? Feb 1st, 2005 4:52:35 am - Subscribe
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| I don't understand what's wrong with me. Everytime I like someone they always seem to have or find someone else. One I liked him alot but i found out FROM HIM that he had a girlfriend but they way he acted around me was like he didn't. Then i try my best to get over him then I find out he's going out with my friend. I just don't know what to do anymore, I've lost everything in my life. I've lost my concentration for school, i just want to be a bad kid for all the pain to go away. I just don't know what to do, I've tried so hard to not be a rebel but I don't know what else to do. Everyone around me is finding happiness but I'm not. I wear a mask to hide my sadness, failure, dissappointment of myself. I HATE myself for who I am, I'm just fat. All my friends are skinnier than me and im the shortest, to me that's all wrong. Sometimes I just feel like becoming a slut or something because at least idk... i just want happiness. I just can't find it, I need to find something that makes me happy. For me to be happy is to spend money, to dress *honestly* like a ho or something; i like having attention maybe not the one i want but i just feel soo ugly. To me it's the only way to do things but i kno it's not. IM SUCH A FLiRTER... i've gone through so much as i've changed my look, people calling me a hoe, slut, tramp, bitch, but it attracts guys idk before guys never even looked at me once but now it's all different. Guys always use to look at my friends n just using me to get to them or something... i'm just ugly, fat, etc. nothing is good about me... |