Date: May 1st, 2012 8:11:10 pm - Subscribe
Mood: burdened

Do you ever feel like you are stuck? Like no matter which choice you make you have no way of telling what could happen? I feel that way right now. My heart and mind are in a battle....but then...a small glimmer of something else comes along and suddenly I'm at a crossroads. Can someone be happy and sad at the same time? Love someone and despise them too? It's like I want to hold on to all I have yet reach for something else at the same time. I'm trying to stay above water in a River thats flowing to fast.

My daughter Raelynn gives me so much joy. She is 9 months now and she is growing so fast I wish there was something I could do to slow her down. She is totally the best thing in my life.

Does it sound horrible to say that I kinda wish that I didn't get married? Dont get me wrong, I LOVE Jesse, and the last 3 years have been good for the most part, but sometimes I crave my independance. I feel like we are so different in so many ways. We are both really head strong and that often clashes. I feel like I'm always giving in instead of going after what I want too. He is so used to "parenting" his own parents what he thinks he has to parent me as well. Stress.

"and I never wanted anything from you, except everything you have and what was left after that too" -The dog days are over

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Crap Happens
Date: Oct 7th, 2008 12:33:01 pm -
Mood: doomed

Life is not going so well. I'm jobless right now and trying hard to find something but it seems like everything is taken.

I don't think I understand anything anymore. I'm tired of trusting people.

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my plans destroyed
Date: Mar 20th, 2007 10:03:51 pm -
Mood: broken

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ok so I should be having a much needed party this weekend with like 12 of my other friends but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
My boyfriends step dad is insisting that they move that weekend so he cant come which sucks cuz that means like 5 other ppl cant come cuz they were comming with him SIIIIIIIIIGH. Oh well.. in 2 weeks we will try again I guess. I cant wait till summer

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Date: Feb 15th, 2007 6:16:30 pm -
Mood: fluffy

Well, we played in the snow... It was great even though the snow totally beat the crap out of us lol

some guy came along and plowed my v=car out so YAY!!!!

Cant wait till saturday.. I get to see my hottness Jesse lol.

I told my parents and my grandma about him, my grandma is thrilled.... my dad wants to meet him asap and my mom is complaining about all kinds of stupid crap that doesnt matter.... wonderful

I made home meade chicken noodle soup today... came out pretty good.

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eww snow
Date: Feb 14th, 2007 12:31:49 pm -
Mood: chillin

I'm sick of it... my car is plowed in.. wonderful... oh well.. Im gonna get a snowsuit on and romp around in it with Lora later lol. Gotta have some fun today while Im off work. I wish we had more hills around here.. i know i could rig up some kind of sled thing and have a blast.

PS Dustin, I know I didnt get to come see you this summer, my friends car blew a head gasket so that mean no road trip... I however am getting a new car soon so mahybe this summer it can happen....oh yea! we are getting a walgreens here!!!!!!! Can I go to it when its done or do you wanna be the first to take me there??? lol

My life rules at the moment

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