moonlit's Blog

once again
Date: Feb 14th, 2007 1:35:24 am - Subscribe
Mood: troubled


Well, I once again have the internet so I'm hoping to be able to make myself get on here more.

News.... I got me a smokin' hott boyfriend. his name is Jesse and he's awesome. I'm kinda freaked out though because the way he talkes, and the way this is going seems like it could eventually become something seriouse. I dont let myself get in seriouse relationships. Not sence Greg died. I mean I have pushed away a lot of great guys because of this freaked out fear that I have... I mean it's not like I think everyone I date is gonna die or anything.. I dont know what it is.. maybe I veiw it as a weakness or something. I keep making excuses on why I pulled away from the other guys
Derek- because we were great friends and everything was going great and then.. boom... he told me he loved me.... mind blowing.. I mean aren't you soposed to wait until you are at least dating or something? I guess I wasn't ready for it. I regret it.
Daniel- he too told me he loved me out of the blue and I didnt see him as the serious type. i mean he was so flirty and all
Tim- Everything was going perfect.. we were friends, we talked about liking each other, we talked about dating.... and then.... talk about marrige???????????? It scared me I guess i dont know.
Rob- didnt seem like my type after all
Chipper- my friend liked him too, wasn't going to go there
Ryan- bottom dweller....what a perv.

see what I mean?? and now I'm with Jesse.. I'm actually WITH him. It scares me and I'm happy at the same time

WHAT IS MY ISSUE??? I just need to know what's going on with me.

heather
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indie-guy - February 14th, 2007 stalker, i miss you so much! you know, you never did come to visit me in the summer.. anyway, i know what it's like to constantly push relationships away...i'm a little guilty of that myself.. i also had a girlfriend who died.. just take it easy, not too fast, not too slow. make sure you both know what you want from the relationship. oh. and above all. HAVE A HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! ...yo! miss you, -dustin

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