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Something is Waiting- Neutral Milk Hotel |
Well I've been looking forward to this blog. My friend decided to not call me for the concert. And this is the friend who I've had tried to become stronger friends but she's a total let down. For a while I thought it was an attraction thing... but it's definetly not. She's attractive like Nev Campbell--but not in a I won't sacrafice shit for you. She honestly gives up something that you want in on just a little.
She had this diary that she drew and wrote in for a while when I was her neighbor. I'll be honest, I read it. Yes, you can tell me I'm a bastard, I'm no friend. I probably am. I was in a moment--an angry moment--it was probably my fith time being let down from her. She'd say she'd be there but not show up, not call no bullshit, no excuse for it what so ever--especailly since it was so close to the concerts, the events and shit that I put up with. I think that atleast made up for the one time I've ever looked into something no one wanted me to look in.
Yes, so after I looked into it--i understood her from a romantic point of view. I understood only part of her. But whose to say that I didn't know enough shit. She was a drunk who didn't know how to be a person. She'd make up plans and go through with them and want people to follow through. But she wouldn't return the favor--not for that sake of messing up--it wouldn't be considered a problem to her at all. I doubt I can consider her as a friend any more. I wonder if i should tell her I want nothing to do with her get togethers.
I like her as a person, but it's just total bullshit.
So, what else happened today or yesterday?
Welp, yesterday, my bro after a week decided his gaming was more important than sharing--so I wasn't able to make a blog yesterday--I was disconnected from the internet when it felt more reasonable to spend aching time.
I also bough movies--9 movies. Yeah it's alot, and I probably spent about $100 total yesterday. I bought shitty movies and good ones. I'll only list the good movies. The Dreamers, The Final Cut, Eulology, and I Heart Huckabees. So time went into anaylizing and watching good films. The other films weren't so bad--but nothing outstanding compared to those.
I dont' know if I want to call of this friendship, but I don't care if there is one right now. I know I need friends, and to me it's always been that friends are more reliable than family--it's true with me. Maybe I just haven't seen what's there in both Family and Friends.
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