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i feel like i'm such a bore to my friends. i think i annoy the hell out of them on occasion. i never know what to say to some of my friends. i can sit there lost in my own thoughts and not say a word for minutes. when i've finally found something to say, it sounds like i didn't put a bit of time into it. it dosen't seem to differ from the first thing that pops into my head. god how i wish i was charming. i wish i could sweep people of their feet with my words. even if i was capable of it, i feel like i couldn't catch them before the ground does. |
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I started drinking today. I just felt like drowning myself with alcohol from the inside out. I dunno why I was feeling like this today. I guess it was just one of those days. After about a whole bottle I fell in the bathtub and just started crying. After about 30 mins of self hatred and depression I fell asleep. When I woke up, I saw blood on the tub floor. Looking franticly of where I might have cut myself, I see a huge cut on my arm. -sigh- I don't remember getting cut on anything, so I dunno what happend. I got up and cleaned up the mess i've made. And fell into bed, and dozed off again. |
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I haven't posted a blog in awhile. I guess, i'll do it now. Nothing to really blog about, bc you know my life is so non-exciting. My friends are becoming real suicidal latley. I have to deal with their problems. Anyway here are some pics, enjoy. ![]() ![]() ![]()
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sorry for not updating in awhile to all my friends on here, I know how you guys miss my rad entries (jking )well, anyway nothing is really new. still living the emo life. I went to the norma jean, atreyu, unearth show in ATL, man was it awesome(besides getting kicked in the face in the mosh) so, yeah. looking foward to comments.peace. |