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Jan 25th, 2005 7:55:02 pm - Subscribe |
Right now. In this point of my life, I'm very confused. It's like. Everyone else got an instruction manual to their life, but mine came defected and without one. I'm in love with this girl. She says she loves me, but can't be with me. And the pain of the outcome nausuates me. I'm a podunk white boy living in a rural ghetto area. I try to trick myself as into believing that I have friends. Then once I think really hard about it, I realize that I do not. I have no one to care for me, as my parents do not. I have no one to talk to about my problems except this. I have to keep all my problems inside of me as if I tell my parents or anyone for that matter they will just insult me and tell me that something is wrong with me [there is]. My eyes are bloodshot and dark due to lack of sleep. I stay up all night always just thinking. When I do asleep I sleep for very long periods of time as that is all there is to do in my life. I wake up blind to the world and unaware what is going on around me. I care for only one person, yet that person is not here with me. I like to feel sorry for myself and get that sharp chest pain when I do. That is the only feeling I can ever feel. I never feel happiness for when I do, I just think of how shitty my life still is and that there is nothing to be happy about. I think that if I compared myself to one thing, it would be shit. The reason for that is because no one cares or pays attention until they have to deal with me. Every time I turn around someone dies, it's always happening and I'm always wondering when my time will come. That could possibly be my biggest fear, but at the same time be my biggest relief. |
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| mood: deceived |
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| myhideout |
January 25th, 2005 |
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| Aww, thanks, but this is why I have a blog, so I can complain all I want and whoever wants to listen to it can. | ||
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marlene |
January 26th, 2005 |
Hey, about you're blog! I'm not really good with HTML or anything, heh, but I'll try my best to explain. First you need the color codes, which I use this site. Then you go to editting your template and just look through the codes, the color options are up near the top, so it's pretty straight forward where to copy the HTML color names and what it will change. There are also places to change the colors throughout it all, just skim through and change whatever you'd like. About the picture, just scroll down a little and you'll see the spot where it has all the links for your blog, just over it where it says "<div align="center">{avatar}</div>" cut out {avatar} and paste your desired picture's URL, and there you should have it. Be sure to back up your template every time before you change it, just incase. =) If you have any trouble, just let me know.  |
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| myhideout |
January 26th, 2005 |
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| Thanks<3 | ||
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marlene |
January 26th, 2005 |
| You are welcome. =D | ||
| myhideout |
January 26th, 2005 |
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| I cut out avatar and added my url, but when I went to my blog, all it showed was the url for the image. The image didn't come up. Is there any other command I need to add? | ||
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marlene |
January 26th, 2005 |
| Wonderful. =) | ||
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