myhideouts Aeonity Blog

i\'m back.

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 04:20:13 -0600

sorry for not updating in awhile to all my friends on here, I know how you guys miss my rad entries (jking :P) well, anyway nothing is really new. still living the emo life. I went to the norma jean, atreyu, unearth show in ATL, man was it awesome(besides getting kicked in the face in the mosh) so, yeah. looking foward to comments.peace.... Read More

Back from the dead.

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 22:55:50 -0600

I haven't posted a blog in awhile. I guess, i'll do it now. Nothing to really blog about, bc you know my life is so non-exciting. My friends are becoming real suicidal latley. I have to deal with their problems. Anyway here are some pics, enjoy. Read More

one to many.

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 03:02:15 -0600

I started drinking today. I just felt like drowning myself with alcohol from the inside out. I dunno why I was feeling like this today. I guess it was just one of those days. After about a whole bottle I fell in the bathtub and just started crying. After about 30 mins of self hatred and depression I fell asleep. When I woke up, I saw blood on th... Read More

theres a hole in my soul.

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 01:20:15 -0600

i feel like i'm such a bore to my friends. i think i annoy the hell out of them on occasion. i never know what to say to some of my friends. i can sit there lost in my own thoughts and not say a word for minutes. when i've finally found something to say, it sounds like i didn't put a bit of time into it. it dosen't seem to differ from the first thi... Read More

Patterns.

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 10:44:02 -0600

Are there really such things as patterns in life? Do us as humans try to find patterns in things even though we're not thinking about it? I think we do. Why else is there so much drama in everything, so many emotions in one's soul. If we can't find the patterns, these emotions come out. ... Read More

I miss you.

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 22:15:02 -0600

i miss you..i really do the pain nauseates me. so i started smoking weeks after you left, although i detested the taste infringed upon my mouth.i inhaled greedily hoping the smoke would cling to my hair.my clothes.my skin just as it had clung so gracefully onto yours that day we walked around downtown in the frigid december weather.There was a ... Read More

The mediocre life.

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 02:18:25 -0600

-I don't want to be here, could you lay me in a position where I will be at one with myself, with the sweet red, with the sweet red you spilt, will you paint my portrait in the snow?---- Hello, all. I've been sleep for most of the day -le sigh- I was suppose to go with my friends downtown, but my retared sleeping habbits had other plans. I ... Read More

it hurts.

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 22:00:32 -0600

my heart must have sank to my feet when it hit me. i started to walk and the pain set in. you didn't deserve it. god knows you didn't deserve it, but where was he that morning. it's got to be easier when you don't really care. when it's someone elses pain, someone elses loved one. this might kill you, but how many birds would it be with one stone? ... Read More

I can fit in.

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 21:53:37 -0600

i wish i lived in a tree and had animal friends. we would talk about people and how foolish they can be. i'd laugh, not really knowing how much of a fool i am myself. however they would accept me, not out of pity, but because they would love the good in me. they wouldn't care how abnormal i looked. they would forgive me for not having fur or feathe... Read More

Fxck You

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 14:24:54 -0600

There's a look on your face, I would like to knock out. See your sin in your grin, and the shape of your mouth. All I want is to see you in terrible pain, thought we won't ever meet I remember your name. You are scum, you are scum, and I hope that you know, that the cracks in your smile, are begining to show. Now the world needs to see... Read More