Bored
Date: Jun 30th, 2004 10:02:58 pm - Subscribe
Mood: infuriated
hi
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Bored
Date: Jun 20th, 2004 3:16:18 pm - Subscribe
Mood: bored
Hey, yesterday i went to an anime convention but friday was the day my mom died. = i was more sad than anything, first b/c it's has been a year since she died, and i had my earth science regents..which by the way was HARD!!!!! w/e....i am sôo bored now...b/c i at the temple to pray for my mother....i love her but still the temple is very very very very boring!!!
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ANGRY
Date: Jun 17th, 2004 3:20:41 am - Subscribe
Mood: angry
VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRYANGRY ANGRYANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY
WTF i 4give a certain person..and i talk to her soo everything our jsut work out...but then she go talking to her best friend ....wtf...and her best friend say that i'm a bunch of bullshit...WTF what did i do?! I HATE Her...i'm not 4giving her... i hate this bitch...
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pain
Date: May 28th, 2004 10:00:50 am - Subscribe
Mood: confused
have u ever felt pain in your life? yesterday i woke up sick and went to school..bad choice to go to school! every class i went to, i really had no energy to work...i felt pain all through my body and had a headache to go with it. once i came home, with my sister and andrew la....andrew took care of me like my mommy would if she was alive today. ^__^ or that he is my bitch...hehe...he made me pizza, help me w/ my computer...let me kick him ^___^ catch me if i was about to fall, feel my head, talk to me and give me medicine. long story about the medicine. oh yeah...vincent called...=\
i guess i'm glad that he 4gives me, but inside my heart, i feel weird talking to him now. he doesn't know that i tried to cut myself about an hr or two later of the argument we had. i don't think i should post this in public, but since not many people know about this site...i hope it's okay. i tried to cut myself because i broke up with derek, and he was sooooooo sad....=\ and the person i confide to the most and consider big brother was angry at me. *sigh i still feel the same way.....no matter what anyone says. no matter if vincent said he was sorry or 4gives me, i feel the same way. talking never help...only for a few minutes...or how long i am talking to the person. last night i talked to allen about my situation, and all the crap...it hurts...i even cried...so what to do? i feel like i should distant myself from jason, edgar, andrew, VINCENT, and everyone else, no? if i distant myself away from them, mb they aren't going to be close to me to affect/hurt me so. or vice versa. i am being selfish to thinking i am the only one who is going through pain....everyone goes through pain...thats wny i have to distant myself from all the upper classmen......
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diappointment
Date: May 27th, 2004 1:41:43 am - Subscribe
Mood: sad
*sigh....have anyone ever felt soo depress that hurting oneself is the only solution? well what if the reason is valid? or no reason is valid when it comes to hurting oneself? what if the reason is b/c everyone seems to be disappointed or angry at one? what would one do? what if one tries his/her best, but still ruin everyones' life? what is the point? how is that those who could careless of other's feelings, gets the good and not the bad? why does it always has to be the one who cares to receive the bad? how is that fair? could that one is just pure evil but try to act kind but faith or god could see right past them, so thats why they get the bad? are the good people the bad, and the bad is the good? is that possible? do i make sense to any of this?
why does the person, one confide to for almost or all things be mad at that one person or not trust them anymore? does he/she not know that ur anger had a huge affect on their life, like for instance, one decides to cut themself, because he/she believe it's what they deserve. it's what cause them to make someone else angry, especially those who are close.
how he know how much he mean to me, that i started to try to cut myself? he being angry at me, made me question who i am, "am i a good person?", "do i deserve to live?" "why am i still here?" or "what did i do to made him disappointed or angry at me?"?! what did i do? how can i hurt a person i consider a big brother to me? why am i only thinking of myself. can be more selfish? i guess so. how many times have i used "I".
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