n1ghtshade
No Subject Jul 4th, 2007 7:03:23 am - Subscribe
Yesterday was okay I suppose spent the morning talking to Shannan and Mary, and I learned a lot of stuff, and both Shannan and I ended up bawling, and then laughing (thanks to Mary) then bawling again, we know we're going to lose her, and we can't even think about it much less want to talk about. Then I find out from Mary (while Shannan was gone) that the doctor's told her that she has 6 months left, which by Shannan, Hope and I's estimation should be somewhere around the end of December early January. Nobody else knows, except Shannan, Hope, Keri and Me (and now you sis, so please don't say anything to anybody cause she don't really want anybody to know yet, tyvm).
Shannan was talking about coming down here an kidnapping me (he was joking...anyways I would go willingly) and so everybody got bent out of shape and Jeff booted him for no reason. I know it was Jeff I could hear it in his voice when he said it wasn't him, so then Shannan couldn't get back on his tag name for a while and he finally showed up on his street name, so then everybody was asking questions as to why he was on his tag name.
Then Andy comes home and we get into it (we got all that fixed last night, thanks to Hope and Mom). Needless to say after a while we got it fixed. Then Keri shows up and I told Brandy to tell her about us getting married (Me and Shannan) and she told Brandy that I'm never going to learn I have no clue what that means, but at this point I don't care who comes to the wedding or not. I don't care who marry's us either, just as long as we get to do it next weekend.
the 14th at 8 pm I think I don't know for sure yet, what time it is. (We're still working that part out) cause at first it was at 3 pm and now its at 8 pm, and now I have no idea. I want Jade to be there, but she'll probably be working I don't know. Mickey things we need to wait actually we got into it last night about it. I told her I would wait, but I probably won't. I want to be with him so bad, I wanna be Mrs. Faith Hicks. I'm his baby I know that. I wanna have his baby, babies. I want to be with him, I love him I do I honestly do, and nobody seems to understand that.
Nikki's trying to cause trouble she's trying to break us apart, she's trying to turn the SS against us, and I don't know if it'll work or not. All I know is Shannan won't leave.
I had a weird thought last night, and I can't get it out of my head. I have yet to talk to him about it yet, but I will. But I know Misti's going to be here Sunday for Dan's Birthday Thing. And I think I'm going to talk to her, and see if she'll help, and let him come down, so we can meet and stuff. I think she might, I don't know yet, but I hope so. Then I kept thinking that he came down, I ended up getting pregnant, I called my sister, and told her to come up, then I called Misti to come get me so I could find out if I was actually pregnant. Then I thought about us getting married when he got down here. Then I thought about how I called Mom and asked her if she could come over in like 4 hours (She's 4 Hours away) and her being there for it, us getting married, and while I'm pregnant.
I can't help but wonder what is going to happen if she lets him come down. If I will get pregnant, how to tell my parents if I do. And I remember seeing myself (after he was here of course) of having the baby, and telling him about it.
I don't know what the future holds, but I hope it has to do with him, I hope we're together sometime in the future married, and sometime farther (hopefully if not thats great too) having kids. his kids. our kids.
And just so everybody knows I LOVE SHANNAN HICKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!