n1ghtshade
Baby Ticker Oct 16th, 2008 12:21:05 pm - Subscribe
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n1ghtshade
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Dear baby, I'm not sorry for leavin you this way But I know that I should have told you(all) face-to-face We've always been straight up so I, I won't waste your (guys) time I'm leavin, say good-bye, because I know what you(all) did last night [Chorus:] Let me let you know, yeah That I'm leavin Let me let you know, yeah That I'm leavin Let me let you know I don't know where I'm goin but I'm goin far from here Let me let you know yeah That I'm leavin Cuz I'm definitely tired of waiting for you(all) to come home (been waitin for you(all) at home) We've always been straight up, so I, I'll just take what's mine I'm leavin, say good-bye, because you(all) hurt me for the last time Let me, let you know [Repeat Chorus] Whatever your excuse is, I'm sure, I've heard them all before Time and time again I told ya(all), that I need you(all) more Now I'm walkin out the door [Repeat Chorus] Ooh baby, I'm just here to let you(all) know honey Ooh, yeah Here to let you know Let me let you know yeah I'm leavin [Repeat Chorus to fade] And I need a little time to figure out my heart Who could ask for more but I need to know for sure I ran into your world and kinda walked out on myself All those dreams I had,I began to second guess for you(all) One too many questions until I know the truth I need room to breathe A little time to think To make sure I don't lose me I need room to breathe This has to do with me and not a thing to do with you(all) So don't try to understand you(all) don't have a thing to prove to me If you(all) really love me just give me what I need I need room to breathe A little time to think To make sure I don't lose me I need room to breathe Please don't try to take this wrong Please don't turn away I just don't want to look back one day and say I need room to breathe A little time to think To make sure I don't lose me I need room to breathe Room to breathe |
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n1ghtshade
idk.... Oct 3rd, 2008 2:39:17 am - Subscribe
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School right? feels like i'm back in it with this drivers book. i found be sleeping i'm working or helping out pat tomorrow. what fun. but i'm sure she's going to want this book done by then. so i'm going to have to do it. Dan is going to be going over seas the first of november if everything goes right, which even though mom says IF it probably will. he has nothing on his record that would say that he couldn't go over there, or anything like that, and i'm sure their needing people in their line of work, and he's only going over there for a year, and apparently him being over there, a year or so, is suppose to get us out of debt. for the first time in my life, i'm scared about it. what if he doesn't come back? abe's wanting to go over there to, but dan won't let him. and dad he's wanting to over there too. I don't know when or if he will. but its just a year, i keep getting told. its nothing to worry about, i keep getting told, then why am i worried? cause i know their lying, and its going to be more then just a year, its going to be a year of worry and hoping they come back in one piece and alive. it is something to worry about. i told mom if dan does over there, and with abe working nights and dad working late, i'm going to go get sassy, cause i would feel better with a big dog around cause star can't hear to well anymore. so mostly it'll just be me, and my mom. until the weekend. i didn't ask her, i just told her what i was going to do, and that is what i am going to do. i need things to be okay, i need this NOT to be happening. I have 30 cuts from Monday healing on my upper left arm, i have 14 cuts on my lower right leg healing, from tonight. its getting bad again, and i can't just stop it. and i made myself throw up twice today. its not as bad as my cutting though, but it'll get there. and i'm trying not to let it. my chest and left ribs, shoulder have been hurting the last 2 days, even the slightest move and it hurts, an its hard to breathe sometimes. i don't know what's wrong, maybe i just slept wrong? i need people but their not around, i get it, but its like everybody's leaving all at once. and it scares me. I need for YOU not to yell at me when you read this. I haven't talked to you otherwise i would of told you. before i put it here, and no i didn't think about calling you, cause i've been out of it lately. I'm sorry |
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n1ghtshade
blah Oct 4th, 2008 5:49:57 pm - Subscribe
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Bday party things was suppose to be today. that was a joke. thats all. |
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n1ghtshade
happy... Oct 5th, 2008 1:28:37 pm - Subscribe
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Everything is going good with us. I'm still with Eva an I decided I'm going to stay with her, cause even though we have our very rough patches and stuff, I love her, an she loves me. We actually talked last night, she's in school again, for what I forgot to ask. We actually talked, an she's been sick again, although I didn't know that, cause I didn't call her, an she hasn't been online. I didn't call, cause every time I do, she's sleeping. We're both night owls. Did I mention I love her. (Note to self ask gf what she's in school for). We was talking about it last night, if my parents an brother's end up going to Alaska in a year or so, that I'm going to be moving to Missouri, to be with her. I asked her if it was okay, an she said it was, so thats what I'm going to start to plan on doing, even if they don't ever go to Alaska, I want to move up there. I want to be with my girl. Honestly I need to be with her. I get that its harder for me, then it is for her, that I'm not up there, cause she has Cody, and she has those other two girls, because techinally, we're not in a committed relationship. We're still in a very open, yet closed to the fact nobody (besides LJ) knows about us. After all these years, I still want to be hers forever, I still want to marry her. I'd do anything for her, an she knows it, she always has known it, which I'm guessing was part of our problem. At first, but we got things worked out again. (in between writing this, I've been getting bugged by my dad, an stuff, so I lost my train of thought with this). Try it again later |
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n1ghtshade
Breakdown Oct 9th, 2008 5:55:29 pm - Subscribe
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The sun is gone and the flowers rot Words are spaces between us And I should've been drown in the rivers I've found of token lost And I should've been down when you made me insecure So break me down if it makes you feel right And hate me now if it keeps you alright You can break me down if it takes all your might 'cause I'm so much more than meets the eye And I'm the one you can never trust 'cause wounds are ways to reveal us And yeah I could have tried and devoted my life to both of us But what a waste of my time when the world we have is yours So break me down if it makes you feel right And hate me now if it keeps you alright You can break me down if it takes all your might 'cause I'm so much more than all your lies Hate me, break me down So break me down So break me down So break me down if it makes you feel right And hate me now if it keeps you alright You can break me down if it takes all your might 'cause I'm so much more than meets the eye |
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n1ghtshade
Baby Ticker Oct 16th, 2008 12:21:05 pm - Subscribe
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n1ghtshade
well.. Oct 22nd, 2008 10:15:01 pm - Subscribe
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I'm not pregnant. Yay right? So why am I not happy bout it? 
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