So what did I do, the first time in what two weeks? I drink, I don't know why, I don't have a reason for it, didn't at least at the time, although I am sure there is no reason for it.
Leave me to die here, help me survive here alone Don't remember. Remember.
I got into a huge fight with Andy and Brandy over, and Hope found out and finally something she wasn't pissed at me about, of course she was fighting with one of her Ex Boyfriends. I don't know how many people are pissed off at me right now. Not that it matters. Does it?
I have nothing to say really its September first. Twenty-nine more days till my birthday, and why ain't I excited? I don't know. I hate this time of the month. I really do. I don't know why.
Why can't I breathe Evil Angel?
God I love Breaking Benjamin's new song Evil Angel, and Until The End. I don't know why, its 9:05 am, and I'm wide awake, after going to bed a little past two.
The Chili cook off is today, and although I wasn't looking forward to it yesterday, I think it'll be good. Buffalo Gap Park god its beautiful out there. Might find something interesting to read, I plan on picking up something I wouldn't normally read, just because.
Open your wings evil angel fly over me evil angel.
I'm not sure I don't think I can put everything together in 35 days. Its a lot to do, a lot to talk to my parents about, my mom about.
I wonder sometimes if I care to much about people, and their problems, or if its what I am meant to do, I mean how do I know what my purpose is.
Thats all I told you I had nothing to say.
Driving the nail, hoping to find a savior.
Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe is a 1987 bestselling novel by Fannie Flagg. In 1991 the novel was adapted into the film Fried Green Tomatoes.
The story jumps narration and sequence and is distinctive in chapter opening visuals to establish the date and the source of the chapter. Some come from the fictional newspaper in Whistle Stop, Alabama called The Weems Weekly. Some come from the Couch's house in Birmingham, and others fill in some of the more intimate details of the stories told about the characters.
The story is told through many generations and begins in 1985 with an unfulfilled housewife named Evelyn Couch, who visits her mother-in-law at an Alabama nursing home. While avoiding her mother-in-law, Evelyn meets nursing home resident Ninny Threadgoode, who begins to tell her random stories of her home in Whistle Stop, beginning in the 1920s. Evelyn becomes so interested in the stories of Whistle Stop that her life begins to take new meaning in the characters in Mrs. Threadgoode's history.
Ninny Threadgoode grew up in a bustling house after being adopted by the Threadgoode family and eventually married one of the brothers. But her first love was young man Buddy Threadgoode, whose pet of all the children was the youngest girl, Idgie (Imogene). An unrepentant tomboy, Idgie learned her charm from Buddy. Buddy died tragically when he was hit by a train and high school-aged Idgie was devastated. Nothing civilized her until a few summers later when beautiful and virtuous Ruth Jamison came to live with the family while she taught Vacation Bible School. The family and servants watched with amusement as Idgie fell head over heels in love with Ruth, but when Ruth went home to Georgia to marry a man she was promised to, once more Idgie drank too much, lived in the woods, and fell apart.
After a few years, Idgie went to check up on Ruth and discovered that she was being abused by her husband, Frank Bennett. When Ruth's mother died of illness soon after, the printed obituary and a copied verse from the Book of Ruth was sent to the Threadgoode house, and Idgie, her brother Julian, and Big George (son of the Threadgoode cook, Sipsey) went to Georgia to bring Ruth home. Frank resisted, but Ruth came home and promised never to leave Idgie again. Papa Threadgoode gave Idgie and Ruth some money to open a cafe where Sipsey and her daughter-in-law Onzell cooked and Big George, married to Onzell, made the best barbecue in Alabama. Then Ruth discovered she was pregnant.
Idgie and Ruth had a son and the cafe became known all over the US during The Great Depression through the communication of hobos, especially half-time Whistle Stop resident Smokey Lonesome. It had a reputation for feeding men down on their luck, and Idgie and Ruth got in trouble from local law enforcement when they decided to serve black customers from the back door at lowered prices. It was about this point that Georgia detectives started asking about the suspicious disappearance of Ruth's ex-husband.
Evelyn Couch becomes so entwined in Mrs Threadgoode's stories that she begins to live them in her mind, and she realizes how purposeless her life has become and for what pointless reason she cared about people's opinions while growing up. Overweight and virtually ignored by her husband, Evelyn becomes inspired by Idgie's boldness and audacity and creates an alter-ego named Towanda, a hyper-violent Amazon-like character who gets revenge on everything Evelyn thinks is wrong in the world. Scared by how good she feels in her violent thoughts, Evelyn confesses to Mrs Threadgoode what is happening. She gets a job with Mary Kay Cosmetics and at Mrs Threadgoode's suggestion, starts to take hormones for menopause.
For years the cafe ran, through World War II and into the 1950s. Idgie and Ruth's son grew up, and the lives of the town members moved on. But when Ruth died of cancer, the life went out of the cafe. Soon after, Idgie herself was arrested along with Big George for the murder of Frank Bennett when his car was found at the bottom of a lake outside of Whistle Stop. The case is dismissed at the trial when the local minister, paying Idgie back for anonymously bailing his son out of jail, lied on the stand and testified that she and Big George were at a three day revival the weekend Frank Bennett went missing. Bennett's body was never found, but it is revealed toward the end that Sipsey killed him as he came in the cafe to kidnap Ruth's infant son, by slamming a cast iron skillet on his head. Big George barbecued the body and Sipsey buried the head in the Threadgoode's garden.
Evelyn gets called home from a weight loss camp when Mrs. Threadgoode dies, and Evelyn visits her grave driving her new pink Cadillac. After visiting her grave, Evelyn notices a note from Idgie on Ruth's grave, placed there moments before.
In an epilogue, we learn that Idgie is still alive, and now sells honey by a roadside stand.
* The "Whistle Stop Cafe" is loosely based on an actual restaurant, the Irondale Cafe in Irondale, Alabama approximately between 1915 and 1935. The restaurant is still in operation and somewhat of a local tourist attraction, thanks to the novel and feature film. It is famous for its fried green tomatoes. The cafe is located adjacent to the main line of the Norfolk Southern Railroad (formerly Southern Railway) and very near one of the line's large classification yards. Irondale is a suburb of Birmingham, Flagg's birthplace.
* The "Whistle Stop Cafe" that was in the film was located in Juliette, Georgia and is a currently functioning restaurant.
* Evelyn Couch - an unfulfilled housewife who seems lost and without direction and who becomes empowered after listening to Mrs Threadgoode's stories of the characters of Whistle Stop, and Idgie in particular.
* Ninny Threadgoode - patient in the Rose Terrace Nursing Home along with Ed's mother; She is 86 when Evelyn knows her, but recounts her memories starting about when she was 11 years old. She married into the Threadgoode family, but grew up with them after having been adopted unofficially.
* Idgie Threadgoode - the youngest girl of the Threadgoode family who is known for her irreverent and downright shocking behavior for a young lady in the 1920's and 30's. She has Buddy's irrestistable charm but can't stay away from poker, booze, and her "Dill Pickle Club" which is created for the sole reason of making up as many outrageous lies as possible. Idgie and Ruth were based on Fannie Flagg's Aunt Bess and "her friend", characters in Daisy Fay and the Miracle Man (another Flagg novel). Aunt Bess is a zany woman who plays jokes on everyone and shoots up the floor of her cafe to break up fights.
* Ruth Jamison - known for her arresting beauty and sweetness. Idgie falls in love with her and she with Idgie, but she goes home to Georgia to fulfill a promise to marry an abusive alcoholic who later disappears under suspicious circumstances after Idgie brings her back.
* Sipsey Peavy - a cook who has been with the Threadgoode family since she was a girl; Big George's adopted mother. It was her idea to bury Frank Bennett's head in the garden because she was superstitious that any wild animal that came into the house had to have its head buried. Killed Frank Bennett when he tried to kidnap Stump as an infant.
* Onzell Peavy - Big George's wife and a cook in the cafe. Ruth's closest friend and nurse when she was ill with cancer.
* Big George Peavy - the expert responsible for the barbecue at the cafe. Took the blame of Frank's disappearance for his mother who was elderly by the time anyone was charged for it.
Feminism was a theme in the novel, as Evelyn Couch became a symbol of lost housewives who felt they had no direction. The "Towanda!" bumper sticker became popular in the 1990s after a very famous scene in the book and movie of Evelyn exacting revenge on a younger woman who stole her parking space. Ruth's feeling of being trapped in her marriage with an abusive husband is another part of this theme, as well as Idgie's acting and living of her personal life, unwillingness to be a good housewife.
Lesbianism was a theme in the novel, as the relationship between Idgie and Ruth was curiously celebrated by the entire town of Whistle Stop. Although it wasn't labeled a lesbian relationship, every resident knew of Idgie and Ruth, accepted it and loved them for who they were. This relationship was minimized in the film version of "Fried Green Tomatoes" when the events placed Ruth and Buddy Threadgoode together, and Idgie was much younger than Ruth, suggesting that Ruth loved Idgie because she was Buddy's sister. Many reviews of the film version critiqued what was viewed as a "glossing over" of this theme, although the film received an award from the Gay & Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation (GLAAD).
Racism in the American South is a major theme.
* Sipsey, Onzell, Big George and their children are explored as characters. When Big George is put on trial with Idgie, Sipsey's fear is that he will do time in prison which is significantly more miserable as a black person. Idgie also stands trial with him, trying to clear him, because she knows he won't stand a chance being a black man accused of killing a white one, whereas, as a woman, and with any luck, she should be able to get out of the death sentence.
* Big George's son Artis does time in Kilbey Prison for assaulting a dogcatcher in the city of Birmingham.
* Artis' life on the black side of Birmingham during the 1930s and 1940s is described exquisitely in the book.
* Artis' brother Jasper is a Pullman Porter, and chose to buy a house in a white suburb of Birmingham, Dynamite Hill, refusing to leave, even when his house was burned down.
* One of Jasper's children, having inherited from her father's fair skin, pretends to be a white woman, to enjoy better treatment and be able to use the white elevator in a Birmingham department store.
* Frank Bennett spies on his infant son under the pretense of being in a Ku Klux Klan exercise to intimidate Idgie and Ruth for serving to black customers.
* One of Idgie's best friends, Grady Kilgore, working for the train companies as some kind of local sheriff, is also a member of the local Ku Klux Klan, which he tries to deny when Idgie confronts him about it.
Aging is a theme, as Evelyn goes through menopause and watches Mrs Threadgoode, who is 86 years old, begin to lose her focus and deteriorate.
Food is a literary theme to the point that Flagg included the recipes served by the cafe at the end of the book.
Why is it I write better when I'm not online? Probably cause I have nothing better to do then writing, read, or watch tv, clean, help around the house, and play my video game, oh and lots and lots of sleeping.
I missed a bunch of people, and I know I scared a bunch of people but it wasn't my fault, Mickey messaged Hope on myspace asking where I was, and she told Hope that she missed me, and she will never tell me that she missed me, but she has no trouble telling anybody else. Yeah so its not like me disappearing so what? Its not like I meant to Andy, and Shannan thought I was dead, I don't know why Andy thought I was, and he told me he didn't care I was back by the way, and Shannan told me he's been having a lot of nightmares lately and for some reason I'm in them, along with Hope, why would I be in his nightmares? Agenda was worried to death about me, which I was fine I was just a lil depressed thats all. Mary told Hope to tell me she missed me, not sure anybody else cared.
I am sure to some it was a relief that I was gone. Some thought I was taking a break some thought I wasn't coming back.
Mickey's girl broke up with her, and then I disappeared, but apparently her net went out an when she got back I was gone and she thought she did something, but it wasn't her. I wouldn't leave because of her, shes the reason I stay, her a couple other people.
I got a comment from Ani today, and she gave me a new number, and she told she would call, but if I wanted to call first I could, but I'm going to wait a lil while and see if she calls. And if not then I'll try the number. That was today, so we'll see.
I miss Mickey, I talked to her this afternoon, but yet I miss her why? I was writing something for her, although I don't know if I'm going to finish it much less post it.
I made a video for her.
I got new internet with new restrictions. I'll post it all later, I'm going to bed.
Not sure I should give this to her, which is why its here.
You are my one true love although I know you don't and probably won't realize that it is okay I don't need you to tell me you love me unless you do. all I need is for you to understand how much I love you and how much you truly mean to me. Which I know I have told you over and over that I love you, have I ever really told you why?
And I know you say I can find better but do you realize YOU are my better? There are so many reasons why I love you and I don't know if I can put them all in words. But I'll name a few if you want me to that is.
1. I love you I can talk to you about anything no matter what it is and that is hard for me to do to anybody but you.
2. I love how you know what I am feeling most of the time even when I say different.
3. I love you for being yourself and not changing for anyone no matter what they would say or think that that you should be and for teaching me how to be myself.
4. For putting up with me through all the drama and bullshit I put you through.
5. For being there for me for anything no matter what you had going on at the time.
6. For making me talk when I really didn't want to about what was bothering me at the time.
7. For caring even when I didn't think you did.
8. For making me laugh when nobody else could.
9. For not pushing me to far away when I would push to much.
10. For never going to far away when you disappear.
11. For never really walking away even when I know you wanted too.
12. For just being there and listening when you really didn't have anything to say.
And then you ask me why I love you and how I could, well theres a short never ending list of why.
I'm so sick of being controlled they can't control me to a point, but they still have 2 things where they have some control over me, and I'm so sick of it, I do believe they put my internet on a fucking curfew cause at 1:15 am last night (while I was finally getting to talk to Amanda) my internet goes out, and it royally pissed me the fuck off, and my mother won't let me my dad (the only one i want to teach me to drive which she damn well knows) teach me to drive. She blew up last weekend cause he handed me the keys to go move the car. And then my internet goes out like I'm SOME KID!!!! Fuck that shit. They need to quit trying to control me, I am not a kid and I am not their kid, which if they even fucking took the time to look at whats going on they would fucking know it. But they don't fucking notice shit, they just love controlling people. And when they can't they just love getting pissed off and taking it out on me.
I'm so fucking sick of being controlled by anybody and I'm sick of texas (sorry but I am).
I'm having a bad day.
I'm sorry for whatever I did.
Don't worry I'll stop bothering you though. Since thats all I seem to do.