n1ghtshade's Blog

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Date: Jan 21st, 2008 10:00:59 am - Subscribe
Mood: emotionless
Music...: She Hasn't Heard It Yet - Jamie O'Neal

I cut
I cry
And yet I don't
Bleed
I don't feel any better
But Yet I don't feel any worse.

I don't feel anything at all
So I cut again
Hoping to feel something
I don't need to feel much
Just something.

Other then this dark emptiness
I am crying even harder now
I can barely breath
Why can't I feel anything?

I silently scream
I cut even deeper
I start to bleed
Finally something
Why do I get to this point?

I am crying so hard I can't see
But I am still cutting
Still trying to feel
Still silently screaming
Why can't I stop?

So many thoughts are
Going through my mind
I stop.

Everything around me is silent
Darkness falls around me
But its beautiful
It calms me and tortures me
All at the same time.

I let out a scream
Cause the silence is to much to bare
I still feel so numb
I'm bleeding
Its beautiful.

I'm shaking
When will I feel again?
I take a deep breath
Still barely breathing
I run my razor acrossed my arm.

Still nothing
Just more blood
More tears run down my face
Over and over again
I drag the blade acrossed my skin

Trying to feel
The only sound now
Is my heartbeat
Blood is flowing down my arms now
I go outside the stars are shining.

So I'm not alone
I fall to the ground
I cut
One last time
Nothing
Still!!!

What is wrong with me?
I drop the razor
It falls to the ground
I look up at the stars
Crying harder
Still barely breathing.

The moon comes out
And joins the stars
Its a full moon
Its bright white
It seems to be smiling at me.

The cold wind starts to blow
At first I can't feel it
Then all of a sudden
I feel it
Against my skin and face.

And I make a silent promise
To the wind, moon and stars
Never
To pick up a razor
Ever again.

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