Real Intentions
19th Jan 2008 @ 9:34 am - Subscribe
I'm feeling beat
$40 (and $5 on Fri)
$40 (and $5 on Fri)
I've never written about this before. Not because it is some dark secrets. Nor is it something I'm ashamed of. It just never is something I wrote. Maybe because I would not want to know what readers perception of me is at my normal blog.
I have discussed it with friends.
It isn't really something normal either in my society. But it isn't illegal or anything like that.
What is it? Its about marriage and children.
You see, when I was in school, I used to dream of marrying early. I hoped to find the man of my dreams and so on and so forth. The second part was mostly teenage thoughts. But the marrying early was not a fleeting thought. I still had that in mind when I reached my early 20s. It was quite exasperating when I became 21, then 22, and 23, and so forth. "So when is prince charming stopping by to ring the bell," I'd mused.
Along those years, I attended this one health course. About first pregnancy, being healthy and optimum at an early age. And this early age is before 32 (varies of course between women). And it struck me. Did I want to get married because I wanted to get married, or because I wanted a family. A big one at that. Which meant I need to have my first child quick.
It is absurd to put it that way of course. But it did made me think on why I was so adamant, so wanting to get married early.
Not that I would want to settle down with just any Tom Dick or Harry, but well, there are stronger wantings.
Oh wouldn't it be great if there is someone I already fancy?
I have discussed it with friends.
It isn't really something normal either in my society. But it isn't illegal or anything like that.
What is it? Its about marriage and children.
You see, when I was in school, I used to dream of marrying early. I hoped to find the man of my dreams and so on and so forth. The second part was mostly teenage thoughts. But the marrying early was not a fleeting thought. I still had that in mind when I reached my early 20s. It was quite exasperating when I became 21, then 22, and 23, and so forth. "So when is prince charming stopping by to ring the bell," I'd mused.
Along those years, I attended this one health course. About first pregnancy, being healthy and optimum at an early age. And this early age is before 32 (varies of course between women). And it struck me. Did I want to get married because I wanted to get married, or because I wanted a family. A big one at that. Which meant I need to have my first child quick.
It is absurd to put it that way of course. But it did made me think on why I was so adamant, so wanting to get married early.
Not that I would want to settle down with just any Tom Dick or Harry, but well, there are stronger wantings.
Oh wouldn't it be great if there is someone I already fancy?
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January 19th, 2008
My own views on having children are pretty dark, I'd think. But I do have my reasons, as does everyone.
But I think I still want to get married at an early age, even though I feel I have no chance. I think of myself as being really weird from other women.
And of course having someone you fancy is a good step forward ;D
But I think I still want to get married at an early age, even though I feel I have no chance. I think of myself as being really weird from other women.
And of course having someone you fancy is a good step forward ;D
