not fair.
Date: 20 May 2007 15:58:14 - Subscribe
Mood: cold.
you lay
your head down
next to hers.
and I'm screaming,
too far away
for you to hear.
and in your dreams,
I'm smiling,
telling you it's fine.
telling you
it doesn't hurt;
I trust you.
and in my head,
my rage is contained
so I see she's smiling.
and I can't have you.
not yet, anyway -
so you can have your fun.
nothing ever happens.
no disaster ensues,
so I hold my fears close.
I save my bitterness
for the next time;
following behind you,
wishing I weren't
the only girl in town
who can't have you.
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australia
Date: 26 February 2007 17:14:18 - Subscribe
Mood: torn.
so go.
get on a
goddamn plane.
one way
or another,
I can't hold you.
we waste our time
making each other
sick and tired.
why?
if I fall
if I misstep
you'll put another mile
on your ticket
and run.
we trade silences
and wonder
if things will ever
change.
you have all of me.
take it and run.
go with her.
I hope my heart's weight
won't burden you.
so just go.
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lonely.
Date: 10 January 2007 22:54:30 - Subscribe
Mood: sigh.
I sleep
curled up
beside the phone,
and I hate -
I hate -
that I'm not beside you.
I'm like a petulant child:
why, WHY can't I be
a grownup like you?
you don't call me
on your break at work
anymore.
what do you do
to pass away the time?
who do you talk to
in the silence of your mind?
I wish I could be certrain
that I'm always
behind your closed eyes
as you are
behind mine.
if only
I could
inhabit your dreams.
I would make you
come to me
again -
and
again.
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3600 pieces
Date: 08 January 2007 23:23:39 - Subscribe
Mood: concerned.
3600 jigsaw puzzle pieces of me
sometimes I don't show
all or very much of the picture
sometimes I am here only in
the bits I feel confident with
in front of you and your open eyes
fragments of melody and lyric
I rest my heart in
if you disapprove, then where
where ought my heart to sleep?
and if I am - and I often am -
letting my sadness carry me off
in words, spoken or otherwise
where am I to turn
when my heart has a voice?
and I am yours, as you are mine
but you do talk circles around me.
how can the scientist understand?
3600 jigsaw puzzle pieces of me
what would happen if we found
that you don't love them all?
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where we lay
Date: 07 January 2007 02:12:44 - Subscribe
Mood: pining away.
where we lay
before tidal waves
of rude awakening
here, where I am
where we lay
together
I can't sleep,
oh, nor rest at all
in this place -
in this bed -
and I shiver
cold where your skin
touched mine
I can't close my eyes
and I cannot breathe
alone where we lay
together.
what wouldn't I give
for your breath in my ear
and your arms around me
tonight.
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