norths Aeonity Blog

not fair.

Sun, 20 May 2007 16:58:14 -0400

you lay your head down next to hers. and I'm screaming, too far away for you to hear. and in your dreams, I'm smiling, telling you it's fine. telling you it doesn't hurt; I trust you. and in my head, my rage is contained so I see she's smiling. and I can't have you. not yet, anyway - so you can have your fun. nothing e... Read More

australia

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 18:14:18 -0500

so go. get on a goddamn plane. one way or another, I can't hold you. we waste our time making each other sick and tired. why? if I fall if I misstep you'll put another mile on your ticket and run. we trade silences and wonder if things will ever change. you have all of me. take it and run. go with her. I hope my... Read More

lonely.

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 23:54:30 -0500

I sleep curled up beside the phone, and I hate - I hate - that I'm not beside you. I'm like a petulant child: why, WHY can't I be a grownup like you? you don't call me on your break at work anymore. what do you do to pass away the time? who do you talk to in the silence of your mind? I wish I could be cert... Read More

3600 pieces

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 00:23:39 -0500

3600 jigsaw puzzle pieces of me sometimes I don't show all or very much of the picture sometimes I am here only in the bits I feel confident with in front of you and your open eyes fragments of melody and lyric I rest my heart in if you disapprove, then where where ought my heart to sleep? and if I am - and I often am - letting my ... Read More

where we lay

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 03:12:44 -0500

where we lay before tidal waves of rude awakening here, where I am where we lay together I can't sleep, oh, nor rest at all in this place - in this bed - and I shiver cold where your skin touched mine I can't close my eyes and I cannot breathe alone where we lay together. what wouldn't I give for your breath in my ea... Read More

Jessica.

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 22:47:47 -0500

Jessica likes to talk and laugh. Jessica has pretty, dark hair. her eyes dance even in incandescent light. I'm sorry I'm always so sad I know you'd like to see me laugh. Jessica rolls with life. Jessica doesn't scream inside. and she'll play your video games with you. I wish things'd just bounce off me; for you I'd become t... Read More

abdication.

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 01:58:27 -0500

from here on, I remove myself from all duties of worrying for your sake. I will care, but from a distance; live and let live they say. I abdicate the self-inflicted position of wet blanket I don't want it anymore. I'll do what I want and let you worry about me for a change. I will live my own life I will not cling to you... Read More

poetry in real-time

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 00:09:25 -0500

me: how are you? him: good. me: things at work? him: awesome. me: could we spend New Year's day together? him: can't, working. sorry. double-time pay! me: right. very nice. him: just a moment. me: okay. (...) me: hello? him: oh, hi. me: I don't suppose y... Read More