I'm back :D
Date: Mar 27th, 2007 10:09:18 pm - Subscribe
Mood: vulnerable

So how long has it been since I posted? Almost a year? Ha. It's not like anyone ever bothers to read other peoples' blogs anyway, so whatever. Oh well, I don't have anything better to do (except for all that homework and cleaning that needs to get done, but that can wait grin.gif)

Anyways, what can I talk about here? American Idol was freaking awesome tonight. I'm in love with Jordin Sparks. She's my future wife, she just doesn't know it yet.

I was just reading through all my old posts. That was amusing. I was a whiny little emo kid, wasn't I? You know what? I still kind of am grin.gif Only now I whine about having too many girls liking me rather than too few. It's just never enough for me is it? I've got five people that are stalking me to varying degrees. You'd be jealous if it weren't so damn creepy.

And I've become that really obnoxious kid that keeps dating the same person over and over again even though it's painfully obvious that it will never work out. Kamisha. Weird name I know, but she's a weird kid. And I love that little weirdo. We're friends right now, and I want to try and keep it that way for as long as possible. We fight too often when we're together.

I'm afraid it's one of those things where you just can't go back though. We flirt without even meaning to. We always have those lingering glances where you can look into the other person's eyes and see their soul or something sappy and dramatic like that. It's silly, I know. But that's what it is.

Anyways, I'm being told that a friend of mine will kill me if I don't get my homework done tonight, so I guess I'm done here.
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Man sex!
Date: Sep 11th, 2006 1:24:54 pm - Subscribe
Mood: random!

Dude, The covenant is totally a yaoi version of The Craft. I wonder how much fanfiction is up already. (please don't actually tell me. I don't much like man porn. (but if you know of any good ones for The Craft, I'm all over it ^^))
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Date: Aug 14th, 2006 1:29:12 am - Subscribe
Mood: broken

I need to whine, but I haven't bothered posting in forever, so none of you know what going on. Quick recap then: Beth and I broke up. It was painfully obvious that she didn't feel the same way and never would. I thought it would be easier if I could just move on. It probablly would be. Moving on is the issue. And it's been killing me ever since.

Anyways. I haven't talked to her at all since we broke up. Only a couple of times all summer. But she finally bothered to sign on to AIM today. It's the first time I've talked to her in months and she's ignoring me for some anime roleplay.

I guess thats all I really have to say. I'm really just bitching about nothing. AHHH! Today has been a long day.

I miss her. So much.

Edit: Oh, well I guess you didn't need the quick recap. I forgot about that last post. Oh well.
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Note to self, I miss you terribly
Date: Jul 30th, 2006 1:58:18 am - Subscribe
Mood: lonely and emo and pathetic

I haven't posted since I don't even know when, so even if you do care, you don't know what the hell's going on. Quick recap: I lost my mind after school got out for the summer. Beth and I were really not working out. I never got to see her or talk to her or anything. So I broke up with her.

I'm starting to think that was my biggest mistake in recent memory. I've been going crazy lately missing her. I'm sure we could have made it work if we had tried. I don't know. Maybe not.

I don't even know what else to say here. I wanted to be the breath of fresh air. And now I'm quoting crappy emo songs. Nice, time to shut up now.

Of course I make the subject a crappy emo song quote too.

Wow, so I just realized how completley stupid and pointless this post was. Get over it. I miss her.
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I don't know...I just don't know
Date: Jun 18th, 2006 2:43:53 am - Subscribe
Mood: lost

I don't know what's going on. I don't how I feel right now. I don't know how she feels. I don't know what I want to do.

I got it in my head to break up with Beth a couple of days ago, but everytime I picked up the phone to call her I just couldn't go through with it. I though about calling Mara too. She could have done the good sister thing and helped me figure out what the hell was going on in my head, but I couldn't even imagine putting this into words.

Really though the only people that have ever really understood what was going on in my head are Ashley and Tobie. I feel stupid talking about my relationship woes with Tobie and Ashley, well... So Mara couldn't have helped much anyways.

I don't think I could go through with breaking up with her now though. But something needs to change. I need to talk to her.

Something needs to change in general, not just with Beth. I just got Carrie Underwood's CD. Maybe I'll get back on country music.

I wish Nicole would get online.
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