crowsblood
I'm SO Back! - Subscribe
So, I'm back, and this time for good. You guys are the greatest.
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crowsblood
I'm SO Back! - Subscribe
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Wow, it's been quite a while, hasn't it? Sorry, for a small time I've abandoned Emo . . uh, Aeonity. For that small time, I went to Livejournal and MySpace, and let me tell you, those places are way over-rated! No one really comments on your blog, not like over here. I remember, back in the day I used to get a ton of comments. I really, really miss that. So, I'm back, and this time for good. You guys are the greatest. |
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crowsblood
Insomnia! Jul 4th, 2005 12:19:23 pm - Subscribe
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Happy fourth! ^^ Ugh, I've been up all night, and it's almost 6:30 over here. o_O It's Monday, right? Better get to bed before I get caught. =P Why do I feel so itchy? |
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Tomorrow and Today Jul 3rd, 2005 9:38:25 pm - Subscribe
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The Fourth of July is just tomorrow! And I won't be camping! I'll be able to see all the pretty fireworks! *smile* At 6:00 I'll be going to see War of the Worlds, with Koya, who's long-gone from Emo Blog (why am I even bothering to put a link?). Yeah, I don't even know if that movie is any good--of course, it's the one in theatres right now I'm talking about. It was my mom's idea. I noticed I haven't been getting any comments. I guess I scared you guys all away with my cutting story and extreme bitchiness, didn't I? I'm so sorry . . . |
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crowsblood
Dolls Don't Need Pubic Hair, Thanks Jul 3rd, 2005 7:27:40 am - Subscribe
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Well, today turned out pretty good, in spite of the lack of AIMs I'm getting (hinthint, winkwink). My mom spent a ton o' money on a garage sale. The woman there was obviously a very craft-y person. She had homemade card, towels, wreaths . . It got me all inspired. I really want to start working on my NEW IMPROVED KARASU DOLL. I threw the old one away. He was going bald and falling apart. The way his legs spread out and revealed his cotton-filled butt wasn't too lovely, either. Not to mention the remaining black fabric that was stuck on his . . uh, yeah . . from a pair of crappy legs being sewn there. Beautiful. Dolls don't need pubic hair, thanks. XD |
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crowsblood
Just To Add Something Jul 2nd, 2005 5:24:18 pm - Subscribe
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I should be getting ready for a long and boring camp with my dad, but because of my period with its severe cramps, I got out of it. Not without his crap, though. C'mon, he never even acknowledges me when his girlfriend and her girls are there, so how is my not being there ruining the vacation? Also, he did not plan the damn trip especially for me. I hate when he lies like that. Anyway, I don't have to deal with him until Tuesday. |
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crowsblood
Avacado Allergy? Jun 29th, 2005 1:34:45 am - Subscribe
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A lot has happened in the past few. I've been especially nervous, and I'm really afraid to eat any fruits. I think I may be allergic to latex, which can be a really dangerous allergy and causes the throat to swell up (fuck, fuck, fuck!!) Whenever I eat an avocado, my lips get all itchy and they start to burn. So do my gums. It's called cross-reacting or something. God, I hate my body. I got into a big fight with my step-dad and mom. I . . uh . . cut myself. Again. I almost won myself a one-way trip to Intermountain Hospital. I hate my step-dad. He makes up all this shit about me, saying I'm likely to hurt my little brother and all this shit. Fuck him. That was last night. I swear I'll never do it again, though. A knife wouldn't do, so I took apart a cheap-o razor. I blade works better than a knife. I wasn't aware how well, though. I sliced my upper arm. A little slice, just to test, I guess. I don't know, I was too snapped to know what I was doing. Be thankful it was my upper arm. My skin is split, and I can barely see my muscles. It started bleeding, and it wasn't meant to go that deep. So, I had to tell my mom, and there began a whole super-drama, with me dancing around drunkenly because my brain was overloaded. The point is, as I was taking a shower today, I thought, "What if it was my wrist. What if I hadn't "tested" the blade first?" I wouldn't be here. I know how to cut a wrist the right way. I could be dead right now. Yeah. All because I'm sick of my body acting like shit. But here's a slightly amusing thought for me. You know, I have a big obsession with crows. A few of my friends have dubbed me the "Crow Princess." One day, a girl came up to me and told me I looked like a raven. It was amazing, and freaky. Think about it, it is pretty weird that I'd have this obsession with crows, and someone says I resemble one. Well, the avocado allergy plays a little part in this. Click THIS.  That is utterly ironic. Oh, and I do NOT resemble The Crow or The Penguin (thank God) in any way. lol |
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crowsblood
New Layout Jun 21st, 2005 10:00:40 pm - Subscribe
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It may take forever for the background to load, but that's okay. Just wait a little while. I got tired of my old layout, so here's a new one. Not quite what I want, but that won't be up for awhile. I'm waiting for a digital camera, or at least a good art program (Photoshop, PSP7). |
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The Way I Laugh . . Jun 19th, 2005 4:58:10 am - Subscribe
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God, I feel drunk. My brother and I laugh and make fun of the most stupid things, and I sit there, clutching my sides, having laughing fits for no reason and all. He's sitting there, making fun of the way I laugh, because I have these weird gasps and shrieks. Koya told me I sound like a retard when I laugh. |
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DEG! Jun 15th, 2005 1:24:21 am - Subscribe
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I hate how you look for a certain thing, but it isn't there, but something similiar is in its place. Sadly, that similiar thing won't do you any good. I went over to Koyako's again (no, she's not dead). She got a Dir En Grey DVD, and we watched that. OMG, I've never seen a cuter group! ^_^ Little Kyo, trying to be all scary and shit . . . I love it. It's adorable. The DVD was pretty interesting, I got to see how Kyo dances around on the stage like someone with serious brain problems. It's pretty cool how he makes all this shit pour out from his eyes and mouth. Everyone's probably like, "What the fuck!?" I get to leave home tomorrow! I have to get up at 3:00 in the morning. No problem! I'll be up. >_> |
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crowsblood
I Don't Want to Tan! Jun 7th, 2005 10:11:24 pm - Subscribe
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I have a problem. I don't want to tan, but I tan so easily! Does sunscreen actually PREVENT tanning? I'll be outside a lot, but I don't really have to choice, thanks to my fucking controlling dad who doesn't give a shit about my body and what it does and needs. I need help. I really, really don't want to tan! I look so ugly . . uh . . uglier, with a tan (I'm not saying dark-skinned people are ugly, ok!? I'm saying I am). o_O Yeah, and none of us want that. It'd scare everyone off the planet, and leave me depressed. I think the best solution is for my dad to die, but I really doubt that'll happen. Stupid shit. >_>;; Isn't it so unfair, how the evil people live long and get to torment, while the good die faster. Dammit, dammit, dammit! |
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crowsblood
The Defeat of Writer's Block Jun 6th, 2005 2:02:04 am - Subscribe
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Okay, so after sitting in front of the computer with a headache, reading through several fics from FF.net and FP.com for some spark of inspiration to begin my idea, I finally could start out my story in a satisfying way. W00T! I'm currently looking for a writing journal . . . It's a mood like this that I have the power to write so many stories out of my head and onto the computer, but try to restrain myself so I don't abandon one or the other. Heh. We abstract people have the oddest problems. |
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A Sigh Of Relief? Jun 4th, 2005 3:10:24 am - Subscribe
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I'm really amazed that I made it through 10th grade. Relieved, too. This year was complete hell. My hell won't end, though, until mid-summer, for certain reasons I cannot say. I hope everything turns out ok . . . I can't stand this anymore. I can finally get rid of all the papers that have gathered around in my room. They all come from this year! You won't believe how much crap there is under my bad, and it's mostly school papers. Maybe I should give myself more credit for completing 10th grade than I really am. Too bad I have to retake Algebra. I'll probably be, like, the only damn junior in the fucking class. I might have to retake health, too. I hope not. I hate Mr. Anderson. He's all cheesy and shit, and he's a total hypocrite. He also can't grade worth shit. I went in there every day after I was gone, I got the work I needed to do . . etc, and I still failed. That bastard has problems. So, anyway. Summer. Yeah. It feels weird. I still think I'll have school on Monday, but now, I'll be going to a certain hell labeled "Dad's House." School or my dad? I choose school. I was kind of sad, leaving for the summer. I've realized that I hate good-byes. That's what makes departure so much more painful. |
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crowsblood
Almost Made It . . . Jun 3rd, 2005 6:22:39 am - Subscribe
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Two more periods of class, and one more final to take, and I'm out free for the summer! It's almost over, and in August I'll have a chance to start fresh, and next year I swear to myself I'll do the hardest I can! OMGWFT!? Resolutions already? @_@ A little too eager there . . Ningyo-chan . . .  |
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crowsblood
Iyarashii desu yo!! Jun 1st, 2005 4:32:33 am - Subscribe
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Gaaah! @_@ My binder smells of frog, now, after we did the dissection! I even found some fat bodies from the frog in my binder. Iyarashii!  O_O O_O O_Ox ^_^x Anyway, I've been having these pains in my head. First it started as a sharp piercing in my head, and now my ear is starting to hurt. It could be allergies, but . . I don't know. I've never had this happen to me before. I'm kind of scared. |
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crowsblood
Random Thought May 31st, 2005 4:59:36 am - Subscribe
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| If you dug a whole to the other side of the Earth, and dropped something, what would happen when it would reach the other side? Would it fall through again, in an up-and-down pattern, or would it stop somewhere at the center? o_O |
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crowsblood
Meme May 30th, 2005 5:19:51 am - Subscribe
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Stole this from xgivingupx's journal. |
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crowsblood
Gradumalation. May 29th, 2005 6:33:01 am - Subscribe
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I went to Koyako's graduation! It was . . . disappointing. They threw in so many stupid things during the ceremony that it was boring. I mean, they had the vice-principal (or something like that . .) and the damn chior teacher sing a song for them. They didn't even get their damn deplomas! It was fun afterward, though. Her mom is so nice to me. ^^ Makes me feel loved. We had cake, pizza, and besically just hung out. Good enough for me. It wasn't too great when I ate three pieces of pizza and a piece of cake, though. My stomach still hurts from that. Never eat anything greasy when you have cramps and are bleeding from the . . ahem . . underside. o_O I wasn't going to post, but I got sick of the rant about some bitch that doesn't know her gender. LOL It's been a long day. I'm gonna hit the sack. --_-- |
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Just in Case May 26th, 2005 11:06:50 pm - Subscribe
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I don't hate Chris because she's a he-she. I hate her because she said some really mean things to me that hurt me a lot. I was her friend once, and I had such a low expection of what a "friend" was, I thought her down-sizing behavior was normal, until it gotg so bad that when I was around her, I'd change into a rather mean and down-sizing person myself because I was so scared of doing something that she's take the pleasure to point out. I just wanted to clear that up, incase anyone misunderstood. ^^ She'd be fine if she knew how to treat people, she's actually a really smart girl. Which makes me hate her even more . . . I'd write more, but I've got places to go. |
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I Love It! May 26th, 2005 3:29:44 am - Subscribe
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Today was just . . normal. No disappointments. Wow, that's a rare day, especially on a Wednesday, when I have to go visit my dad. In art, we just worked on our t-shirt. I messed up on it before, and, surprisingly, Mr. Clayton gave me another piece. Wow! After he told us we couldn't have another piece. Although, he did keep teasing me about it. Oh, and Chris Hedden, the bitch that can't decide if she's a boy or girl, was making fun of me with her little "group" (which won't last long, I promise). My group had fun poking shit at her, though, too. Lucia, a big, tough, strong . . you get it . . Mexican girl at my group (with enormously gorgeous hair! O_O) stated that Chris bothered her. I was all, "Yeah, she's a bitch." Monique said, "That's a GIRL!? I thought it was a guy!" Then she told us, "Once, I was in the locker room and I saw her, and I was all, 'Whoa! Why's a guy in here?'" ROTFLMAO! XD I love it. Stupid bitch can't say anything about me being stupid, she can't even decide if she's a fucking girl or boy. I have to admit, though, I do do a lot of stupid stuff. I only did that project wrong because I'm never in class. I know I'm advanced in things that count, as well as academic crap such as Language Arts and Reading. Just one more strength to make learning Japanese a whole lot easier! ^^ So, anyway, great fun. Great fun. |
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Maybe . . . May 25th, 2005 4:10:28 am - Subscribe
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Whoo! Five comments! That makes me feel a little better. Earlier I was stuck feeling like shit, for several reasons. Anyway, my friend, who doesn't know me at all, is pissed at me because I bluntly stated the obvious. I just hate how people are all, "I'm your friend!" and then they totally ignore your existence. She was all, "You think you're the only one who has problems?", and she began to recall all this crap in her life, some crap was so retarded it was funny. x_x When she mentioned her head was screwed up, I was like, "Yeah! When stating this bullshit, I can tell!" I know I'm sounding like a bitch, but . . . I don't know. I think I'm just pissed because I never said I was the only one with problems, and yet, people assume that. I know people have problems, but I'm stuck in several situations now that I can't escape, and I seemingly can't be heard. I'm going to draw a little. That should take my mind off of things. Maybe work on a new layout, too. |