step-by-step

Mar 25th, 2009 12:26:37 am - Subscribe
Mood: hopeless
lovely things:: smiley eyes & fluttery stuff

So first off there were the goofy jokes and late nights.
Then the nervous first meeting. Swishing beer around. Tugging up the shirt sleeves. Touching the table. Fidgeting around. Awkward laughter. But nice.
Then more loosened up. Still quiet and nervous. Electricity at the first brush against the arm. Then the anticipation of when he'll move next. Movie forgotten. You try to yawn and stretch closer towards him. Nothing. You grit your teeth a bit at the slow pace of it all.

I get it, okay?.
I'm going through the basics here. I'm a pre-teen discovering what boys are like. What this whole dating thing is.

And it's slow and frustrating is what it is. And disappointing when you walk back from the car muttering "fuck" because you/he didn't do anything. Again.

Wondering what to make of him. What makes him tick 'n turn 'n twist? The quiet ones are the most difficult that's for sure.

Almost make me want to go for the easy solution. But a promise is a promise.

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